Mer

is creating Multimedia Art, Healing, and Resistance
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LIGHT AS A FEATHER
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Welcome to my cozy little corner of cyberderp. Thanks for being here. I appreciate every last downy one of you.


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ON THE WING
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I love giving and receiving paper mail! As a more tangible way to say thank you for your generous monthly support, Patrons at this level can expect personalized tangible missives from time to time in the post. You'll also receive merch prototypes like stickers and mini-prints every once in a while. And please do write me back via the snail courier, if you like. I'll try to keep the pen pal party goin.


(Portrait by darling Icka Boo.)


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T1TS 'N' TALONS TO THE WIND
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This tier was suggested to me by folks who love Funranium Phil's uuhhhmazing BBotE beverages, and also by those who love the increasingly elaborate and creepy art shenanigans that artist Paul Komoda and I have been getting up to over the years. Blood of the Harpy is a potent cold-vacuum-extracted coffee produced by Funranium Labs. Pricy because it's so tastily potent and independently, ethically made. I literally drink it by the thimble full. Less acidic or bitter than drip coffee, with forty times the caffeination per shot, so READ THE LABEL BEFORE CONSUMING, NOOBZ. This would be a good tier to go in on with office buddies (or tour buddies, if you've got a fridge on the bus). The exquisitely detailed label was drawn and hand-lettered to my specs by Paul, on commission, and a lion's share of of each month's earnings from this tier will go directly towards funding future collabs with him, for he is my very faevrit monstermaker and guinea-pig daddy of all time. OF ALL TIME. COFFEE IS LIFE


  • One bottle of Blood of the Harpy per month
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About Mer

Hi! My name's Meredith Yayanos, a.k.a. Mer, or Theremina.

I'm a musician, an editor of prose and journalism, a multimedia storyteller, and the creator and director of the haunted chamber music project The Parlour Trick. 

To put it mildly... I lay (and break) a whole lotta eggs!

From 2007 through 2012, as co-founder of Coilhouse Magazine and Blog, I managed various editorial and curatorial and community outreach aspects of the print publication in addition to writing much of its daily online content. In 2016, on the day Cheetolini was sworn in, I launched a coffee brand called BLOOD OF THE HARPY in cahoots with friends to raise funds for an ongoing monstrous feminist art rage collective known as #HARPYCORPS.

I was chin deep, for years, in other stuff that's thornier to discuss, but those of you who know... Well. You know. Always on the move. Rarely making a stable living wage. Never anywhere close to fully free, healthy, or present. Eventually, I burned out. Mentally, physically, spiritually, you name it. That's something I'm sure plenty of fellow fringe-living freelancers and activists can relate to. For the past couple years I've been mostly holed up with generous family and friends, far removed from the cities I once worked, performed, and fought some heartbreaking countercultural battles in. Maybe, someday, I'll find a safe and compassionate way to make some art about it.
The Parlour Trick: "Half Sick of Shadows" (Starring Rachel Brice) from Theremina on Vimeo.

For now, I'm focused on the present moment, and what it feels like to live in a state of increasingly integrated peace. When I open my eyes in the morning, I'm astonished to be alive and finding my way to a place of light and balance
after a very full but fractured forty-three years of life out on the bleeding edges of things.

Sometimes it feels like I'm waking up, joyfully, just in time to watch the world end. I'm certain a lot of people reading this can relate to that as well. Interesting times, you know?

In any case, there's more space and peace in my body and mind every day. The deeper my healing, the clearer my vision for more compassionate and playful paths onward. I'm excited to discuss that massive shift in neuroplasticity here with anyone who'd care to share notes.

Additionally, in recent months, as my health continues to steadily improve, I've returned with renewed gladness to modes of creative expression I wasn't sure my brain would ever be up for again: music, poetry, fiction-writing, scripting comics, photography, video.

I've been fortunate enough to do all of this while  hermiting out in nature, living off merch sales, working freelance and odd jobs when my health permits it, and being committed to a steady practice of meditation and talk therapy while recovering from, oh, all the things. I'm privileged af and grateful beyond words for the loved ones and resources that continue to bolster me, even after so much risk-taking and bridge-burning, and the inevitable fallout from some hard-won battles for wholeness and autonomy.

For the first time in a long time, I'm working on several new projects, all in tandem, with counsel and contributions from some longtime collaborators in several fields. They're brilliant friends who I insist upon paying for the honor of their time, skills and energy. Being financially stable enough to hire them, is, tbh, my single big incentive for finally launching this Patreon. (How's the song go? 🎶 We've got magic to do / just for you! We've got... actually, fackyoo, paaay mee 🎶?) 

Speaking of. Somehow, even though I'm a dissociative introvert with complex PTSD and social anxiety (feel free to substitute "asshole" for those descriptors if it seems more on the nose; I won't argue with you about it), after decades of travel and immersion in various communities, I've managed to sustain kinship with trustworthy peers and chosen family in just about every corner of the world. Many of them are fellow artists and writers. All of them are makers and doers with the drive to create powerful positive change in their communities. They're folks with integrity who are rooting for me just as hard as I will always root for them.

In addition to discussing and showcasing my own projects here, I'll be using The Harpy platform to promote the heck out of a bunch of these incredible humans. I encourage everyone who hangs out around here to get to know each other. Srsly. Talk amongst yuhselves. If I can manage to coax a bunch of the brilliant people I know to ditch Facebook and Twitter and Tumblr and Instagram for a little while each week to hang out here instead and get acquainted, it'll be such a good party! (I have my doubts that this will come about overnight, but I have to keep hoping that if I create this space, folks will eventually show up and take the conversation where they want it to go.) Meanwhile, crowdsourced patronage will help me keep a much-needed cushion under me tail feathers.

I have a well-earned reputation for ranting up a storm on social media, but I've said farewell to all the sites but one, and the truth is, more than anything else, I would love to hang on here with kind weirdos, sharing wonder and delight about:

Music and books and films and nature and activism and fairy tales and meditation and comics and therapy and monsters and wacky instruments and intersectional feminism and fashion and thriving in spite of mental illness and weird animals and defeating chronic pain and theatre and dance and butts and better living through organic chemistry and silly internet memes that makes me tip over laughing, and, last but never least, myriad forms of connectivity I'm keen to see nurtured and elevated.

  I'd like to encourage good times and good talks, here.



Gonna need to cultivate a more solid, steady-state base of ops online than I've yet managed on my own. One that I don't have to build from the ground up or struggle to maintain when I'm wrangling with my chronic health issues. One that will facilitate and deepen my connections with other creative people and, hopefully, bring in a bit of supplementary income, so that I can improve the quality and depth of whatever healing and imagining and working and playing we all get up to together.

For now, Patreon is where I'll be presenting previews and interviews, posting song demos and photo series, truffle-hunting funds and collaborators for independently produced music videos and short films, commissioning cultural essays and artwork from my peers, making personal playlists and vlogs, and hopefully, if you're feeling conversational, hosting discussions.

There'll be plenty of ridiculous photos and anecdotes from what I'm starting to refer to as Those Dubious Penny-Farthing Days, and the occasional fiery rant, I'm sure. But please don't let my gurning primate aspect get too carried away! With any luck, Patreon will become a place that honors my continuing slow and gentle recovery, as well as a hub that inspires everyone who partakes to GET YR BLISS ON, TOO. Because life's too short to not rejoice, even as we continue, every day, to resist industrialized fascist white supremacist kleptocratic patriarchal kyriarchy! Amirite?

I hope you'll join me for a little while! 

ps: Banner art is a detail of a frabjous monstrous femme watercolor commissioned from the ever-astonishing Eden Gallanter

pps: Holy macaroni! I can't believe you read this entire thing! How awesome are you?! BUTTS!!
Goals
$504 of $1,000 per month
I'll be able to put out new music! So excited to get my home studio better sorted, hire engineering help, and start producing digital and vinyl releases by both The Harpy and The Parlour Trick. There's so much music in the works right now in both modalities, and I'm superkeen to start putting out singles, EPs and albums again as soon as possible. It's a LOT of material. I just need a small boost to be able to bring up to the same quality standard as many of my past artbabies.
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