#VerseAngel By Angel Whispers is creating Blog (Disability, Gaming, Design), Poetry, Special Events
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A little bit about me... I'm John (or J). Some of you might know me as Angel Page, or Angel Whispers. I hope that you will enjoy the events and prompts I host, and other content I create. I hope that we can build and share lots of special memories, too. Writing this has been quite a draining experience, and I've laid a lot bare here. I don't know if it's my darkest hour yet, but I'll feel rather vulnerable once I hit the Publish Button, so, it's definitely up there.

I've been debating whether to set up a (Patreon) support page for a bit over two years, and this question has been one of a few sources of pain for me. At first, I resisted the idea, hoping that I would see an improvement in my position, but it has come to a point where I've had to reassess. There have been times where I've felt I'm staring upwards from the depths of a barrel, times where I've questioned the validity of what I'm doing, and that isn't always helped by the fact that my creative work is seen as "something I do "on the side"", or "not a "real" job". It feels as if I've had lots of ideas, which I've never been able to follow through, and I haven't posted on my blog as much as I hoped to, as a result of various events in my personal life. Behind being a host, I've been battling with my self-confidence, and years of job rejections have often made me doubt whatever qualities and qualifications I possess. The task of finding work is all the more difficult because I'm discouraged from disclosing the fact that I have a learning disability - If I don't disclose it, then it's assumed that nothing is wrong, and if I do, I'm not believed, or I can face rejection without knowing the reasons why, or I can be seen as a "risk" due to ignorant perceptions.

So, Where does the name "Angel Whispers/Angel Page" come from? It's from a magic spell in the Final Fantasy Video Game Series, combined with a belief in the comfort, healing and power of words. I first tried my hand at writing poetry in 2010, and finished my first poem, "2 Hearts In 4/4 Time" on 21st March that year, which I also call my "poetic birthday", and is, coincidentally, World Poetry Day!! Ten days later, I created a Twitter account (@angelwhispers_). Some sites wouldn't recognise "Whispers" as a surname, let alone a stage/online persona, so "Page" is because I have a social media page there. That's it!! In some cases, I use that, because I have had my identity stolen in the past... It doesn't really give too much away, while sounding more formal or "professional" (for want of better words) at the same time. It also makes sense when you've applied for jobs where you're known as your persona.

In 2011, I set up a blog, which started off as a natural progression from my Myspace page. On World Poetry Day 2016, I launched #VerseAngel, which is a series of writing and poetry prompt for Twitter users, and on the week of National Poetry Day 2016, I created the Poetry Arcade Zone, which is part of #VerseAngel, but more a fusion of special event-based word games set around the idea of a visit to an arcade or amusement/theme park. On my blog, I also write about Video Games (Mostly Nintendo and Sega), Disability, Web and Graphic Design, and the occasional social/current affairs. Many of my followers have read my posts, and followed me as a result. Some enjoy my writing or turn of phrase, while others have appreciated my imagination and insights, or capacity to see events and topics from a different angle/perspective. My work in these areas is very much considered to be both thoughtful and of a unique quality. If nothing else, most of my participations have been met with a very positive critical reception, and all have told me that I should write more... So, I tried. I guess you could say it's a scatterbrained self-portrait... I'm not sure how else to describe it, tbqh.

How did I arrive here!? Well, I've debated whether I should set up such a profile for quite a while, and often felt a sense of guilt, despair and extreme discomfort about asking others to support my creative endeavours in this way. At the end of 2015, I revealed that I have a learning disability. From that point, I started to speak more openly about it and in November 2016, I wrote more about my experience. I have had extreme difficulty in trying to get work, let alone interviews, and haven't been able to support myself very well, without being a burden upon others (at least, I've often felt that way). The last time I had a paying job was in March 2013, and the last time I had anything permanent was a retail job in December 2005. So, I have a series of gaps in my CV timeline between then and now. Those problems were accelerated in July 2016, when my laptop bust (I had software on it, which helped me with my learning difficulties, and I was reliant on it to send job applications, as well as host #VerseAngel, Poetry Arcade Zone and my blog page). In December 2016, my income support allowance was cancelled by my Job Centre in time for the Christmas Season. It was in this moment that I realised the Job Centres aren't about helping people back into work, but keeping those who turned to them trapped in the machine. Since then, I've had zero support from them, and hadn't returned because travelling to see them was costly both in pocket and in health, being there never helped me to find work, let alone get interviews, and it was a soul-destroying experience. This means that I have been "existing" from day to day without an income for over two years, and the ability to self-sustain has become less and less possible.

I've treated #VerseAngel as work while e-mailing job applications and looking for permanent paid work. It's at least seven or eight jobs, possibly more, and it demands a lot of time and effort. As a host, my work includes designing posters, creating themed events (Poetry Arcade Zone), creating and posting prompts, branding/building an online presence (During a consultation at a Google workshop, they pointed out that a "#VerseAngel search" has me at the top and mostly across the front and first few pages), promotional work (Increasing awareness of my work, giving visibility to various writers), then engaging with my followers, from posting updates/readership notices, reading and retweeting their entries, replying to each one, and brainstorming new ideas. Many of those skills are self-taught, and using the free/bare-bone versions of web apps, rather than the paid professional suites with full access.

Since launching #VerseAngel, I've been able to build an audience of over 1,600 people (as of 15th October 2018), a total of 2,700+ followers across two Twitter accounts, 2,872 followers on my blog page (as of 2nd November 2018), and a readership stretching over 40 countries (according to my statistics on WordPress). #VerseAngel has been credited as an inspiration to many online writers, and it has more than 4,000 entries. My hope is that, ultimately, these endeavours can help me to be in a better position in life. However, I know that the path to that point is filled with numerous obstacles, handicaps and setbacks; To that end, my immediate goals are to replace my laptop and reach a point where I would be able to earn a steady income and support myself better WITHOUT being reliant on a Job Centre, or the fear of bullying and sanctions hanging over my head at every point and turn. I feel that these are modest and achievable goals, and would hope that there's room for the "doing quite well", the "somewhere in between" - It appears that currently, many circles, topics and events of the day exist in extremes, and in the creative industry, "Rock Stars or Starving" are often presented as the only options. It shouldn't be that way. At the moment, your support would go towards those those causes, and it would enable me to keep the #VerseAngel wheels in motion and create content more frequently, as well as better support myself, and enhance my overall prospects.

I have found it difficult to articulate my goals, however, as well as the above, I would like to be able to upgrade my blog at some point, from its basic setup to professional. At the moment, I have looked into WordPress.org, and the possibility of migrating to SquareSpace. On my video game writing, I have played with the idea of a sole publication, which has the working title "A Little Less Pale". It could still fall under the umbrella of "Everything Angel Whispers", but it would appear that there isn't much crossover between those who follow me for #VerseAngel or poetry, and my writing on video games, disability or whatever other topics. For those who follow me for my writing on video games, disability and whatever else, I hope to have an update for that at a later date, too, so, bear with me, please. At the moment, I have one support tier on there, which is monthly, but with time, I hope to add more tiers.

I want to stress that having a support page does not mean putting #VerseAngel, Poetry Arcade Zone, writing or new blog posts behind a pay wall. All of that information will continue to be accessible through my @VerseAngel and @angelwhispers_ Twitter accounts, Pinterest and blog page. For me, this is about reclaiming the grip I feel I've lost over the years, and being able to create more of the content you enjoy. It's about inspiring others to express themselves creatively through writing, poetry and other arts. It's literally "creating my own space", because where I've been met with closed doors, I don't really feel that I have the choice. So, to summarise the above, here are some bullet points:

  • I have created a support page, as I have had great difficulty finding steady work, and the ability to self-sustain is becoming less and less possible.
  • This has meant that I've had to self-teach myself, fill in gaps in my CV, as well as treat #VerseAngel, my writing and creative work as work. It's many jobs by one person.
  • Need to replace a busted laptop; It has software that helped me with my learning disability. That will also help me continue to create content and send off job applications and pitches.
  • Reach a point where I could keep the #VerseAngel, Poetry Arcade Zone, writing and creative wheels in motion, and support myself without having to be dependent on a "Job Centre".
  • Consider upgrading my blog and creative tools from the bare-bone free/basic editions to the professional suites. Fewer limitations will allow for better quality of output, and enable me to be more productive.
  • Create content more frequently, with a view to being published, or starting a sole publication, as well as improving my overall prospects. With time, I will also be able to add more tiers.

Finally, If you've made it to the end of this post, thank you ever so much for reading and visiting my blog page. If any of my creative work has inspired you, then I hope to be able to continue doing that. If there are any questions about this, please, feel free to post them in the comment section below, or send me a DM on Twitter, if you prefer to be private. You should be able to e-mail me through my blog page, too. For anybody considering support for the above, thank you once more. I want you to know that I appreciate it lots.


x x x x x x x x Love J




Follow Me On Twitter At @VerseAngel and @angelwhispers_
My Facebook Page
My Pinterest Board Of Notices And Prompts
My Blog Page
Tiers
Lovely People
$10 or more per month
Keeping the #VerseAngel and Poetry Arcade Zone wheels in motion.  More blog posts.  If my position improves, I hope to add more features/benefits and tiers. So, Bear With Me, Please.
A Little Less Pale
$10 or more per month

I write about lots of stuff.  If you would like to read more of it, then please consider supporting my work.  I would love to write for a publication one day, or start my own, perhaps!?

A little bit about me... I'm John (or J). Some of you might know me as Angel Page, or Angel Whispers. I hope that you will enjoy the events and prompts I host, and other content I create. I hope that we can build and share lots of special memories, too. Writing this has been quite a draining experience, and I've laid a lot bare here. I don't know if it's my darkest hour yet, but I'll feel rather vulnerable once I hit the Publish Button, so, it's definitely up there.

I've been debating whether to set up a (Patreon) support page for a bit over two years, and this question has been one of a few sources of pain for me. At first, I resisted the idea, hoping that I would see an improvement in my position, but it has come to a point where I've had to reassess. There have been times where I've felt I'm staring upwards from the depths of a barrel, times where I've questioned the validity of what I'm doing, and that isn't always helped by the fact that my creative work is seen as "something I do "on the side"", or "not a "real" job". It feels as if I've had lots of ideas, which I've never been able to follow through, and I haven't posted on my blog as much as I hoped to, as a result of various events in my personal life. Behind being a host, I've been battling with my self-confidence, and years of job rejections have often made me doubt whatever qualities and qualifications I possess. The task of finding work is all the more difficult because I'm discouraged from disclosing the fact that I have a learning disability - If I don't disclose it, then it's assumed that nothing is wrong, and if I do, I'm not believed, or I can face rejection without knowing the reasons why, or I can be seen as a "risk" due to ignorant perceptions.

So, Where does the name "Angel Whispers/Angel Page" come from? It's from a magic spell in the Final Fantasy Video Game Series, combined with a belief in the comfort, healing and power of words. I first tried my hand at writing poetry in 2010, and finished my first poem, "2 Hearts In 4/4 Time" on 21st March that year, which I also call my "poetic birthday", and is, coincidentally, World Poetry Day!! Ten days later, I created a Twitter account (@angelwhispers_). Some sites wouldn't recognise "Whispers" as a surname, let alone a stage/online persona, so "Page" is because I have a social media page there. That's it!! In some cases, I use that, because I have had my identity stolen in the past... It doesn't really give too much away, while sounding more formal or "professional" (for want of better words) at the same time. It also makes sense when you've applied for jobs where you're known as your persona.

In 2011, I set up a blog, which started off as a natural progression from my Myspace page. On World Poetry Day 2016, I launched #VerseAngel, which is a series of writing and poetry prompt for Twitter users, and on the week of National Poetry Day 2016, I created the Poetry Arcade Zone, which is part of #VerseAngel, but more a fusion of special event-based word games set around the idea of a visit to an arcade or amusement/theme park. On my blog, I also write about Video Games (Mostly Nintendo and Sega), Disability, Web and Graphic Design, and the occasional social/current affairs. Many of my followers have read my posts, and followed me as a result. Some enjoy my writing or turn of phrase, while others have appreciated my imagination and insights, or capacity to see events and topics from a different angle/perspective. My work in these areas is very much considered to be both thoughtful and of a unique quality. If nothing else, most of my participations have been met with a very positive critical reception, and all have told me that I should write more... So, I tried. I guess you could say it's a scatterbrained self-portrait... I'm not sure how else to describe it, tbqh.

How did I arrive here!? Well, I've debated whether I should set up such a profile for quite a while, and often felt a sense of guilt, despair and extreme discomfort about asking others to support my creative endeavours in this way. At the end of 2015, I revealed that I have a learning disability. From that point, I started to speak more openly about it and in November 2016, I wrote more about my experience. I have had extreme difficulty in trying to get work, let alone interviews, and haven't been able to support myself very well, without being a burden upon others (at least, I've often felt that way). The last time I had a paying job was in March 2013, and the last time I had anything permanent was a retail job in December 2005. So, I have a series of gaps in my CV timeline between then and now. Those problems were accelerated in July 2016, when my laptop bust (I had software on it, which helped me with my learning difficulties, and I was reliant on it to send job applications, as well as host #VerseAngel, Poetry Arcade Zone and my blog page). In December 2016, my income support allowance was cancelled by my Job Centre in time for the Christmas Season. It was in this moment that I realised the Job Centres aren't about helping people back into work, but keeping those who turned to them trapped in the machine. Since then, I've had zero support from them, and hadn't returned because travelling to see them was costly both in pocket and in health, being there never helped me to find work, let alone get interviews, and it was a soul-destroying experience. This means that I have been "existing" from day to day without an income for over two years, and the ability to self-sustain has become less and less possible.

I've treated #VerseAngel as work while e-mailing job applications and looking for permanent paid work. It's at least seven or eight jobs, possibly more, and it demands a lot of time and effort. As a host, my work includes designing posters, creating themed events (Poetry Arcade Zone), creating and posting prompts, branding/building an online presence (During a consultation at a Google workshop, they pointed out that a "#VerseAngel search" has me at the top and mostly across the front and first few pages), promotional work (Increasing awareness of my work, giving visibility to various writers), then engaging with my followers, from posting updates/readership notices, reading and retweeting their entries, replying to each one, and brainstorming new ideas. Many of those skills are self-taught, and using the free/bare-bone versions of web apps, rather than the paid professional suites with full access.

Since launching #VerseAngel, I've been able to build an audience of over 1,600 people (as of 15th October 2018), a total of 2,700+ followers across two Twitter accounts, 2,872 followers on my blog page (as of 2nd November 2018), and a readership stretching over 40 countries (according to my statistics on WordPress). #VerseAngel has been credited as an inspiration to many online writers, and it has more than 4,000 entries. My hope is that, ultimately, these endeavours can help me to be in a better position in life. However, I know that the path to that point is filled with numerous obstacles, handicaps and setbacks; To that end, my immediate goals are to replace my laptop and reach a point where I would be able to earn a steady income and support myself better WITHOUT being reliant on a Job Centre, or the fear of bullying and sanctions hanging over my head at every point and turn. I feel that these are modest and achievable goals, and would hope that there's room for the "doing quite well", the "somewhere in between" - It appears that currently, many circles, topics and events of the day exist in extremes, and in the creative industry, "Rock Stars or Starving" are often presented as the only options. It shouldn't be that way. At the moment, your support would go towards those those causes, and it would enable me to keep the #VerseAngel wheels in motion and create content more frequently, as well as better support myself, and enhance my overall prospects.

I have found it difficult to articulate my goals, however, as well as the above, I would like to be able to upgrade my blog at some point, from its basic setup to professional. At the moment, I have looked into WordPress.org, and the possibility of migrating to SquareSpace. On my video game writing, I have played with the idea of a sole publication, which has the working title "A Little Less Pale". It could still fall under the umbrella of "Everything Angel Whispers", but it would appear that there isn't much crossover between those who follow me for #VerseAngel or poetry, and my writing on video games, disability or whatever other topics. For those who follow me for my writing on video games, disability and whatever else, I hope to have an update for that at a later date, too, so, bear with me, please. At the moment, I have one support tier on there, which is monthly, but with time, I hope to add more tiers.

I want to stress that having a support page does not mean putting #VerseAngel, Poetry Arcade Zone, writing or new blog posts behind a pay wall. All of that information will continue to be accessible through my @VerseAngel and @angelwhispers_ Twitter accounts, Pinterest and blog page. For me, this is about reclaiming the grip I feel I've lost over the years, and being able to create more of the content you enjoy. It's about inspiring others to express themselves creatively through writing, poetry and other arts. It's literally "creating my own space", because where I've been met with closed doors, I don't really feel that I have the choice. So, to summarise the above, here are some bullet points:

  • I have created a support page, as I have had great difficulty finding steady work, and the ability to self-sustain is becoming less and less possible.
  • This has meant that I've had to self-teach myself, fill in gaps in my CV, as well as treat #VerseAngel, my writing and creative work as work. It's many jobs by one person.
  • Need to replace a busted laptop; It has software that helped me with my learning disability. That will also help me continue to create content and send off job applications and pitches.
  • Reach a point where I could keep the #VerseAngel, Poetry Arcade Zone, writing and creative wheels in motion, and support myself without having to be dependent on a "Job Centre".
  • Consider upgrading my blog and creative tools from the bare-bone free/basic editions to the professional suites. Fewer limitations will allow for better quality of output, and enable me to be more productive.
  • Create content more frequently, with a view to being published, or starting a sole publication, as well as improving my overall prospects. With time, I will also be able to add more tiers.

Finally, If you've made it to the end of this post, thank you ever so much for reading and visiting my blog page. If any of my creative work has inspired you, then I hope to be able to continue doing that. If there are any questions about this, please, feel free to post them in the comment section below, or send me a DM on Twitter, if you prefer to be private. You should be able to e-mail me through my blog page, too. For anybody considering support for the above, thank you once more. I want you to know that I appreciate it lots.


x x x x x x x x Love J




Follow Me On Twitter At @VerseAngel and @angelwhispers_
My Facebook Page
My Pinterest Board Of Notices And Prompts
My Blog Page

Recent posts by #VerseAngel By Angel Whispers

Tiers
Lovely People
$10 or more per month
Keeping the #VerseAngel and Poetry Arcade Zone wheels in motion.  More blog posts.  If my position improves, I hope to add more features/benefits and tiers. So, Bear With Me, Please.
A Little Less Pale
$10 or more per month

I write about lots of stuff.  If you would like to read more of it, then please consider supporting my work.  I would love to write for a publication one day, or start my own, perhaps!?