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Our priest focused on the last line of the Gospel reading yesterday:
"No one who sets a hand to the plow and looks to what was left behind is fit for the kingdom of God."
But the reading in our booklet had it written in some way that said, "No one who sets a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God..."
And that's something I struggle with: looking back, thinking of things in the past -- what happened, what harmed me, how I wish things had been different. Talking through these things in prayer, sitting in silence to hear God's response, and then talking through them with my husband or close friends definitely helps. But it's still something I notice and need to keep working on.
One of my favorite writers, Emily Stimpson-Chapman, wrote so beautifully here about how Grace can cover our pasts, and the years behind us.
It's given me something to think about.. .
And another story comes to mind: the story in Genesis 50, where Joseph said to his brothers (after they sold him into slavery), "You meant evil against me, but God meant it for good."
I recently learned that "meant" is the Hebrew word for "wove," so really, what Joseph was saying was, "You wove evil... but God rewove it for good" and I LOVE THAT. God refashioned all of Joseph's pain, the abandonment & loss and shame he experienced, into a beautiful story. I want to pray on that and see how God might be doing that for me -- and I wonder if you're able to see how God might be doing that in your own life as well.
Pray with me?
Father in Heaven, I want to be free from the pain I carry and from the painful memories that I hold. Help me to let go, to give these burdens and wounds to You. Help me to loosen my grip so that I can move forward with hope and healing. Please give me the graces I need to live in the present moment and to trust that You are weaving something beautiful from my past. Amen.
That's all for now!
Praying for you beautiful women this week -- that you may feel seen, known and loved for who you are.