UltraViolence is creating Commentary Videos of Classic Doom with Mods
6

patrons

$88
per month
Why did I create a Patreon and my Youtube channel?
I'm going to cut right to the point because I don't really enjoy talking about these things... At the start of 2017 my Dad was diagnosed with a Meningioma which is a brain tumor. He had surgery for it and the whole thing messed him up really badly. I started my channel as a way to give myself something to do and take my mind off of everything that was going on. My Dad was in hospital for about 4 weeks, two of which were in the Intensive Care Unit. That month was spent wondering if he was going to make it at all. I threw up every day for a month and a half from anxiety and got caught in a loop where I would throw up and then feel anxious because I was afraid of throwing up, and then I was afraid I would throw up when I was with my Dad in hospital and he would blame himself. I was scared of so many things and every night I went to bed feeling physical pain in my chest because everything was just so fucked up. He went to rehab after hospital and stayed there for 8 weeks and was able to walk and be a bit independent when he left. Honestly, it's pretty sad but if you go back to my earlier videos from over a year ago you can really hear how sad I was from my voice compared to now where I've kind of gotten used to things. A year after surgery my Dad started getting sick again and we found out his tumor was growing back. He had radio therapy and a lot of things happened and now he is unable to walk at all and requires two people to assist him with things. We have carers who come into our house every day to help us.

Due to these circumstances I am unable to work a job currently. Because I'm the only other man in the house my strength is needed to help lift him from wheelchair to bed or anywhere really. I can go out sometimes but not for long. My sister recently got a job as a casual worker which honestly made hurt me quite a bit. My sister, 4 years younger than myself, has a job and I don't. It's hard. To make up for that I've decided to use this Patreon account in hopes of finding some kind of fulfillment. I do put a lot of work into my videos and figure maybe some people who enjoy my videos will want to support me.

I feel terrible for having a Patreon account and asking people to support me like this... But I have to do something.

I try to respond to most comments and I honestly see just about everyone on my channel as friends rather than subscribers. You guys are absolute champions and I can't thank you enough for even taking the time to read and understand a bit about where I'm at in life. If you don't want to give away money I completely understand, do NOT feel bad! I love you for just watching my videos and hope you'll continue to enjoy my content as time goes on. Once again, I love you all!

Thanks for reading.

Donations...
To be perfectly honest I have no idea what I'm doing with this Patreon... I feel guilty and greedy for even making one in the first place. In a similar way to how people don't want birthday presents from their friends on their birthdays, I don't want money. I want to be happy, I want to have fun and I want you guys to have fun and be happy as well. If you want to donate (if that's even the right word) money to support me and my work then I can do nothing but thank you. I'm not too sure how Patreon works so I'm going to follow what another Patreon has done and setup tiers of donations. Obviously I don't have the resources to create real rewards but this is the only way I know how to do it... If anyone has any ideas on what I could do for rewards feel free to comment on my videos and let me know. Thank you for taking the time to read!
Tiers
Legendary
$1 or more per month 1 patron
You're on your way to becoming a full-time pleb. JOIN US! But for real, thank you so much.
Enraged
$2 or more per month 0 patrons
You are so beautiful... To meeee. Seriously, thank you. You really didn't have to. 
Nemesis
$5 or more per month 0 patrons
Okay now you're starting to make me feel guilty... Please, no more! D:
True Legendary
$10 or more per month 0 patrons
Cmon man give me a break here! I can't handle this much kindness! I'm gonna pop! D;
True Nemesis
$15 or more per month 1 patron
How dare you. How dare you give me this much money. YOU'RE A GOD DAMN PSYCHO YOU KNOW THAT?! Thank you... So much. You absolute maniac.
Official Pleb
$20 or more per month 5 patrons
Pledge $20 and I just love you. I kind of regret writing all these corny descriptions for each pledge but I also can't be bothered going and re-writing them all... 


You're a hero. Thank you.

Goals
$1 – reached! per month
If I even make $1 from this then I'm happy. My goals were met when I realized how fun it was to be a part of the Doom community.
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Why did I create a Patreon and my Youtube channel?
I'm going to cut right to the point because I don't really enjoy talking about these things... At the start of 2017 my Dad was diagnosed with a Meningioma which is a brain tumor. He had surgery for it and the whole thing messed him up really badly. I started my channel as a way to give myself something to do and take my mind off of everything that was going on. My Dad was in hospital for about 4 weeks, two of which were in the Intensive Care Unit. That month was spent wondering if he was going to make it at all. I threw up every day for a month and a half from anxiety and got caught in a loop where I would throw up and then feel anxious because I was afraid of throwing up, and then I was afraid I would throw up when I was with my Dad in hospital and he would blame himself. I was scared of so many things and every night I went to bed feeling physical pain in my chest because everything was just so fucked up. He went to rehab after hospital and stayed there for 8 weeks and was able to walk and be a bit independent when he left. Honestly, it's pretty sad but if you go back to my earlier videos from over a year ago you can really hear how sad I was from my voice compared to now where I've kind of gotten used to things. A year after surgery my Dad started getting sick again and we found out his tumor was growing back. He had radio therapy and a lot of things happened and now he is unable to walk at all and requires two people to assist him with things. We have carers who come into our house every day to help us.

Due to these circumstances I am unable to work a job currently. Because I'm the only other man in the house my strength is needed to help lift him from wheelchair to bed or anywhere really. I can go out sometimes but not for long. My sister recently got a job as a casual worker which honestly made hurt me quite a bit. My sister, 4 years younger than myself, has a job and I don't. It's hard. To make up for that I've decided to use this Patreon account in hopes of finding some kind of fulfillment. I do put a lot of work into my videos and figure maybe some people who enjoy my videos will want to support me.

I feel terrible for having a Patreon account and asking people to support me like this... But I have to do something.

I try to respond to most comments and I honestly see just about everyone on my channel as friends rather than subscribers. You guys are absolute champions and I can't thank you enough for even taking the time to read and understand a bit about where I'm at in life. If you don't want to give away money I completely understand, do NOT feel bad! I love you for just watching my videos and hope you'll continue to enjoy my content as time goes on. Once again, I love you all!

Thanks for reading.

Donations...
To be perfectly honest I have no idea what I'm doing with this Patreon... I feel guilty and greedy for even making one in the first place. In a similar way to how people don't want birthday presents from their friends on their birthdays, I don't want money. I want to be happy, I want to have fun and I want you guys to have fun and be happy as well. If you want to donate (if that's even the right word) money to support me and my work then I can do nothing but thank you. I'm not too sure how Patreon works so I'm going to follow what another Patreon has done and setup tiers of donations. Obviously I don't have the resources to create real rewards but this is the only way I know how to do it... If anyone has any ideas on what I could do for rewards feel free to comment on my videos and let me know. Thank you for taking the time to read!

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Tiers
Legendary
$1 or more per month 1 patron
You're on your way to becoming a full-time pleb. JOIN US! But for real, thank you so much.
Enraged
$2 or more per month 0 patrons
You are so beautiful... To meeee. Seriously, thank you. You really didn't have to. 
Nemesis
$5 or more per month 0 patrons
Okay now you're starting to make me feel guilty... Please, no more! D:
True Legendary
$10 or more per month 0 patrons
Cmon man give me a break here! I can't handle this much kindness! I'm gonna pop! D;
True Nemesis
$15 or more per month 1 patron
How dare you. How dare you give me this much money. YOU'RE A GOD DAMN PSYCHO YOU KNOW THAT?! Thank you... So much. You absolute maniac.
Official Pleb
$20 or more per month 5 patrons
Pledge $20 and I just love you. I kind of regret writing all these corny descriptions for each pledge but I also can't be bothered going and re-writing them all... 


You're a hero. Thank you.