And thank you all so much for waiting around for me! I'm happy to say that, even though the last months have been... hectic (I'll get to that in a minute), I'm doing pretty good.
Getting through the Holidays was a challenge as I expected. The second christmas without my sister and my aunt wasn't any easier than the first. But I'm blessed with a bunch of loving friends and family, and a wonderful husband. Together we made it through another year.
(edit: To my own horror, I realized that it's almost 3 years since my sister passed now... not two. Tho in my defence, it actually does feel like I have lost a year of my life there.)
I'm about 3 months into my "depression-butt-kicking-therapy-program" now. It's been hard work, but it is paying off. My understanding of both the disease and my personal pitfalls have increased significantly and my focus is on creating lasting positive changes in my thinking patterns to overcome them, and generally being kinder to myself.
I have had to ask myself some difficult questions, but my stance on Spindrift hasn't changed. It is what I want to be doing more than anything else.
To make these past months just a bit more hectic- I had to undergo surgery mid December. Nothing serious, thankfully, but it was a hassle, being misdiagnosed twice, then learning that I had a ganglion (sort of benign tumor) on the inside of my ankle. Since it was on the side of my foot it tactically messed up my skating season (I had to stop training) up to a point where I couldn't comfortably wear even the comfiest of shoes anymore.
Post-surgery things seem to be looking good however. I'm walking almost free of a limp. I can wear shoes again (yay! I never thought I would someday proudly proclaim "I've worn a shoe!" when my friend asked me after my day).
The stitches are to be removed tomorrow, and I hope that they will tell me that I'll be able to skate again in a month or so. That'd be gggrrrreat (training makes a huge difference in how I cope with the depression).
As for the actual relevant stuff ;), am slowly picking up making art again, as I start to feel more whole. It's still difficult and it comes easiest when there's no stakes, but this week will be my first experimental work-week again. Wish me luck!
I don't really do new year's resolutions, but I wish to be kind to everyone in 2017, myself included.
Love to you all, for your ongoing patience and support.