Gold und Edelweiß

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Hello! 
I'm Liese! I love beautiful clothes, cosplay, pokémon, nintendo games, Little twin Stars (Sanrio), animals, tea and flowers!
I studied abroad for a few years in Japan and it changed a lot of things about me (I wouldn't live there but I ended up bringing back the cat I adopted there!) Here is where you can become a patron by helping me buying my stuff so I can little by little get a bit of independence even with my frail health, and you will get to know me better ★
I will tell a bit about myself and my reasons for choosing this way of work before continuing. I don't want anyone's pity, and unlike some people who just want to scam others or buy material stuff my reasons are pretty different.
I used to be a very chubby child since I was 6, and that went on until puberty, and I was very bullyed for being the fat kid and ended up developing eating disorders. I have been struggling with eating disorders since I was 14, I started losing weight and everyone commented about how beautiful I looked and then loosing weight became an addiction and an obsession.
With all the poor nutrition, came a very bad development of my body that was still growing and my brain, which began its struggles with mental health.
I am currently officially diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (the main problem, the other ones are symptoms of it), eating disorders, panic attacks, ptsd, psychosis, compulsive moments, I've been in a mental health hospital because of a suicide attempt once where I felt like I was on a prison, and I take way too many medicines to keep me stable. 
Of course they all have side effects that make it very hard for me to find a real job, or study, so I basically live in a home prison. Even if I go out with friends sometimes (rarely) it has happened of having a panic attack and needing someone to go and pick me up, or start shaking so much that my friends thought I was going to collapse (and I can't take medicine for shakiness because it reduces your blood pressure and I already have a very low blood pressure which makes me faint easily sometimes)...My immunity ended up very damaged too so I'm prone to getting sick easily and having a hard time recovering from even common colds.

My first goals are two surgeries, one of them is super important- due to a lack of nutrients and my weak bones, my feet bone deformed and I have very painful Hallux Valgus that make it very hard and tiring for me to walk so I'm almost always in my bad. The other one is female sterilization- my body wouldn't be able to survive a pregnancy, it's barely keeping myself alive, my psychiatrist highly reccomended it, my birth canal is also not very developed and is too narrow and if a pregnancy accidentally happened to me it would be very risky. I've been in birth control pills since a teen to reduce the amount of blood loss on my period but due to one of my mental health medicines (topiramate) it loses the birth control effect and if got raped or something I'd be at risk.

I also want to be able to leave my parent's house. I hate being too dependent and the feeling that I can't do anything to make money. Unfortunately, my body makes it pratically impossible to keep a job (I wasn't able to keep up with my studies in Japan either because of my health) so I turned on to Instagram and Patreon to work with something my body is able to do.
I don't wan't to write too much about this because I don't want anyone to feel pity for me, I want to keep it fun and be able to share with my patrons fun experiences, not only pictures, but pictures that make them smile and make them happy. There are many lonely people in the world with the same interests as me, and I wish we all could be friends and share our thought so no one would be lonely. My idea is to be myself, as natural as possible and entretain everyone, since my friends say that I have a great smile and I am gentle and caring, and people like being around me. I may be fragile but if they say so, then I decided to use this quality for everyone who needs it.
This is the main idea of Gold und Edelweiß-being naturally my silly self, doing my stuff, named after my super long golden hair which I love caring after and my snow white skin which I also love pampering with skin care so no photoshop or make up is needed to be me. I can just be myself, Liese. 
I want to be different from other Instagram girls, I want to know what you guys want to see, want to hear, want to play, more than just a girl who take pics, I want to transmit the feeling we are friends, since I'm always alone in my bed too, until I can have surgery, recover and start walking with no pain again, but even then I will keep out friendship because I'm super socially awkward outside the internet!

with love!
Hello! 
I'm Liese! I love beautiful clothes, cosplay, pokémon, nintendo games, Little twin Stars (Sanrio), animals, tea and flowers!
I studied abroad for a few years in Japan and it changed a lot of things about me (I wouldn't live there but I ended up bringing back the cat I adopted there!) Here is where you can become a patron by helping me buying my stuff so I can little by little get a bit of independence even with my frail health, and you will get to know me better ★
I will tell a bit about myself and my reasons for choosing this way of work before continuing. I don't want anyone's pity, and unlike some people who just want to scam others or buy material stuff my reasons are pretty different.
I used to be a very chubby child since I was 6, and that went on until puberty, and I was very bullyed for being the fat kid and ended up developing eating disorders. I have been struggling with eating disorders since I was 14, I started losing weight and everyone commented about how beautiful I looked and then loosing weight became an addiction and an obsession.
With all the poor nutrition, came a very bad development of my body that was still growing and my brain, which began its struggles with mental health.
I am currently officially diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (the main problem, the other ones are symptoms of it), eating disorders, panic attacks, ptsd, psychosis, compulsive moments, I've been in a mental health hospital because of a suicide attempt once where I felt like I was on a prison, and I take way too many medicines to keep me stable. 
Of course they all have side effects that make it very hard for me to find a real job, or study, so I basically live in a home prison. Even if I go out with friends sometimes (rarely) it has happened of having a panic attack and needing someone to go and pick me up, or start shaking so much that my friends thought I was going to collapse (and I can't take medicine for shakiness because it reduces your blood pressure and I already have a very low blood pressure which makes me faint easily sometimes)...My immunity ended up very damaged too so I'm prone to getting sick easily and having a hard time recovering from even common colds.

My first goals are two surgeries, one of them is super important- due to a lack of nutrients and my weak bones, my feet bone deformed and I have very painful Hallux Valgus that make it very hard and tiring for me to walk so I'm almost always in my bad. The other one is female sterilization- my body wouldn't be able to survive a pregnancy, it's barely keeping myself alive, my psychiatrist highly reccomended it, my birth canal is also not very developed and is too narrow and if a pregnancy accidentally happened to me it would be very risky. I've been in birth control pills since a teen to reduce the amount of blood loss on my period but due to one of my mental health medicines (topiramate) it loses the birth control effect and if got raped or something I'd be at risk.

I also want to be able to leave my parent's house. I hate being too dependent and the feeling that I can't do anything to make money. Unfortunately, my body makes it pratically impossible to keep a job (I wasn't able to keep up with my studies in Japan either because of my health) so I turned on to Instagram and Patreon to work with something my body is able to do.
I don't wan't to write too much about this because I don't want anyone to feel pity for me, I want to keep it fun and be able to share with my patrons fun experiences, not only pictures, but pictures that make them smile and make them happy. There are many lonely people in the world with the same interests as me, and I wish we all could be friends and share our thought so no one would be lonely. My idea is to be myself, as natural as possible and entretain everyone, since my friends say that I have a great smile and I am gentle and caring, and people like being around me. I may be fragile but if they say so, then I decided to use this quality for everyone who needs it.
This is the main idea of Gold und Edelweiß-being naturally my silly self, doing my stuff, named after my super long golden hair which I love caring after and my snow white skin which I also love pampering with skin care so no photoshop or make up is needed to be me. I can just be myself, Liese. 
I want to be different from other Instagram girls, I want to know what you guys want to see, want to hear, want to play, more than just a girl who take pics, I want to transmit the feeling we are friends, since I'm always alone in my bed too, until I can have surgery, recover and start walking with no pain again, but even then I will keep out friendship because I'm super socially awkward outside the internet!

with love!

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