I talked in the past about how the idea for this chapter stemmed from a dream I had, in which I shared the dream with one of my friends. I'd like to take this time to talk a bit more about that!
In the dream, as I was waking up, my friend and I agreed to each hold onto /something/ (I can't remember what it was.) so that we'd still be holding it when we woke up, and that'd prove that it was more than just a dream.
Now obviously that wouldn't work, but as someone who was dreaming, it made perfect sense to me. I decided however, as I was waking up, to let go of that something. I didn't want to risk the disappointment of knowing for certain that the dream was just a dream.