First of all: I have meds again! Like, ones that work. I literally picked them up on the afternoon of the 30th.
And I feel amazing. Well, except that I slept badly last night and now have a headache.
But after weeks of struggling to do anything, yesterday I sat down and I made that Doom text generator, from scratch, in a day! And that was cool as hell. Had an idea, did it, released it, done.
Here is my idea. Which I had on the night of the 30th.
I am going to make and release one thing every day until Christmas.
The goal is severalfold:
ⓐ I miss making stuff, and I want to make a lot of stuff. It's easy to get sucked into working on a thing for a long time and fiddling with it endlessly and never being satisfied. I sure as hell have been doing that with fox flux. This should kick me out of that vortex, and make up for a hell of a lot of lost time.
ⓑ It's incredibly satisfying to sit down, work for a few hours, and be done. To see how much I can actually do in a day, polish and all.
ⓒ I make stuff for me, not for everyone else's entertainment. I mean, it's nice if the stuff I make also makes other folks happy, but the reason I do it is for me. I've sort of forgotten that this past year, and I think a bit of a frantic scramble will help me remember.
(In the spirit of that last bullet point, I'm also officially dropping the dev log for the time being — it became yet another source of entirely self-imposed stress, fearing I'm not "doing enough" to "fill a post" or whatever the fuck.)
To be clear, I absolutely do not have 25 ideas already in mind. I thought of this a couple hours before I went to bed, and the Doom text generator yesterday was a proof of concept. I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do, aside from a couple days' worth of thoughts I've had so far. I might run out of steam/ideas a week in!
But I also might not, and that's an exciting prospect.
The link leads to a little calendar, which I'll be updating every day! Feel free to keep an eye on it. Feel free to try doing this yourself, too. Or don't! I just feel like this is important for me.
Unlike most prologues, this post is public, but I'll do little Patreon perks when I can (like only giving today's crossword solution to patrons). Thanks for your patience, as always. I think I might finally be back, and I intend to prove it this month.