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I thank you for your support and grateful for this opportunity.  Thank you also for believing in me. That touches me most of all.

The way I do these tiers is I do what feels natural and right to me and I think if you're agreeing to give me some of you hard-earned wealth, you believe in me. It doesn't matter to me how much you give (though of course I feel more obligated the more you are willing to throw at me, that's just natural right? Which is good, vague feelings of obligation means I'll try harder.

But I don't hold with withholding content from anyone who's interested in me or with the other stuff I see being done. I'm Bruneian at heart, for me, capitalism is at its worst a necessary evil, at its best a tool for distributing goods and services. I'm not an entrepreneur, I'm not here to make money. 

I'm here to make this sustainable. So everything is available to everyone. The upper tiers is in case you want to contribute more and if you do, I do want to talk to you a bit more as you see something here and that merits discussion. We'll figure out what form that takes as we move along.

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As I move on I hope this will allow me to pursue other projects, meaningful or silly, as long as it pushes me and allows me to grow. At this tier you are are saying you believe in me that much and you want that for me as well. That is amazing and I am in awe. 

The way I do these tiers is I do what feels natural and right to me and I think if you're agreeing to give me some of you hard-earned wealth, you believe in me. It doesn't matter to me how much you give (though of course I feel more obligated the more you are willing to throw at me, that's just natural right? Which is good, vague feelings of obligation means I'll try harder.

But I don't hold with withholding content from anyone who's interested in me or with the other stuff I see being done. I'm Bruneian at heart, for me, capitalism is at its worst a necessary evil, at its best a tool for distributing goods and services. I'm not an entrepreneur, I'm not here to make money.

I'm here to make this sustainable. So everything is available to everyone. The upper tiers is in case you want to contribute more and if you do, I do want to talk to you a bit more as you see something here and that merits discussion. We'll figure out what form that takes as we move along.

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Thank you. I feel like I did writing this out at the last tier But its slightly more intense. Which is even better then. If even the thought of someone supporting me at this level is already pushing me to do stuff then  your actual contribution will make me explode, explode

The way I do these tiers is I do what feels natural and right to me and I think if you're agreeing to give me some of you hard-earned wealth, you believe in me. It doesn't matter to me how much you give (though of course I feel more obligated the more you are willing to throw at me, that's just natural right? Which is good, vague feelings of obligation means I'll try harder.

But I don't hold with withholding content from anyone who's interested in me or with the other stuff I see being done. I'm Bruneian at heart, for me, capitalism is at its worst a necessary evil, at its best a tool for distributing goods and services. I'm not an entrepreneur, I'm not here to make money.

I'm here to make this sustainable. So everything is available to everyone. The upper tiers is in case you want to contribute more and if you do, I do want to talk to you a bit more as you see something here and that merits discussion. We'll figure out what form that takes as we move along.

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About Dreaming Aloud

So my name is Shah. And here's your TLDR in bold:

I'm really interesting. I also know a lot about a lot of things. So I'm making content around that.

Privately, I still think I'm in a coma because my life has been all WAY too interesting to be real, life doesn't work like that, come on. 


Ok so now I'm going a bit more in depth. As you can see - from the length - I do go on. You don't have to. You can find out more about me and why I'm so interesting by simple googling me "Shahiran Brunei". Please do consider being my patron and help me make what I want to do sustainable. Thank you for your time and all the my love for getting this far.

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For those willing to delve a bit further with me:

I was charged with sedition in July 2017 by the Brunei government over a facebook post criticizing their new halal certification policy, which would have impacted small businesses really badly. I was put on trial but escaped in late October 2018 to Canada before the verdict. And that is the summary of my making, that's how I became who I am today.

I thought that would be an ending of some sort. Like the credits would roll up as I boarded the plane if this were a movie. I mean a lot of shit went down on that topsy-turvy journey I had had. Little did I know, that THAT was just the opening montage.

You're reading this in 2020, you know this story will hit the COVID19 pandemic at some point. Spoilers.

But let's fast forward to April 2019 when I was homeless in downtown Vancouver, Brunei was just caught out by international human rights organizations about to quietly implement syariah law - despite promises that the country wouldn`t, I happening to be in the right place at the right time to speak out against Brunei, and the world's media desperately needing someone to put a face on the events.

So homeless me was being interviewed by Anderson Cooper over skype in early April 2019 in my social worker's office in downtown Vancouver on that cold April morning....

... because of course I didn't have anywhere else to take his skype call. You see why I sometimes think I partially succeeded in my suicide attempt in Kuala Lumpur on my way to Vancouver (oh! I should mention that I didn't intent to run, I just wanted to end it away from my family) and this is just all a coma dream. Has to be right?

I mean come on! A freaking PANDEMIC?

Just as everything was going right? If this was a TV show they'd complain how boring this new happy Shah has been for this past season, especially after all the excitement of season 1 (and I'll be tweeting threats to fans telling them to leave my char the fuck alone, he deserves some happiness ok), nothing I could ever imagine could have disrupted that happy trajectory I was on...

...a freaking pandemic? Really?

What lazy writing God! Or Coma Brain! Whoever is scripting this reality. All I ask is that - if this is a coma dream - I don't have grey hair on my balls when I wake up. Because that would mean I'm old. I say balls cos I assume a mirror won't be to hand when I wake up.

So...

... look, things still keep happening to me. Since 2015, life has been an adventure and I see now why wise people view that as a curse. Give me boring any day, I'll freaking take it!

But boring simply refuses to happen.

Taking in all that up there and add to the fact that I am a pretty cocky guy (or pretty AND cocky as the ladies say eh? hehe... they don't actually, I'm a gay man and I don't have many lady friends contrary to the stereotype. Well not in the city. My girlfriends are all online. SHOUTOUT!), I decided to start videoing myself talking about topics and general doing-dos, putting the more serious structured ones in playlists to separate from the chaff, but generally be quite random when it comes to the chaff bit.

But to give you an idea, I will be talking about stuff I am interested in and I am an eclectic person when it comes to interests. I have already planned outlines for talking about World history, politics, Muslims countries with restrictive laws and the rise of China. I even like to talk about stuff I know less about but will try to be respectful like native American issues, race relations in the United States and police violence, because I think voices like mine are seldom heard and who knows what perspective and insights can be gleaned if I add mine to the table.

So essentially, this would be an opinion piece if i was writing for a newspaper and I have been given free reign to talk about whatever I want. I'll likely come back to this in a few weeks and tighten up the field of topics I will talk about because as I make content, my focus will sharpen and I'll settle into a niche.

And I have a pretty good idea of what niche would be, but because things do happen to me that make me go "WTF are the writers doing putting that in my life right now..." I think I should leave it open-ended, in a Vlog format, in case I need to do a bunch of content focusing on just me. I have left out so many details about my life in this post alone and even after looking at the collective articles, videos, interviews and posts on me, I realised there is a lot more I really like to share with people.

This is simply because I had no time to do any of this in the media I'd made or I helped people to make about me. Like the story behind why as a 6 year old, I thought having a 14 foot long crocodile downstairs was normal. Doesn't everyone have crocodiles for household pets? Or the story behind why  I use the Northern Irish word "scunderred" so frequently and automatically that I had to purge it out of my lexicon because it confused too many people. See, I am interesting.

I told you I was cocky.

& given my incomplete history I gave here, I think you'd agree that I should have some sort of spotlight, after all it's traditional for a man of my sexual orientation. Yaaas Queen! I'm sure I just used that phrase correctly this time round. If, after all that there, you want to help me make what I want to do sustainable and reach more people, then please consider being my patron starting at $1 a month. Thank you so much for reading all this here from me. That alone makes you a star in my eyes.

Have a good day eh?
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I estimate that this is the minimum amount I need to reach to be able to take on the podcast and not take on a second job. I'll do a special episode to make this goal achieved. With a short patrons-only shout out to thank all of you who are supporting me.
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