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    Welcome to my mind! I'm Ele Nichols and this is the EleAMental Podcast. I started this back in 2012 as I began my gender transition. It became an outlet for me to share about what I was going through at the time and also a form of therapy. Since then, this podcast has crossed over into a lot of issues regarding personal development and mental health. Plus, I'm pretty open to talk about a lot of things that make most people pause.

    Whether it's gender, culture, sex, kink, religion, occultism, there really is nothing off the table. Hopefully, we help people feel more comfortable about themselves, sexuality, interests, etc. So let me spill my guts and say the things we're not supposed to talk about.

    If you contribute to this podcast, you're making the world become a more accepting place to live in, even if it's just a little bit. You're helping replace ignorance with knowledge, shame with pride, and a voice where there's usually silence...and you'll be helping me continue to open my big mouth for the foreseeable future.

    Will we change the world? That's a tall order, but we just might change a few hearts and minds along the way. 

    Stay Extraordinary and Escape The Ordinary,
    Ele Nichols

    Addendum: November 9, 2019

    The EleAMental Podcast is my mind baby, conceived back in 2012, took a smoking break in 2015, then remerged from my tomb earlier this year in 2019. We're finally about to crossover the triple digits and reach a 100 episodes. I've been doing this weekly for the last year and as I look toward 2020, there is so much more I want to do, want to say, but in order to do that, I'm looking for support. And it will never be a strange thing for me to ask strangers for money. "Hi, will you support me, so I can continue to make a podcast and give it away for free, even though I'm still asking you to help out in some way?" Solid business model.
    However, it's an important endeavor for me. Not because of just what I get out of it, but because the people who listen and have been helped by my embarrassing level of transparency. Gender identity is of course a huge topic of conversation, along with coming out of toxic religious environments, understanding and normalizing sexual pleasures and persuasions, talking openly about fetishes and BDSM lifestyles, and numerous podcasts about mental health issues.
    I'm not a specialist on any of these issues, but I have a lifetime of experiences and things I've learned along the way. I've found that my openness has helped many see concerns and problems they were facing in their own lives, but perhaps unable or unwilling to express them out loud. So they go through life, thinking they're alone, until somehow they find my podcast and realize they're not.
    Back in 2013, a mother emailed me after listening to one of my early podcasts. She had recently found out that her 10 year old child had been crossdressing in secret and she had no idea how to broach the conversation. She was afraid of alienating them and was looking for anything that could help her with this issue. After reading many medical articles found on Google, my website turned up and she began searching through it. At the time, I had just posted a podcast about the first time my mother find out about my secrets and how my story played out. Some of you know it already, but my mom basically swept it under the rug. I felt more alone and isolated after talking with her and I spent the next 15 years hiding who I was. 1995 wasn’t a time where information was instantly available. There was no one my mother could turn to for advice or council. We were also too poor to actually pay for any health services, so the problem was ignored. Unfortunately that problem for her was my existence for me. I needed things, I needed support, and I needed to know that there was nothing wrong with me and plenty of others like me.
    I never got that back then. I had to go through years of pain, self discovery, and healing to get what I needed. Now though, I’m approached by a mother who is reenacting a moment in my life, down to painfully close details similar to my own. I wasn’t even sure anyone was listening, but it was confirmed that day. I responded immediately to her questions, I elaborated more of the story I shared in the podcast. She wasn’t just receptive, she was eager to learn as much as she could because she wanted to understand, she wanted to know what her child was going through. We exchanged many emails and eventually they ended. All I could hope is that what I shared was beneficial and useful. Over six months passed by and I hadn’t heard anything. Wasn’t really expecting to, but she and her child stayed on my mind. One day, I got a reply from her. I was a little anxious to read it, because I had no idea what to expect, but I did. As I read, tears began to flow from my eyes and I physically started to shake. It wasn’t out of sadness though, it was a feeling of joy, mixed with my own emotional baggage being stirred up. She had talked to her child, found a safe place where they could talk and be completely open. She let them know that however they felt, who they were or wanted to be, she was in support and willing to do anything they needed. They talked for hours and her child opened up that she was girl and had felt that way all her life. Her mother completely embraced and accepted her. Shortly there after, they began counseling and she started the transition process.
    I never heard from the mother after that, but she expressed her sincere gratitude to me. Maybe if she hadn’t found me, she would have discovered someone else who could have helped. Though that’s the problem with many people who want to help, but often don’t. “There’s people far more qualified than me already helping. I couldn’t really contribute anything.” You would be surprised how even now in 2019, finding help isn’t as easy as you think it is. There are plenty of people who have things to share, but they get lost in the sea of social media, cat videos, and repetitious memes. Being seen by anyone, then them going the extra mile to hear what you have to say, it’s almost impossible. Yet somehow, one by one, as I’ve started to release the podcast again, the people who need it have found it. Started again with maybe a dozen listeners, now as we get to the end of the year, we’re at a few hundred. I get messages, emails, comments on posts from a variety of different people from all sorts of backgrounds. No matter how different we can seem, it turns out there are many, many things that connect all of us. Usually…it’s shame. We seem to carry a lot of that around. Something as simple as talking about my embarrassing fetishes from childhood has led to people telling me that I helped them in their romantic relationships. How? Not sure, but if it works, it works. I think if you can get people to laugh at things they’ve felt an unnecessary guilt over, whether those things come from religion, upbringing, or misinformation, it can be very effective to tear down those concepts.
    I say all this not to manipulate you out of your money…well maybe just a little, but mostly because I don’t just WANT to continue doing this, I NEED to continue doing this. And I need to devote more time out of my life to make sure these are well made and released consistently. I want to have guests on and talk about these issues in a greater depth. Further more, I’m ready to commit to full time video streams, Q&As, organizing events, gatherings, and possibly tours, and expanding the reach of this podcast. So if you find it in your heart to help, if you have the financial means to do so, I would be extremely thankful if you would support me on Patreon for as little as $1 a month or per entry (4 entries a month). I also am starting to release an exclusive Patreon only episode at the end of every month. If you can’t support me right now, but want to help, if you could share the podcast with your friends, subscribe to the Podcast on your preferred podcast player, and leave feedback, that would be amazing and wonderful of you.
    I thank you for your time and consideration. I’ll leave you with this greeting that I say at the end of every podcast…
    Stay Extraordinary and Escape the Ordinary.
    Ele Nichols
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    Bless me patrons for I have sinned. It will be a moment before my first bi-weekly video confession where I spill my guts to you about all my past sins. 

    If we manage to bring in $500, the lights will come on and the camera will start filming.
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