The warning signs were there.
I’ve had so many notifications in my inbox(es) over the last few months that instead of a number count, Google decided to give me the bright, shiny and seemingly permanent “infinity” symbol.
I have many videos collecting dust in the inner sanctums of my editing program. I even have some edited, all I need to do is hit the 'upload' button.
So..What could possibly be my moral dilemma?
I’ve been “working” for the last 6 years in varying degrees. But honestly - I haven’t been able to be fully committed lately. I realize the problem now - I distract play with work, and work with play. It’s a vicious cycle, but nothing gets done. In one of my previous posts, I explain how easy it is to be overwhelmed with so many mediums for contact. So much stimuli can incite paralyses. It has for me.
I want to make great things, but I have muddled up my perspective with so many other things that my picture of how that would happen isn’t clear anymore.
So I’m doing something that I find terrifying. I’m unplugging for 2 weeks, with radio silence until the 12th. Going to nature, and refocusing myself.
What I’ve been telling myself, and it may be helpful if you have work-play issues: :-)
1. Your biggest fears are completely dependent on you for their survival.
Stop worrying, doubting yourself, and running through every possible scenario in your head.
2. Instead, be as present as possible. It may not be easy, but try to laugh at the commotion. Enjoy your life as it unfolds – raw data, both good at bad.
3. You might not end up exactly where you wanted to go.. but you will be exactly where you need to be.
See you on the 12th!
Thanks so much for your support, <3