Feb 15, 2020
After getting away from his cruel father's tyranny, Randall has to learn how to live again and accept the person he was meant to be - with a little help of certain someone...
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An empty shell. That's all the twenty-five year old Randall now is. Growing up as gay in a household where gay people are hated, he had to learn to act someone else in order to survive. After growing up being abused and humiliated by his homophobic father, he's forgotten the person he once was. Unable to feel or create any kind of relationships, Randall is repeating the same pattern every day: go to work, work out, watch TV and drink, struggling to hold onto his will to live.
When a gay bar opens its doors in his neighborhood, the fragile balance he has created with himself is in danger of being destroyed when his true self is trying to break free.
And to make things worse, there is a guy at his gym. A kind guy with a nice voice, who likes talking people's ears off. A guy who can see his suffering and is willing to do whatever it takes to help him.
A guy who is making Randall to feel once again.
(Warning, this novel contains verbal and physical abuse!)
Chapter Selection
1. Torment | Free
2. Freedom | Free
3. Meeting Him | Free
4. Nightmare | Free
5. Fearful Eyes | Free
6. Crashing
7. To Stay Sane
8. Not Well
9. Silent Plea
10. Letting Closer
11. Breaking Point
12. To End It All
13. Saved by Him
15. Trust in Him
16. In Need of Help
17. Back in Therapy
18. Quiet Humming
19. Midnight Talk
20. To Be Happy
21. Held by Him
23. Battle of Voices
24. Empty Shelter
25. Talking
27. T-Shirt
29. New Energy
31. Comfort
33. The Whole Point
34. Nine Years Lost
35. Worst Fear
37. Right Direction
38. Lazy Day
39. Getting Nowhere
40. New Tools
41. No One Else
42. The Date
43. Trust
44. The First Time
45. Better Than Ever
46. Corner
47. Another First
48. Under the Flag
49. Breaking Free
