This portrait has taken almost a year to complete.  There is a bit of story with this one...

This is the second time I have tried this one. First attempt was an utter failure...

However, it does hang in my art room as a reminder that I am allowed to make mistakes.  

I tried again afterward, but I didn't even get past the initial sketch before starting yet again.

Months went by before I could even look at it again.  I was just so damned frustrated!  I would keep thinking to myself that I needed to start on it.  But my hands just wouldn't comply...

So, I tried to do some other stuff instead, but it kept eating at me.  It just wasn't fair for this piece to be unfinished while I worked on other things.  It kinda made me feel a bit useless.  Like I wasn't actually cut out for this art thing.  I just couldn't shake the "impostor syndrome."  I honestly didn't even think that was a thing until someone else mentioned it.  Summed it up perfectly...

Now that I knew what I was encountering, I just went ahead and bit the bullet and got it finished!  

You have NO IDEA how refreshing it is to finally complete this piece!  It seriously almost broke me.

Now, don't get me wrong, I did do a few other things within the year.  But no portraits.  I just couldn't bring myself to it.

And now... NOW I can move on!  Hopefully I can recover from this piece.

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