Shock & Awe

Shock & Awe

is creating her final curriculum "Resignation from 12 years of Insane Greed"

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Let's begin,

I'm telling this story because I'm not okay with allowing children with special needs to have their federal rights mutilated in front of a community that uses false imagery to ensure "their behavior" is never questioned. Isn't it the cover-up that brings the depths of human nature to light since with prior knowledge, people made decisions & I just got my voice back. The issue with being able to write has been a challenge, never knowing specialists could consistently demolish their own profession & why they are writing the stories for me---literally, their words verbatim. I find the internet too restrictive, but I've used it to hold triggers just to document the volume of trauma that remains when "specialists" decide to PRESS IN with their "special" knowledge since to take advantage of families that simply don't know what to expect when they have a child with disability is a new low I didn't realize existed until A NEW ADMIN REVEALED EXACTLY WHAT THEY CARE ABOUT MOST--rich kids getting into free "private" highshool--that's not what public education is for.

https://ptswriter.wixsite.com/howtosay

https://ptswriter.wixsite.com/movedon

Coming Soon

  • Playlist I : the process if you follow me in any digital space, you've been a part of 
    • prolonged exposure therapy + tech + audio/visual/tactile triggers
  • Playlist II : behind-the-scenes writing 
    • the only way to balance "the best" & "the worst" memories because DBT/NWMH, Chicago told me "to describe" using "wisemind" & then showed me how to cover-up the fact they have (a) no knowledge (b) no desire (c) laziness connecting to teachers/parents
  • Playlist III : will be private & invite only and "seeds" planted for a final composition 
    • final transformation to redefine the two types of people in the world 
      • ptsDONE
      • ptsDUH

The Objective
Create as many "safe spaces" online as needed to disperse their hurts & let my ignorant violence ridden body know--SAFE--as long as I have my voice to say "no." To restructure when healthcare/pain clinics/neurologist/psychiatrist offer nothing but Rx & then changing narratives revealing how easy it is TO LIE TO THOSE WHO WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO QUESTION, so, I want to simplify the process of mental abuse & desensitization to critical & independent thinking. I'm renaming PTSD as "p"pictures, "t"ouches, "s"ounds disordered (lies from abuse of power against a protected class in a public school) so I put them in order & now I'll correct the "feeling" they left me with. To know NO ONE IS CHECKING & the COMMUNITY THINKS the solution is to "have the kids arrested" when they have rights that were in clear violation when parents were given a classroom instead of the kids who legally were required to be given "less distractions to increase on-task behavior" & why I asked the question "are you going to make sure IEPs are followed through" during the Q&A with the potential new administration.

The Technology 

A complex tool to support decreased memory capacity, storage, speed & a way to time stamp easily without having to be reminded of endless incident reports, medical appointments, referrals/testing & emails from teacher, parents & an ex-husband who didn't want "to take care of a disabled wife." I can't make this up if I tried since these are the words that are forcing me to be very open with the fact that I had 2 head traumas & was stabbed in front of security after 10+ assaults over 2 school years & there is NO GAG ORDER because OSHA, EEOC found them in violation of basic decency, now sharing the case because I was given whistleblower status & then the folder was lost.

   THEN with daily triggering (just get it out)
Playlist ONE : WHISTLE_L0WER 1O1
Playlist TWO : SessiONs, LessONs & ConfessioONs
PL4Ylist 3 : Th3 3nD

  & NOW without triggering (I can hold the thought until the end...)
PLAYone : just...
PLAYtwo : wait...
PLAYthree : & see...

BUILDING ANTICIPATION because I believe we can end trauma by learning from those who made a decision to not care about their names, their families/loved ones, their profession & most importantly, the individuals they're supposed to SUPPORT because there's an agreement made when you work with the most at-risk.

in healthcare : Do No Harm

in education : Always report neglect/abuse

in society : What You Say/What You Do could be someone's trigger so try & do the right thing using predictive skills since it's not good enough to not know anymore what might happen if you purposely press in with hate.

T-NOTE
 I identified my trauma as (a) lying to my face--changing policies to fit "excuse" (b) contradictions--same convo or from previous--they continue on & on (c) distraction to avoid questions (d) deflections from on-topic response (e) blaming others especially protected classes e.g. kids with special needs 

UX/UT/TX*

user-experience is ex family
ultimate teacher is a resignation letter
trauma exposed is how to end suicide 

* I couldn't write a list & that's the first trigger for @endPTSD since the first two things you could write on a list if you're not feeling very productive is "wake up" & "make a list" so you can cross those out & that wasn't happening. Instead I heard "die" & "you can't do anything."


Let's begin,

I'm telling this story because I'm not okay with allowing children with special needs to have their federal rights mutilated in front of a community that uses false imagery to ensure "their behavior" is never questioned. Isn't it the cover-up that brings the depths of human nature to light since with prior knowledge, people made decisions & I just got my voice back. The issue with being able to write has been a challenge, never knowing specialists could consistently demolish their own profession & why they are writing the stories for me---literally, their words verbatim. I find the internet too restrictive, but I've used it to hold triggers just to document the volume of trauma that remains when "specialists" decide to PRESS IN with their "special" knowledge since to take advantage of families that simply don't know what to expect when they have a child with disability is a new low I didn't realize existed until A NEW ADMIN REVEALED EXACTLY WHAT THEY CARE ABOUT MOST--rich kids getting into free "private" highshool--that's not what public education is for.

https://ptswriter.wixsite.com/howtosay

https://ptswriter.wixsite.com/movedon

Coming Soon

  • Playlist I : the process if you follow me in any digital space, you've been a part of 
    • prolonged exposure therapy + tech + audio/visual/tactile triggers
  • Playlist II : behind-the-scenes writing 
    • the only way to balance "the best" & "the worst" memories because DBT/NWMH, Chicago told me "to describe" using "wisemind" & then showed me how to cover-up the fact they have (a) no knowledge (b) no desire (c) laziness connecting to teachers/parents
  • Playlist III : will be private & invite only and "seeds" planted for a final composition 
    • final transformation to redefine the two types of people in the world 
      • ptsDONE
      • ptsDUH

The Objective
Create as many "safe spaces" online as needed to disperse their hurts & let my ignorant violence ridden body know--SAFE--as long as I have my voice to say "no." To restructure when healthcare/pain clinics/neurologist/psychiatrist offer nothing but Rx & then changing narratives revealing how easy it is TO LIE TO THOSE WHO WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO QUESTION, so, I want to simplify the process of mental abuse & desensitization to critical & independent thinking. I'm renaming PTSD as "p"pictures, "t"ouches, "s"ounds disordered (lies from abuse of power against a protected class in a public school) so I put them in order & now I'll correct the "feeling" they left me with. To know NO ONE IS CHECKING & the COMMUNITY THINKS the solution is to "have the kids arrested" when they have rights that were in clear violation when parents were given a classroom instead of the kids who legally were required to be given "less distractions to increase on-task behavior" & why I asked the question "are you going to make sure IEPs are followed through" during the Q&A with the potential new administration.

The Technology 

A complex tool to support decreased memory capacity, storage, speed & a way to time stamp easily without having to be reminded of endless incident reports, medical appointments, referrals/testing & emails from teacher, parents & an ex-husband who didn't want "to take care of a disabled wife." I can't make this up if I tried since these are the words that are forcing me to be very open with the fact that I had 2 head traumas & was stabbed in front of security after 10+ assaults over 2 school years & there is NO GAG ORDER because OSHA, EEOC found them in violation of basic decency, now sharing the case because I was given whistleblower status & then the folder was lost.

   THEN with daily triggering (just get it out)
Playlist ONE : WHISTLE_L0WER 1O1
Playlist TWO : SessiONs, LessONs & ConfessioONs
PL4Ylist 3 : Th3 3nD

  & NOW without triggering (I can hold the thought until the end...)
PLAYone : just...
PLAYtwo : wait...
PLAYthree : & see...

BUILDING ANTICIPATION because I believe we can end trauma by learning from those who made a decision to not care about their names, their families/loved ones, their profession & most importantly, the individuals they're supposed to SUPPORT because there's an agreement made when you work with the most at-risk.

in healthcare : Do No Harm

in education : Always report neglect/abuse

in society : What You Say/What You Do could be someone's trigger so try & do the right thing using predictive skills since it's not good enough to not know anymore what might happen if you purposely press in with hate.

T-NOTE
 I identified my trauma as (a) lying to my face--changing policies to fit "excuse" (b) contradictions--same convo or from previous--they continue on & on (c) distraction to avoid questions (d) deflections from on-topic response (e) blaming others especially protected classes e.g. kids with special needs 

UX/UT/TX*

user-experience is ex family
ultimate teacher is a resignation letter
trauma exposed is how to end suicide 

* I couldn't write a list & that's the first trigger for @endPTSD since the first two things you could write on a list if you're not feeling very productive is "wake up" & "make a list" so you can cross those out & that wasn't happening. Instead I heard "die" & "you can't do anything."


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