Lauren Hutton is creating short stories about walking into and living in embodiment.
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Hi, friends, Lauren here! Welcome to my sparkling new Patreon page. Today is - let me check - November 10, 2018.

Around late October of 2017, much to my human surprise I found myself crossing the Threshold into what many call self-realization or the experience of enlightenment.

I actually tried to slow myself down - to prolong the orgasm because it was only then - in that moment - that I realized how much fun it was to move from awakening into realization.

All those years of "why in the hell hasn't it happened yet!?" turned into.... let's take just a while longer, I am enjoying this... So strange...

Then BAM! struck over the head and totally stupefied for about three months before I understood what happened.

Each day was so new, I felt like I was taking my first breath on Earth. Every belief system - blown up before my eyes - ones I didn't even know I subscribed to.

Every last detail about myself came up for dissolution, which still happens but in a totally different way than it did in awakening or the dark night of the soul.

After this whole first year, which seems like one string of infinite NOW moments, has finally settled, and I am ready to write about it in hindsight. No more real time writing for me just yet -- something I did throughout the previous iteration of self expansion.

Now, I'm going to shift into writing about what that really looked like - the folding upon oneself into realization.

I will state I'm doing it for me. It's so fun to go back and say, "Wow! That's what happened."

Because in the moment, it was simply too much to put words to, and in some cases, there are no words, but sensations that I now feel comfortable, weaving into my writing.

Yet, perhaps others might appreciate it to - not to learn anything but for pure entertainment of story sharing, and perhaps you too found yourself realizing you were already realized and a lot of the content out there is not super relatable anymore.

A year later, I am often awestruck at how amazing this state of being is - just as much as I am mystified at how different is from my previously held expectations - I'm still human much to my surprise and in someways even more human than before, which is fun!

It's so much more than I hoped, in some ways, and in others, it's less than the human dreamed it would be - of course it is!

For example, I had no idea how much of how I operated in life was based on the past - and I don't mean just from this lifetime.

I realized as my consciousness spread how truly affected I was by lifetimes such as incarnations in Atlantis and the time of Yeshua and Mary Magdalene. It was the driving force of well...everything.

This last year has been walking baby steps into a new state of being. Who am I beyond past, present, and future linear timelines? I don't mean grabbing up another identity, but what is it to live embodied without one?

How do I balance my energy while being aware of existing in multiple simultaneous realities - almost all the time? I am here and here and here....

Finding I love to interact in the world - some people go all-in hermit, and I've actually felt better being in the world than any other time in my life - I am also learning a new balance of what that looks like for me day to day. How I flow between circles of say, mass consciousness, spiritual groups, etc., and never leave alignment.

Also, I realized how heavily I relied on the conversation between human voice and master or oversoul voice, and explored without firm conclusion what it looks like when the will or voice of the human and the master converge into One - and well beyond two parts and pieces of Self. That's a change in stride I will write about - for sure!

And, I also have days where I am beyond sensitive - more so than any time ever!!! I mean, it is incredible and sometimes so, so, so, so much....I will say it has balanced out a bit, and I'm more aware of when the SUPER sensitivity is coming and retaining my balance in it.

Okay! So that's my introduction. What did walking into realization look like for me, and how am I living in it NOW... and now...and now....ha! :P

No teaching or coaching here. This material is literally for entertainment purposes only. It is my only hope that you find some adventure in the adventure with me - for the few minutes you take to read the story. I hope you enjoy, and thank you for stopping by to weave through this amazing tapestry that is realization.

- Lauren

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Hi, friends, Lauren here! Welcome to my sparkling new Patreon page. Today is - let me check - November 10, 2018.

Around late October of 2017, much to my human surprise I found myself crossing the Threshold into what many call self-realization or the experience of enlightenment.

I actually tried to slow myself down - to prolong the orgasm because it was only then - in that moment - that I realized how much fun it was to move from awakening into realization.

All those years of "why in the hell hasn't it happened yet!?" turned into.... let's take just a while longer, I am enjoying this... So strange...

Then BAM! struck over the head and totally stupefied for about three months before I understood what happened.

Each day was so new, I felt like I was taking my first breath on Earth. Every belief system - blown up before my eyes - ones I didn't even know I subscribed to.

Every last detail about myself came up for dissolution, which still happens but in a totally different way than it did in awakening or the dark night of the soul.

After this whole first year, which seems like one string of infinite NOW moments, has finally settled, and I am ready to write about it in hindsight. No more real time writing for me just yet -- something I did throughout the previous iteration of self expansion.

Now, I'm going to shift into writing about what that really looked like - the folding upon oneself into realization.

I will state I'm doing it for me. It's so fun to go back and say, "Wow! That's what happened."

Because in the moment, it was simply too much to put words to, and in some cases, there are no words, but sensations that I now feel comfortable, weaving into my writing.

Yet, perhaps others might appreciate it to - not to learn anything but for pure entertainment of story sharing, and perhaps you too found yourself realizing you were already realized and a lot of the content out there is not super relatable anymore.

A year later, I am often awestruck at how amazing this state of being is - just as much as I am mystified at how different is from my previously held expectations - I'm still human much to my surprise and in someways even more human than before, which is fun!

It's so much more than I hoped, in some ways, and in others, it's less than the human dreamed it would be - of course it is!

For example, I had no idea how much of how I operated in life was based on the past - and I don't mean just from this lifetime.

I realized as my consciousness spread how truly affected I was by lifetimes such as incarnations in Atlantis and the time of Yeshua and Mary Magdalene. It was the driving force of well...everything.

This last year has been walking baby steps into a new state of being. Who am I beyond past, present, and future linear timelines? I don't mean grabbing up another identity, but what is it to live embodied without one?

How do I balance my energy while being aware of existing in multiple simultaneous realities - almost all the time? I am here and here and here....

Finding I love to interact in the world - some people go all-in hermit, and I've actually felt better being in the world than any other time in my life - I am also learning a new balance of what that looks like for me day to day. How I flow between circles of say, mass consciousness, spiritual groups, etc., and never leave alignment.

Also, I realized how heavily I relied on the conversation between human voice and master or oversoul voice, and explored without firm conclusion what it looks like when the will or voice of the human and the master converge into One - and well beyond two parts and pieces of Self. That's a change in stride I will write about - for sure!

And, I also have days where I am beyond sensitive - more so than any time ever!!! I mean, it is incredible and sometimes so, so, so, so much....I will say it has balanced out a bit, and I'm more aware of when the SUPER sensitivity is coming and retaining my balance in it.

Okay! So that's my introduction. What did walking into realization look like for me, and how am I living in it NOW... and now...and now....ha! :P

No teaching or coaching here. This material is literally for entertainment purposes only. It is my only hope that you find some adventure in the adventure with me - for the few minutes you take to read the story. I hope you enjoy, and thank you for stopping by to weave through this amazing tapestry that is realization.

- Lauren

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Someone who wants to receive two articles per month.

Funds will go to publishing costs of my website - www.beingenlightenment.com - and my books - amazon.com/author/laurenhutton. Thank you!