A young girl signs onto AOL after she creates her very first pen name. A whole new world opens up to her, taking her away from the pain and anxiety in her everyday life. She has hope. She has a new outlet. She makes mistakes. She gets lost. She escapes. She makes friends. She makes enemies. She gets caught up in drama. She shares too much.
You're all familiar with this girl. I'm certainly not the only person who used the internet to escape.
No matter how much I shared, though, there were always layers that I hid. People always accused me of sharing too much but it never was everything.
There were the moments that were always hidden behind password protected walls.
Why Patreon? Why now?
I never stopped posting on my personal blog, but I knew that I needed another outlet. There are the stories that are too painful to share, wounds too deep for the world to pick at them with the wrong word.
I considered a couple of options:
- Pitch individual essays to publications, hoping for it to connect with a larger audience.
- Write a book
My goal for this space...
This is going to be an ongoing experiment, so you will have a lot of input in how this space will shape and evolve. With your support, I hope to:
- Write & share my stories regularly with your feedback on the next steps
- Create a safe space where you (the patrons) can engage
- Give a behind-the-scenes look on how anxiety and depression impact my day-to-day creativity
- Share your stories, anonymously if you choose, to get you feedback and support from our community.
If you're new to the space and my writing, you can get to know me better through some of my older blogs:
- (09/22/2015) Leaving My Heart on the Stage: My First Ignite Talk: I conquered my biggest fear and shared the real story behind why writing is my survival technique on stage in front of hundreds of strangers.
- (04/15/2015) The One Where I Turned 30: It was a big turning point for me, and not just because it was a new decade.
- (12/08/2014) Leap of Faith: The story behind the biggest move of my adult life.
- (11/06/2013) About “A Distorted Dream”: I’ve written one short story in my life. This is the uncomfortable truth behind it.