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The Many Faces of Elle is an ongoing comic project we are making to illustrate our experience living with multiple personality disorder (click here for our website). We have had multiple personalities at least since we were five (or at least there are several personalities who remember being around when we were five), but very few of them had ever expressed themselves.
Almost all of the personalities lived exclusively in various fantasy worlds in our head, had never experienced the real world, and didn't know they had multiple personalities. About two years ago, that changed – since then, about fifteen personalities have come out, and dozens more still can't, but know that their lives aren't real, the world they live in isn't real, and they don't even have their own body.

Trying to manage your life when your body is occupied at various times by people, male and female, ranging in age from five to forty, many of whom are trying to cope with the fact that the families, friends, and loved ones they've spent their lives with don't exist any more than they do, has been a challenge. We can't control who is out or for how long, and we do not share skills or experiences. One of the more dominant personalities can't talk at all, and another appears to suffer from PTSD. The personality who everyone who knows us thought was the only one (Jemima) can only come out for a few hours a month. We can't really work a job, or maintain relationships. Even figuring out when we need to eat or knowing if we've taken medicine is a challenge.

Fortunately, when our multiple personalities started to express themselves uncontrollably and the girl whose life this was disappeared into our mind, we already had someone who was taking care of us. For the last two years, he's provided us with food and shelter, counsel, comfort, motivation, and Pokemon. He's given us everything we need, and most everything we want. He's gotten everyone to get along with each other, which was no mean feat, and talked us through our transition into reality. For many of us, that has meant letting go of husbands, girlfriends, children, jobs, and homes; accepting that they, and we, exist only as elaborate, if compelling, dreams; accepting that they things we worked and hoped for are gone, or that we will never have them; accepting that we will never have our own bodies. We still struggle with many things, but thanks to him, we're getting better. We'll don't know what we'll turn into as we continue to progress, but we know we'll be okay.

After constantly working at getting ourselves sorted out for two years, we decided we wanted to take on a collaborative project, chronicling our treatment, as a way to make a record for ourselves, to observe and analyze ourselves, and hopefully to even raise a little money, in the hopes that we can someday not only pay for our own expenses, but do something to pay back our caretaker, who's never been paid for his work yet. Several of the personalities are each drawing and narrating their own history, mostly beginning with the time they first experienced the real world. Those stories are our main focus, and we will be uploading one panel/frame/art every day on here. We will also be filling in some details about our histories, for the interest of anyone who wants to know what happened to a group of people whose lives and selves exist only in our head, but who have to confront this world, which can be eerily similar and heartbreakingly alien to our own. We hope you enjoy it.

Within Elle:

 

Jemima (Mima) is a little lady who draws. She has been making art forever with paint, pencils, pen & ink, dogs, computers, and I don't know what else. Although she started out as an aspiring photo-realist, she has years since abandoned that goal and decided to spend her time in the world making cute comics. She is the illustrator of The Rob comic series. She is seen very rarely, a couple times a month seems to be the going rate, but there is a huge backlog of her comics that will be posted regularly, giving her time to make new additions. If you want to be her friend, tell her she looks like a velociraptor. She'll like that.



Mi name Amy Harrower. Our Rob him seh mi should write dis de way mi talk coz him tink der is nothin wrong wiv de way mi talk even though mi is self conzhious abwt it. Mi is from a London dat exist in mi head, an mi life did nah actual happen. O ratha mi suppose it did happen but only inside mi head. Mi still gettin used to dat fact.
Mi is learnin a mek digital art fo dis project o ours, tellin mi likkle story startin wiv when mi met dat Rob. Mi is nah very experience wiv mek art, but mi is learnin fast. Mi otha hobbies includes cookin an mek tings with crochet, all sorts of tings from clothin for our bebe pig to hats to stuffed toys.



Reginald Thundershrimp
's real name is Ben Oliver Harrower, but since by the time he had arrived there were already five Ben Oliver Harrowers in our head (no, we don't know why), everyone was sick of calling each other Ben-number-something, so Robbie gave the newest Ben a nickname. The other Bens obtained nicknames too (aside from the first Ben mentioned, who is the only Ben we just call Ben), but their new names aren't nearly as cool as being called Reginald Thundershrimp.
Reggie can't talk much, so he uses a sort of homemade sign-language to communicate. He is kind and sweet and obsessed with sharks and the ocean. Reggie makes digital art, specifically portraits. He's seen almost daily, but he is not always in a good state to make art so we're not sure how often he'll be contributing.


Victor is Mima's twin brother.  He spent his childhood worrying that he would be lobotomized and doing Mima's homework, all without anyone knowing he existed.  After getting her just barely through high school graduation, he went to sleep for five years.  When he woke up, he couldn't find any homework, so he spent most of his time worrying about being lobotomized.  About six months after that, he finally came out to meet Robbie and express his concerns about being lobotomized.
Accepting that he wouldn't be lobotomized was the hardest thing Victor ever did, but that's partly because after meeting Robbie, all he had to do was eat treats, play with his pet bunnies, and effortlessly make big perfect Sims houses.  He's never drawn before, but he's decided that, now that he isn't being lobotomized, it's time to stop being afraid of everything and start making neat stuff.
Now he draws comics about his fear of being lobotomized.

Little Benny is one of the Bens. He is ten years old, and likes to colour. He thinks animals are great, candy is really great, and grownups really need someone to hold their hand and tell them what to do because obviously they can't figure out squat on their own. He has an ongoing collaborative cookbook project with Robbie and Ben, but at this time he isn't seen much so it might be a while before that project really takes off.


Robbie Eberhart-Garah
, who does not live in our head, is our caregiver and best friend. He's been taking care of Jemima since 2007, and spent six years trying to help her figure out why her life was funny. He (and she) found out that she had multiple personalities in 2013, which explained very few of her problems but did give him a lot more to work on. Because he cares for us 24/7, he can't hold down a full-time jo, but takes odd jobs as long as he can bring us along and make sure we're safe in the meantime. He has been a patient friend and creative problem-solver for all of the personalities who have spent time with him, and has become a grounding presence and source of comfort as well as our much needed daily reality-check. He has always provided a home for us as well as the materials to create art with, even though we have no income of our own and in spite of the fact that we can get downright ornery. Bizarre ideas and weird remarks shoot off him like sparks, which are collected and then later turned into comics by Jemima because she believes the world needs to know. These comics are called The Rob, and give some insight into what Rob is like in our daily life, or at least into how Jemima sees him. 

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You've helped us live.  Live!  LIVE!!!  You can see all our comics as soon as we make them, instead of the one-a-day pace we post here.  Just our little way of saying thanks, Franks!  (Note: Our website isn't done yet, so this reward won't, uh, be very rewarding for a little while.  We're working on it!)
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You helped us live 5 TIMES (but don't stop now - there's many more of us)!  To say thanks, we want to share a secret: we don't just make comics about people finding out they've never seen the real world - we make all sorts of arts.  We'll post all the arts we've made and continue to make, just for you personally to enjoy! (Note: we're making this gallery on our website that's under construction, so lot's of stuff will go on there when it's done in addition to posts on Patreon).
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Every morning Robbie wakes us up with an inspirational message: “Hello, friend! We’re gonna have us a wonderful day!”; “You’re my prettiest, bestest friend ever. It’s okay if you don’t do anything today.”; “Lazy, lazy child! I got up four hours ago!” Now, he’ll send you a personalized message every month. Prepare to be inspired! Or, if you prefer, insulted. Or, as likely as not, confused. He’s a diverse service.
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Our people (us) will get in touch with your people (you). Want to talk to ben or Victor? Or experience the intensely specialized sign language that only Reggie can lay down? Once a month, we’ll chat on Skype, or the medium of your choice, just like old friends.
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You’ve probably been wondering why Reggie can’t talk, or why ben is made of cigarettes. Or perhaps why Victor is so afraid of lobotomies. Want to know about our scandalous past? Ask us one question a month, and we’ll illustrate the answer for you! We hope you like how we imagine English people, because that’s probably the answer.
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Maybe you’re not curious about the past. We understand - the past is a foreign country, and customs is a pain. Never fear! We’ll draw you anything you want (and we do mean anything), and if we don’t know how to draw it, well, we’ll draw it anyway! At this level, you can expect less scribbling (unless you like scribbling) and more fancy art stuff that takes lots of time.
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Remember when we said we could chat like old friends? Well, if you’re donating this much money, we think we ought to be old friends. Every month, we’ll make a video of us and Robbie and Gillian (our other super helpful housemate) reminiscing on the great times we’ve spent with you. Just tell us what it was we did together, (the time we officiated your wedding, the day we met in a federal penitentiary, or whatever) and we’ll canonize it for you! This is exactly what you want!
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If $50 can buy you one art, it’s intuitive that $100 can buy you two. It’s amazing how often intuition is wrong! However, at this point, you’ve freed up a lot more time for us, and we’ll be able to put that time into making you a legitimately time-intensive, neato piece of whatever kind of art strikes your fancy. Want a portrait of yourself? You’ve got a portrait! Want the portrait to have a lizard instead of a soul patch? We’ll draw you the most photo-realistic reptilian soul patch you’ve never known you wanted.
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You’re clearly not just here for the art. Maybe you’d like a side order of… side orders? Ben will invent a new dish every month and name it after you. Then he’ll cook it. Then we’ll descend upon it in a frenzy of teeth and claws. Then we’ll send you the recipe. Eventually, we’ll make a cookbook, and every dish will be called Wilbur Thom Blakely’s Food for Thought. If that’s your name. If you’re in town, you can even have dinner with us! Is this not also exactly what you wanted?
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Some people have household gods. Some people have you. We don’t see the need to split hairs. You’ll always have a place in our hearts, and a genuine, handcrafted shrine dedicated to you will always have a place in our home. A place adorned daily with fresh oranges and flowers.
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Um. We didn’t really expect to get this far. Why don’t you just call whenever you want? Not only will we be besties, but you can talk to Robbie for advice about how to handle your compulsive giving. He’ll probably tell you to stop supporting us, and we’ll hit him with a ladle until he comes up with something better. Then we’ll all be friends, you person who helps us an indecent amount.
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Well, you’ve done it. You’ve paid for our food and our room, all on your fancy lonesome. We suppose it’s only fair that we pay for yours. Come visit for a weekend (or couple days of your choice) every month, and we’ll cook you up a mess o’ Wilbur Thom Blakely’s Food for Thought. Hang out while we draw, crochet with Ben, wrestle our pet pig (that’s a real thing we have), talk into the wee hours, or LAN it up (because we’ll never let the future take our past, and our past has a lot of Age of Empires).
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Oh, for- you know what, just tell us what you’re into. We’ll try to make it happen. Remember that scene in Patch Adams with the old lady and the pasta? Well, this probably won’t pay for that much pasta, but you get the idea. You have supported us to excess, so at this point it’s probably more a question of what you think would be neat to do with us than what we think would be neat to do for any given stranger who gives us a grand. And you’re not just any given stranger. You’re our giving stranger. We love you.
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This reminds us of our favorite pick-up line: “Is your dad a thief? Because you just flashed an awful lot of unmarked bills at us. Or maybe you’re a thief? Ooooh that’s dangerous and exciting. You probably need somewhere to, like, hide out when the law is looking for you. I know a place. Some people call it a summer home. Some people call it a regular home. Us, we call it a super-duper-secret sneak shack. Whatever you call it, it’s a house, and we own it, and we could put up your Willem Dafoe poster in a room that you can stay in whenever you want and we’ll cook you Wilbur Thom Blakely’s Food for Thought every night and name all our pets after you, which is only fair, because you’re paying our mortgage. Wait, you’re not a thief? Whatever. It’s okay if you’re not dangerous. This is still pretty unexpected and exciting.”
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I can eat food every day! I already can, but now Robbie won't have to pay for it.
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The Many Faces of Elle is an ongoing comic project we are making to illustrate our experience living with multiple personality disorder (click here for our website). We have had multiple personalities at least since we were five (or at least there are several personalities who remember being around when we were five), but very few of them had ever expressed themselves.
Almost all of the personalities lived exclusively in various fantasy worlds in our head, had never experienced the real world, and didn't know they had multiple personalities. About two years ago, that changed – since then, about fifteen personalities have come out, and dozens more still can't, but know that their lives aren't real, the world they live in isn't real, and they don't even have their own body.

Trying to manage your life when your body is occupied at various times by people, male and female, ranging in age from five to forty, many of whom are trying to cope with the fact that the families, friends, and loved ones they've spent their lives with don't exist any more than they do, has been a challenge. We can't control who is out or for how long, and we do not share skills or experiences. One of the more dominant personalities can't talk at all, and another appears to suffer from PTSD. The personality who everyone who knows us thought was the only one (Jemima) can only come out for a few hours a month. We can't really work a job, or maintain relationships. Even figuring out when we need to eat or knowing if we've taken medicine is a challenge.

Fortunately, when our multiple personalities started to express themselves uncontrollably and the girl whose life this was disappeared into our mind, we already had someone who was taking care of us. For the last two years, he's provided us with food and shelter, counsel, comfort, motivation, and Pokemon. He's given us everything we need, and most everything we want. He's gotten everyone to get along with each other, which was no mean feat, and talked us through our transition into reality. For many of us, that has meant letting go of husbands, girlfriends, children, jobs, and homes; accepting that they, and we, exist only as elaborate, if compelling, dreams; accepting that they things we worked and hoped for are gone, or that we will never have them; accepting that we will never have our own bodies. We still struggle with many things, but thanks to him, we're getting better. We'll don't know what we'll turn into as we continue to progress, but we know we'll be okay.

After constantly working at getting ourselves sorted out for two years, we decided we wanted to take on a collaborative project, chronicling our treatment, as a way to make a record for ourselves, to observe and analyze ourselves, and hopefully to even raise a little money, in the hopes that we can someday not only pay for our own expenses, but do something to pay back our caretaker, who's never been paid for his work yet. Several of the personalities are each drawing and narrating their own history, mostly beginning with the time they first experienced the real world. Those stories are our main focus, and we will be uploading one panel/frame/art every day on here. We will also be filling in some details about our histories, for the interest of anyone who wants to know what happened to a group of people whose lives and selves exist only in our head, but who have to confront this world, which can be eerily similar and heartbreakingly alien to our own. We hope you enjoy it.

Within Elle:

 

Jemima (Mima) is a little lady who draws. She has been making art forever with paint, pencils, pen & ink, dogs, computers, and I don't know what else. Although she started out as an aspiring photo-realist, she has years since abandoned that goal and decided to spend her time in the world making cute comics. She is the illustrator of The Rob comic series. She is seen very rarely, a couple times a month seems to be the going rate, but there is a huge backlog of her comics that will be posted regularly, giving her time to make new additions. If you want to be her friend, tell her she looks like a velociraptor. She'll like that.



Mi name Amy Harrower. Our Rob him seh mi should write dis de way mi talk coz him tink der is nothin wrong wiv de way mi talk even though mi is self conzhious abwt it. Mi is from a London dat exist in mi head, an mi life did nah actual happen. O ratha mi suppose it did happen but only inside mi head. Mi still gettin used to dat fact.
Mi is learnin a mek digital art fo dis project o ours, tellin mi likkle story startin wiv when mi met dat Rob. Mi is nah very experience wiv mek art, but mi is learnin fast. Mi otha hobbies includes cookin an mek tings with crochet, all sorts of tings from clothin for our bebe pig to hats to stuffed toys.



Reginald Thundershrimp
's real name is Ben Oliver Harrower, but since by the time he had arrived there were already five Ben Oliver Harrowers in our head (no, we don't know why), everyone was sick of calling each other Ben-number-something, so Robbie gave the newest Ben a nickname. The other Bens obtained nicknames too (aside from the first Ben mentioned, who is the only Ben we just call Ben), but their new names aren't nearly as cool as being called Reginald Thundershrimp.
Reggie can't talk much, so he uses a sort of homemade sign-language to communicate. He is kind and sweet and obsessed with sharks and the ocean. Reggie makes digital art, specifically portraits. He's seen almost daily, but he is not always in a good state to make art so we're not sure how often he'll be contributing.


Victor is Mima's twin brother.  He spent his childhood worrying that he would be lobotomized and doing Mima's homework, all without anyone knowing he existed.  After getting her just barely through high school graduation, he went to sleep for five years.  When he woke up, he couldn't find any homework, so he spent most of his time worrying about being lobotomized.  About six months after that, he finally came out to meet Robbie and express his concerns about being lobotomized.
Accepting that he wouldn't be lobotomized was the hardest thing Victor ever did, but that's partly because after meeting Robbie, all he had to do was eat treats, play with his pet bunnies, and effortlessly make big perfect Sims houses.  He's never drawn before, but he's decided that, now that he isn't being lobotomized, it's time to stop being afraid of everything and start making neat stuff.
Now he draws comics about his fear of being lobotomized.

Little Benny is one of the Bens. He is ten years old, and likes to colour. He thinks animals are great, candy is really great, and grownups really need someone to hold their hand and tell them what to do because obviously they can't figure out squat on their own. He has an ongoing collaborative cookbook project with Robbie and Ben, but at this time he isn't seen much so it might be a while before that project really takes off.


Robbie Eberhart-Garah
, who does not live in our head, is our caregiver and best friend. He's been taking care of Jemima since 2007, and spent six years trying to help her figure out why her life was funny. He (and she) found out that she had multiple personalities in 2013, which explained very few of her problems but did give him a lot more to work on. Because he cares for us 24/7, he can't hold down a full-time jo, but takes odd jobs as long as he can bring us along and make sure we're safe in the meantime. He has been a patient friend and creative problem-solver for all of the personalities who have spent time with him, and has become a grounding presence and source of comfort as well as our much needed daily reality-check. He has always provided a home for us as well as the materials to create art with, even though we have no income of our own and in spite of the fact that we can get downright ornery. Bizarre ideas and weird remarks shoot off him like sparks, which are collected and then later turned into comics by Jemima because she believes the world needs to know. These comics are called The Rob, and give some insight into what Rob is like in our daily life, or at least into how Jemima sees him. 

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Pledge $1 or more per month
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You've helped us live.  Live!  LIVE!!!  You can see all our comics as soon as we make them, instead of the one-a-day pace we post here.  Just our little way of saying thanks, Franks!  (Note: Our website isn't done yet, so this reward won't, uh, be very rewarding for a little while.  We're working on it!)
Pledge $5 or more per month
1 patron
You helped us live 5 TIMES (but don't stop now - there's many more of us)!  To say thanks, we want to share a secret: we don't just make comics about people finding out they've never seen the real world - we make all sorts of arts.  We'll post all the arts we've made and continue to make, just for you personally to enjoy! (Note: we're making this gallery on our website that's under construction, so lot's of stuff will go on there when it's done in addition to posts on Patreon).
Pledge $10 or more per month
0 patrons
Every morning Robbie wakes us up with an inspirational message: “Hello, friend! We’re gonna have us a wonderful day!”; “You’re my prettiest, bestest friend ever. It’s okay if you don’t do anything today.”; “Lazy, lazy child! I got up four hours ago!” Now, he’ll send you a personalized message every month. Prepare to be inspired! Or, if you prefer, insulted. Or, as likely as not, confused. He’s a diverse service.
Pledge $20 or more per month
3 patrons
Our people (us) will get in touch with your people (you). Want to talk to ben or Victor? Or experience the intensely specialized sign language that only Reggie can lay down? Once a month, we’ll chat on Skype, or the medium of your choice, just like old friends.
Pledge $35 or more per month
0 patrons
You’ve probably been wondering why Reggie can’t talk, or why ben is made of cigarettes. Or perhaps why Victor is so afraid of lobotomies. Want to know about our scandalous past? Ask us one question a month, and we’ll illustrate the answer for you! We hope you like how we imagine English people, because that’s probably the answer.
Pledge $50 or more per month
1 patron
Maybe you’re not curious about the past. We understand - the past is a foreign country, and customs is a pain. Never fear! We’ll draw you anything you want (and we do mean anything), and if we don’t know how to draw it, well, we’ll draw it anyway! At this level, you can expect less scribbling (unless you like scribbling) and more fancy art stuff that takes lots of time.
Pledge $75 or more per month
0 patrons
Remember when we said we could chat like old friends? Well, if you’re donating this much money, we think we ought to be old friends. Every month, we’ll make a video of us and Robbie and Gillian (our other super helpful housemate) reminiscing on the great times we’ve spent with you. Just tell us what it was we did together, (the time we officiated your wedding, the day we met in a federal penitentiary, or whatever) and we’ll canonize it for you! This is exactly what you want!
Pledge $100 or more per month
0 patrons
If $50 can buy you one art, it’s intuitive that $100 can buy you two. It’s amazing how often intuition is wrong! However, at this point, you’ve freed up a lot more time for us, and we’ll be able to put that time into making you a legitimately time-intensive, neato piece of whatever kind of art strikes your fancy. Want a portrait of yourself? You’ve got a portrait! Want the portrait to have a lizard instead of a soul patch? We’ll draw you the most photo-realistic reptilian soul patch you’ve never known you wanted.
Pledge $150 or more per month
0 patrons
You’re clearly not just here for the art. Maybe you’d like a side order of… side orders? Ben will invent a new dish every month and name it after you. Then he’ll cook it. Then we’ll descend upon it in a frenzy of teeth and claws. Then we’ll send you the recipe. Eventually, we’ll make a cookbook, and every dish will be called Wilbur Thom Blakely’s Food for Thought. If that’s your name. If you’re in town, you can even have dinner with us! Is this not also exactly what you wanted?
Pledge $200 or more per month
0 patrons
Some people have household gods. Some people have you. We don’t see the need to split hairs. You’ll always have a place in our hearts, and a genuine, handcrafted shrine dedicated to you will always have a place in our home. A place adorned daily with fresh oranges and flowers.
Pledge $350 or more per month
0 patrons
Um. We didn’t really expect to get this far. Why don’t you just call whenever you want? Not only will we be besties, but you can talk to Robbie for advice about how to handle your compulsive giving. He’ll probably tell you to stop supporting us, and we’ll hit him with a ladle until he comes up with something better. Then we’ll all be friends, you person who helps us an indecent amount.
Pledge $500 or more per month
0 patrons
Well, you’ve done it. You’ve paid for our food and our room, all on your fancy lonesome. We suppose it’s only fair that we pay for yours. Come visit for a weekend (or couple days of your choice) every month, and we’ll cook you up a mess o’ Wilbur Thom Blakely’s Food for Thought. Hang out while we draw, crochet with Ben, wrestle our pet pig (that’s a real thing we have), talk into the wee hours, or LAN it up (because we’ll never let the future take our past, and our past has a lot of Age of Empires).
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0 patrons
Oh, for- you know what, just tell us what you’re into. We’ll try to make it happen. Remember that scene in Patch Adams with the old lady and the pasta? Well, this probably won’t pay for that much pasta, but you get the idea. You have supported us to excess, so at this point it’s probably more a question of what you think would be neat to do with us than what we think would be neat to do for any given stranger who gives us a grand. And you’re not just any given stranger. You’re our giving stranger. We love you.
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This reminds us of our favorite pick-up line: “Is your dad a thief? Because you just flashed an awful lot of unmarked bills at us. Or maybe you’re a thief? Ooooh that’s dangerous and exciting. You probably need somewhere to, like, hide out when the law is looking for you. I know a place. Some people call it a summer home. Some people call it a regular home. Us, we call it a super-duper-secret sneak shack. Whatever you call it, it’s a house, and we own it, and we could put up your Willem Dafoe poster in a room that you can stay in whenever you want and we’ll cook you Wilbur Thom Blakely’s Food for Thought every night and name all our pets after you, which is only fair, because you’re paying our mortgage. Wait, you’re not a thief? Whatever. It’s okay if you’re not dangerous. This is still pretty unexpected and exciting.”