“You will find that the mere resolve not to be useless, and the honest desire to help other people, will, in the quickest and most delicate ways, improve yourself.”

-John Ruskin

(forgive my rambling, I'm not much of a writer)

I fight this battle daily since the kiddos flew the coupe, and even tho I volunteered while the kids were home, I do more since they left back in 2008.  Empty Nest is not for the weak, I think I cried for the 1st year, and have spent every day since trying to figure out what my purpose is.  Why am I still here?  I'm now 50, I work odd, temp and seasonal jobs around the country living in my lil vintage trailer.  No one needs me, I'm getting fatter as the years go by, new aches n pains often... OK OK I'll stop whining ;)

I own nothing, except my 1963 travel trailer and my 1984 Chevy truck and some "crapola" I have inside both... all paid for.   Neither would be worth anything to anyone but me.  I don't have expensive toys, my laptop is a $300 or so special from Walmart, my cell phone is the pricey thing I have, the latest thing from T-Mobile with all the bells n whistles.   My regular monthly bills (auto ins and cell phone) total about $150 mo, so I don't "have" to work much, just depends on where I want to go that week, how far I want to drive to get there, etc.  

I seem to be most fulfilled when I am visiting somewhere where I can associate with the baby boomer generation (and older), products of the 30-40-50's.  They have the best stories.  I don't seem to have a problem finding the 1-2 or so that need help with something that their family hasn't had the time to come handle for them.  Some don't have family to call on, some are just forgotten, some just have busy families that don't have the time to help out much.  I'm not downing anyone, I'm happy to help out where I can.  I have the time, and the ability for most things.  I can even attempt to find someone for something I don't know how or cannot do myself.  

Since I've been here in Arkansas, I'm camped at Joe's place.  Joe is a 60 something year old Veteran who doesn't get around as well as he once did and cannot drive anymore.  He has lived here in this area his while live now living is his parents old house on many many acres.  He does have a 40 something year old man and his girlfriend living with him and they cook, clean, chop firewood etc.  Since I've been here I do help by cooking 2-3 dinners a week, and I've taken Joe to the VA in Little Rock, about 150 or so miles away.  

So anyway... now that I've rattled on and on for a bit, just thought I'd pop in and let you know whats shakin in my world... we've sold every watermelon in the patch that the coons didn't get to first, got a wedding to go to this Saturday, a couple in their 70's are tying the knot... they are the cutest thing, like high schoolers every time I see them, so it'll be a happy day.  Then I'm heading north... Coffeyville Kansas is the first stop to visit with my Amazon peeps then slowly peddling my way up to Grafton ND to work the beet harvest, have to be there by Sept 25th.

Y'all love on each other, do what makes you happy and see you down the road ;)

;) <3 Beth