Melody

is creating a better life for herself / the world.

39

patrons

$437

per month
(Quick note before I start - if Nate sent you here to support the person helping him get his album released, you're in the right place! Welcome!)

A few friends have asked me recently what I've been up to, since I kind of disappeared. I guess I've been sick. It's been sinking in recently because I've been thinking a lot about suicide. Not planning or intending, just... thinking.

There were two suicide deaths in my life at the start of the year. One, a high school friend's dad, someone I had never met. The other, a college classmate and friend, someone I knew quite well, in a time. Both had PTSD - just like me - and it was a painful and scary reminder that this could be the reason I die. It's hard to deny being seriously ill when you're watching friends die from the same diagnosis. I disappeared for the last few years because I was entirely focused on surviving.

I'm tired of just surviving. I'm ready to get back to living, and I want to share that life with you.

I'm currently working on three projects:
  1. Tails of the Unwound, a podcast about yarn arts and the people who do them
  2. Unravel My Heart and Hope to Die, a book of stories of romantic relationships which explores the many facets of sexuality, intimacy, and love. Expect: many priceless yet horrifying stories of mediocre white men.
  3. A lot, a lot, a lot of writing about mental health. Form... not really finalized.
I have plenty more to come, as 3-4 years of stifled creative energy is finally being allowed to come out to play. I can't even begin to express how far I've come in the last year, in healing and allowing myself to seek safety. At the same time, I know that if this trend is going to continue, I'll need all the help and support I can get.

I'm not healthy enough yet for a full time job. It's the goal, for sure, but I may never get there. I don't have family or a partner I can fall back on without taking a significant hit to my mental health. What I have is friends, communities, people who appreciate me and the work they've seen me do, people who want to see me be *happy*. A lot of them. You all know who you are. I need you.

Becoming a Patron helps me cover the costs of healthcare / life / spoiling my cats / etc. I've listed some of my expenses as goals - when I'm able to support myself, I'll look into investing in my creative endeavors.

As a benefit, you'll get... well, a first chance at feedback on what kind of benefits I should offer! For now, you're part of my community. And you'll get a silly thank you card at some point.

I also appreciate any and all follows - I'll be sending lots of public updates! Especially when there's exciting news! It's also a huge fucking confidence boost.

Okay? Okay.

I was never good at closing.

P.S. Tell your friends ~
Tiers
Almighty Bob
$1 or more per month


BBC Department Head
$5 or more per month


Colin
$10 or more per month


Dish of the Day
$25 or more per month


East River Creature
$50 or more per month


Goals
$437 of $700 per month
You know what's great? My health insurance. You know what's less great? Having to pay for it. $700/month for insurance is currently my cheapest health care option. This is your opportunity to grumble about the American health care system. I don't like it either.
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(Quick note before I start - if Nate sent you here to support the person helping him get his album released, you're in the right place! Welcome!)

A few friends have asked me recently what I've been up to, since I kind of disappeared. I guess I've been sick. It's been sinking in recently because I've been thinking a lot about suicide. Not planning or intending, just... thinking.

There were two suicide deaths in my life at the start of the year. One, a high school friend's dad, someone I had never met. The other, a college classmate and friend, someone I knew quite well, in a time. Both had PTSD - just like me - and it was a painful and scary reminder that this could be the reason I die. It's hard to deny being seriously ill when you're watching friends die from the same diagnosis. I disappeared for the last few years because I was entirely focused on surviving.

I'm tired of just surviving. I'm ready to get back to living, and I want to share that life with you.

I'm currently working on three projects:
  1. Tails of the Unwound, a podcast about yarn arts and the people who do them
  2. Unravel My Heart and Hope to Die, a book of stories of romantic relationships which explores the many facets of sexuality, intimacy, and love. Expect: many priceless yet horrifying stories of mediocre white men.
  3. A lot, a lot, a lot of writing about mental health. Form... not really finalized.
I have plenty more to come, as 3-4 years of stifled creative energy is finally being allowed to come out to play. I can't even begin to express how far I've come in the last year, in healing and allowing myself to seek safety. At the same time, I know that if this trend is going to continue, I'll need all the help and support I can get.

I'm not healthy enough yet for a full time job. It's the goal, for sure, but I may never get there. I don't have family or a partner I can fall back on without taking a significant hit to my mental health. What I have is friends, communities, people who appreciate me and the work they've seen me do, people who want to see me be *happy*. A lot of them. You all know who you are. I need you.

Becoming a Patron helps me cover the costs of healthcare / life / spoiling my cats / etc. I've listed some of my expenses as goals - when I'm able to support myself, I'll look into investing in my creative endeavors.

As a benefit, you'll get... well, a first chance at feedback on what kind of benefits I should offer! For now, you're part of my community. And you'll get a silly thank you card at some point.

I also appreciate any and all follows - I'll be sending lots of public updates! Especially when there's exciting news! It's also a huge fucking confidence boost.

Okay? Okay.

I was never good at closing.

P.S. Tell your friends ~

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Tiers
Almighty Bob
$1 or more per month


BBC Department Head
$5 or more per month


Colin
$10 or more per month


Dish of the Day
$25 or more per month


East River Creature
$50 or more per month