I wrote this song when I was a freshman in college. It was one of those tunes that came out at 3 in the morning when I couldn’t sleep. I remember playing and singing it super quietly so I wouldn’t wake up my roommates.
Lyrically, the song is about a hopeless crush and trying to sort out whether or not I had a chance.
Originally, I envisioned the song as sort of a early Radiohead style acoustic power ballad like “Fake Plastic Trees.” As I started recording it and adding elements, it morphed into something a lot more along the lines of Beach House’s “Silver Soul” and if I’m being perfectly honest, there’s a little bit of Yo Gabba Gabba influence thrown in there.
Some of the elements included are the lo-fi drum machine, the weepy sounding slide guitar, the soft churchy organ, and the heavy reverb effects on the vocals, which are both double tracked and song at octaves. There’s also some interesting spacey synth parts including a really disjointed blippy solo I played by clicking the notes on the screen with my mouse.
This was really left field for me in terms of trying something I’ve never done before. I think the results are pretty satisfying.