Mar 18, 2022
Bonus Feelin Weird Episodes (Ep#, Title/Link, Guest, Date Published):
Description: a collection of PERSONAL audio journals & conversations which document my healing journey.
(EP#: Title/Link w/ Guest, Date Published)
P1: I TALK TO MY EX (Dating a Depressed Person) w/ Anonymous (my ex-partner), 3 July 2018
P2: Impostor Syndrome & Self-Acceptance w/ Anonymous, 18 Aug 2018
P3: Healing My Trauma + Reconnecting with My Body (audio journal), 5 Sept 2018
P4: Depressssssssion + Healing Trauma w/ Corinna (episode 59), 7 Oct 2018
P5: Cocaine + a Suicide Attempt (solo), 21 Oct 2018
P6: An Interview with Kye Plant w/ Anonymous, 21 Oct 2018
P7: Kye Tells Secrets About Being Queer and Raised Christian (audio journal), 4 Nov 2018
P8: Old Pals Talk Mental Illness and Friendship w/ Anonymous (my best-friend), 23 Nov 2018
P9: I Stopped Taking My Meds, Doc... (audio journal), 12 Dec 2018
P10: Christian Kids Gone Wild w/ Anonymous (my high-school friend), 16 Dec 2018
P11: Sexual Orientation OCD (audio journal), 26 Dec 2018
P12: Difficult Relationships + BPD w/ Levi Chase, 12 Jan 2019
P13: (MY DAD!) PTSD + Family Trauma w/ My Dad, 24 Jan 2019
P14: Mental Illness + Relationships w/ Corinna, 5 Feb 2019
P15: Childhood Emotional Neglect (Audio Journal), 6 March 2019
P16: Overcoming Sexual Abuse (Audio Journal), 21 April 2019
P17: My Christian Upbringing + Sexual Shame, Confusion & Trauma w/ Anonymous, 2 June 2019
P18: I Wanna Quit (Audio Journal), 24 June 2019
P19: I Still Wanna Quit (Audio Journal), 1 July 2019
P20: Young, Drunk + Not Communicating (Pt 1) w/ Anonymous (old friend), 5 Aug 2019
P21: Drugs + Fear of Abandonment (Pt 2) w/ Anonymous (old friend), 11 Aug 2019
P22: Men, Anger + Communication w/ Levi Chase, 9 Sept 2019
P23: Connected Healing w/ Tuna Melt (my partner), 22 Sept 2019
P24: Fear of the Unknown w/ Tuna Melt (my partner), 20 Oct 2019
P25: BPD + Healing w/ Tuna Melt (my partner), 17 Nov 2019
P26: Family Counselling w/ My Parents (Audio Journal), 16 Dec 2019
P27: Holiday Depression w/ Tuna Melt (my partner), 2 Jan 2020
P28: Friendship Counselling + BPD w/ Kirstin (my friend), 28 Jan 2020
P29: On Healing (audio journal), 29 Feb 2020
P30: On Fear of Change & Being Exposed (audio journal), 16 March 2020
P31: On Saying Goodbye (audio journal), 22 April 2020
P32: On Anger, Grief + Abandonment (audio journal), 28 June 2020
P33: On Summer Depression (Audio Journal), 19 Aug 2020
P34: On Grief, Death + Inner Child Work (audio journal), 26 Aug 2020
P35: On Impostor Syndrome, "I suck" + Inner Child Healing (audio journal), 8 Sept 2020
P36: On Mania, Identifying Feelings + Deleting Everyone on IG (Audio Journal), 22 Sept 2020
P37: On "...Am I Autistic???", Feelin Over-stimulated + Being AUTHENTICALLY ME (Audio Journal), 26 Sept & 16 Oct 2020
P38: On Unlearning Workaholism & Perfectionism (Audio Journal), 27 Oct 2020
P39: On Suicide, Grieving + Music (audio journal), 10 Nov 2020
P40: On Processing BIG Feelings + Judgements (audio journal), 25 Nov 2020
P41: On Boundaries, Support + Challenging Relationships (audio journal), 10 Dec 2020
P42: On Fear, Masculinity + Repressed Emotions (audio journal), 16 Dec 2020
P43: On Being Authentically Me/You (audio journal), 26 Dec 2020
P44: On Listening to Inner Wisdom + Finding Calm, Authentic Strength (audio journal), 5 Jan 2021
P45: On Letting Out The Inner Weird (audio journal), 1 Feb 2021
P46: On Struggle, The Creative Process + Perfectionism (audio journal), 15 March 2021
P47: On Conflict, Cannabis + Meditation (audio journal), 22 March 2021
P48: On Sexual Repression, Gender Identity + Opening up! (audio journal), 30 March 2021
P49: My Struggles in Masculinity & Gender (audio journal), 9 April 2021
P50: On the PAIN of life, the LOVE volcano & making amends (audio journal), 11 May 2021
P51: Why I question the concept of "Mental Illness" (and the Western Medical Industry as a whole) (audio journal), 23 May 2021
P52: how I identify MY feelings/emotions (and how you might ALSO) (audio journal), 18 June 2021
P53: How I Identify Stories (audio journal), 13 July 2021
P54: Ending the Generational Cycle of Emotional Repression (audio journal), 29 July 2021
P55: On Shifting Coping Mechanisms (audio journal), 13 Aug 2021
P56: My SHADOWS + SENSITIVITIES (audio journal), 28 Aug 2021
P57: Feeling Confused/Frustrated and Finding the Sadness Underneath (audio journal), 11 Sept 2021
P58: Ooohh sshiit...I'm NOT in control...(and I NEED to belong) (audio journal), 25 Sept 2021
P58.1: do You need/want support? I can hold Space. (audio journal), 1 Oct 2021
P59: Sitting with anger, GRIEF, death (audio journal), 11 Oct 2021
P60: Communicating with My PARTS (audio journal), 3 Nov 2021
P61: Depression, Conflict + Radical Compassion PART1 (audio journal), 20 Nov 2021
P62: Depression, Conflict + Radical Compassion PART2 (audio journal), 25 Nov 2021
P63: Learning to SWIM in the Emotional WAVES (audio journal), 14 Dec 2021
P64: A Body-Scan Meditation + a Pep Talk for Challenging Times (solo), 23 Dec 2021
P65: The Slow Road Back to Heart--Addiction & Self-Compassion (audio journal), 14 Jan 2022
P66: Depression, Conflict + Radical Compassion PART3 (audio journal), 17 Jan 2022
P67: MSN Time Machine, Integrating Compassion for PAST self & TOXic MASCulinity (audio journal), 7 Feb 2022
P68: Birthday Reflections (as I grow into my strength AND watch my body fall apart) (audio journal), 20 Feb 2022
P69: Self-HATRED is IMpossible: On Re-Releasing Old Episodes & Sitting With Younger Me (audio journal), 28 March 2022
P70: Welcoming Spring & the Rings of Growth (audio journal), 16 April 2022
P71: Emotional Stewardship & Community Belonging (audio journal), 11 May 2022
P72: Processing Shame & The Power of Big Feelers (audio journal), 23 June 2022
P73: Honouring Protectors & Understanding Triggers (audio journal), 31 July 2022
P74: Surrendering to (& Celebrating) the Life Process (audio journal), 31 Aug 2022
P75: A Week in My Life--riding the BIG waves of emotion (audio journal compilation), 21 Sept 2022
P76: Grief Weaver (OR Autumn is My Season of Grieving) (audio journal), 31 Oct 2022
P77: The Bravery of Surrendering to Pain & Grief (audio journal), 24 Nov 2022
P78: BPD Here Now (audio journal), 31 Jan 2023
P79: I Feel Scared To Quit! (audio journal), 15 Feb 2023
P80: Daily Cold Showers CHANGED My LIFE!!! (audio journal), 28 March 2023
P81: What does HOME feel like and WHERE is it? (audio journal), 10 May 2023
P82: My Journey as an ARTIST (solo), 24 May 2023
P83: Tuna & I say goodbye to Feelin Weird w/ Tuna Melt, 7 June 2023
P84: My Gender Journey (solo), 13 June 2023
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We're Movin To The East Coast (Road Trip Podcast):
Description: A short series documenting my voyage with Tuna, my partner, across Canada to a new home on the East Coast.
(Title/Link, Guest, Date Published)
WMEC1: New Beginnings w/ Tuna Melt (My Partner), 13 July 2020
WMEC2: Travel Blues w/ Tuna Melt (My Partner), 20 July 2020
WMEC3: Crossing Borders w/ Tuna Melt (My Partner), 27 July 2020
WMEC4: Coming Home w/ Tuna Melt (My Partner), 7 Aug 2020
WMEC5: In Retrospect w/ Tuna Melt (My Partner), 13 Aug 2020
WMEC6: 2Yrs Later, a Follow-Up w/ Tuna Melt (My Partner), 31 May 2022
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ITASAOAMB?! (Is This A Spiritual Awakening Or A Mental Breakdown?!) Series:
Description: a short series depicting a period in my life where I experienced a type of awakening/understanding of my self and the world I exist in (with an awareness that I MIGHT sound "crazy" to some people--which challenges the western mindset that identifies experiences/behaviors as "mental illness").
(Title/Link, Date Published)
Part 1: Waking Up To Love and Feelings, 5 April 2021
Part 2: I'm Feeling EVERY THING (and love and love), 13 April 2021
Part 3: The Freeze/Thaw;Forget/Remember Cycles, 23 April 2021
Part 4: Accessing DEEP Trauma, Plant Medicines + Learning to RIDE The Waves, 28 April 2021
Part 5: DEEP Healing in the WOOODS!, 5 May 2021
Part 6: Reintegration, 8 May 2021
Part 7: Learning How To Have Conflict in a MEANINGfulll Way, 6 June 2021
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the Weirdo Call-In Show:
Description: Producer Kye and I field inter-dimensional listener phone calls and listener-submitted songs in this SILLY, playful, heart-warming improvisational (one-person) podcast series.
(EP#: Title/Link, Date Published)
EP1: The Universe is Weirder Than We Thought!, 14 Feb 2022
EP2: Mr. Happy's Stealing Joy From The Cloud People!, 16 March 2022
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Regular Feelin Weird Episodes:
Description: gentle, intimate conversational recordings with the intent of normalizing the humyn experience and creating a sense of "I'm not alone in this."
(EP#. Title/Link w/ Guest, Date Published)
1. Anxiety + Panic Attacks w/ Courtney Wendland, May 10, 2016
2.1 Depression + SOCIAL ANXIETY (Pt 1) w/ Mikey Loranger, May 16, 2016
2.2 Depression, Over-Stimulation + Body Shame (Pt 2) w/ Mikey Loranger, May 16, 2016
3. ADHD (Depression + Anxiety) w/ Stephanie West, May 22, 2016
4. Addiction & Recovery w/ Sara, May 29, 2016
5. Living With AND Loving The Depressed People In Your Life w/ My Mom, June 6, 2016
6. Queer Sex + Low Sex Drives w/ Gillian Carleton, June 12, 2016
7. Self-Worth & Existential Depression w/ Crystal Dorval, June 20, 2016
8. Death, Loss + Trauma w/ Courtney Wendland, June 27, 2016
9. Being Transgender w/ Kai Conradi, July 4, 2016
10. Fentanyl Addiction & Fibromyalgia w/ Nicole H, July 11, 2016
11. OCD & Panic Attacks w/ Evan Mumford, July 18, 2016
12. Asexuality w/ Max Monday, July 25, 2016
13. Being Two-Spirit w/ Dion Smith-Dokkie, Aug 1, 2016
14. Alcoholism + Sobriety w/ Ian Johnson, Aug 8, 2016
15. Eating Disorders & Scoliosis w/ Mary Rubin, Aug 15, 2016
16. Emotional Abuse, Substance Abuse + Friendship w/ Levi Chase, Aug 23, 2016
17. Her Brother's Suicide w/ Kay Gallivan, Aug 31, 2016
18. Residential Schools & Intergenerational Trauma w/ PEPAḴIYE Ashley Cooper, Sept 7, 2016
19. Testing HIV+ w/ Piotr Burek, Sept 14, 2016
20. Being Queer w/ Psalm Frond, Sept 28, 2016
21. Self-Care & Coping Strategies (Pt 1) w/ Crystal Dorval, Oct 4, 2016
22. Depression & Feeling Overwhelmed (Pt 2) w/ Crystal Dorval, Oct 8, 2016
23. Perfectionism & ADHD w/ Stephanie West, Nov 25, 2016
24. BPD + Friendship w/ Anya, Dec 11, 2016
25. Graves' Disease w/ Sarah Hager, Jan 16, 2017
26. Fear of EVERYTHING w/ Alexis Kastner, Jan 23, 2017
27. Overeating + Weight Loss w/ Ian Johnson, Feb 8, 2017
28. Skin Picking Disorder w/ Norah Hill, Feb 22, 2017
29. My Story: Relapse, Suicide Attempts & Psych Wards w/ Stephanie West (Steph interviews ME), March 12, 2017
30. Dermatillomania (Skin Picking Disorder) w/ Leanne Inuarak-Dall, April 7, 2017
31. Perfectionism & People Pleasing w/ Grey Traynor, May 30, 2017
32. Vaginismus w/ Kelsey Germain, June 19, 2017
33. Relapsing on Crystal Meth w/ Bradford, July 12, 2017
34. Self-Harm & Depression w/ Tesla, July 27, 2017
35. Anal Sex & Sexualized Violence w/ Gillian Carleton, Aug 24, 2017
36. PTSD & Abusive Parents w/ Krystal P, Sept 7, 2017
37. Bipolar Psych Nurse w/ Anonymous, Sept 18, 2017
38. Trans, Depression + Journaling w/ Laura Jane Grace, Sept 30, 2017
39. Queer Threesomes + Non-Manogamy w/ Levi Chase, Oct 20, 2017
40. Childhood Emotional Neglect w/ Anonymous, Nov 27, 2017
41. BPD & Rehab w/ Anonymous, Feb 11, 2018
42. BFRBs w/ Haley O, Feb 26, 2018
43. BPD + Addiction w/ Anonymous, March 11, 2018
44. Dissociative Identity Disorder w/ Cher, March 25, 2018
45. Agender & Polyamory w/ Paul G, April 7, 2018
46. Bulimia w/ Janet Ford, April 14, 2018
47. Disordered Eating w/ Holly Lowery, April 18, 2017
48. Borderline Personality Disorder w/ Danika Ransome, April 29, 2017
48. OCD + Eating Disorders w/ Alli G, May 6, 2018
50. OCD + Treatment w/ Stuart Ralph, May 13, 2018
51. Racism + Heroin Addiction (Pt 1) w/ Anonymous, May 18, 2018
52. Recovery + Reclaiming The Self (Pt 2) w/ Anonymous, May 29, 2018
53. Depression + Writing as Therapy w/ Sabrina Benaim, June 10, 2018
54. Sex Work w/ Lady Lucia, June 17, 2018
55. Rape + Psychological Abuse w/ Lola, June 24, 2018
56. Underactive Thyroid Disease w/ Alice Sickface, June 29, 2018
57. Sober, Divorced and Gay in LA w/ Bradford, July 9, 2018
58. OCD + Anxiety + Depression w/ Kolina, July 27, 2018
59. Being a Witch! w/ Corinna, Aug 12, 2018
60. Life in Prison + BPD w/ Shayne Dyment, Aug 27, 2018
61. OCD + BFRB Treatment w/ Kimberley Quinlan, Sept 9, 2018
62. The Power of Vulnerability! w/ Tanille Geib, Sept 17, 2018
63. BPD + Recovery w/ Tilly Baker, Sept 22, 2018
64. Anorexia + Addiction (Pt 1) w/ Anonymous, Oct 3, 2018
65. Anorexia + Addiction (Pt 2) w/ Anonymous, Oct 14, 2018
66. Pure O w/ Nathalie Maragoni, Oct 29, 2018
67. She Was Raised in a Christian Cult (Pt 1) w/ Anonymous, Nov 11, 2018
68. She Was Raised in a Christian Cult (Pt2) w/ Anonymous, Nov 16, 2018
69. Drug-Induced Depersonalization w/ Anonymous (my high-school ex), Dec 2, 2018
70. Bulimia + Depression w/ Joey, Dec 9, 2018
71. Angry Dads + Radical Healing w/ Amber Nicole (my guru), Dec 23, 2018
72. HSP + Life After Prison (Pt 1) w/ Shayne Dyment, Dec 29, 2018
73. BPD + Life After Prison (Pt 2) w/ Shayne Dyment, Jan 5, 2019
74. Lyme Disease + Bipolar w/ Raul Odo, Jan 20, 2019
75. Spiritual Abuse w/ Josh Van Leeuwen, Feb 11, 2019
76. BPD + Father Trauma w/ John Penman, Feb 17, 2019
77. Body Focused Repetitive Behaviors w/ Aneela Kumar, March 11, 2019
78. Sexual Assault + Pure O w/ Anonymous, March 17, 2019
79. Intergenerational Trauma w/ Carl M, April 8, 2019
80. Childhood Emotional Neglect + BPD w/ Kelsey, May 4, 2019
81. Scary Parents + Boundaries (Pt 1) w/ Non Wels, May 19, 2019
82. Anorexia (Pt 2) w/ Non Wels, May 22, 2019
83. Sibling Suicide w/ Rhandi, June 14, 2019
84. MCAS + Chronic Illness w/ Anonymous, July 22, 2019
85. Disordered Eating + Trauma w/ Carey Niekrash, Aug 26, 2019
86. Purity Culture w/ Magnolia McKay, Oct 6, 2019
87. Compassion + Rage w/ Rain Dove, Nov 3, 2019
88. Reparenting, BPD + Boundaries w/ Tessa, Dec 2, 2019
89. Fear of Happiness w/ Anonymous, Jan 12, 2020
90. Self-Harm + Complex Trauma w/ Anonymous, April 1, 2020
91. The Good in People w/ Luke Ramsey, May 31, 2020
92. Bipolar Psych Nurse Returns w/ Anonymous (episode 37), June 23, 2020
93. Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD) w/ Nicole, July 30, 2020
94. Race, Racism + Fear of Failure (Pt 1) w/ Chayenne, Aug 10, 2020
95. Race, Racism + Fear of Failure (Pt 2) w/ Chayenne, Aug 20, 2020
96. Social Justice, Allyship + Reparenting w/ PEPAḴIYE Ashley Cooper, Aug 31, 2020
97. AEDP w/ Penny Fenske (my therapist), Sept 15, 2020
98. Anxiety + Chasing the Present w/ James Sebastiano Jr., Sept 29, 2020
99. Blackness & Mental Health w/ Alexis, Oct 20, 2020
100. Understanding Emotions w/ Hilary Jacobs Hendel, Nov 4, 2020
101. Autism w/ Tobias, Nov 19, 2020
102. Big Feelings & Autism w/ Nic, Dec 1, 2020
103. Masculinity, Privilege + Dads w/ Blair (my friend), Jan 19, 2021
104. Ask Me Anything w/ Tuna Melt, Feb 26, 2021
105. Unlearning Toxic Masculinity + Reconnecting With Authentic Self w/ Hillary L Mcbride, March 24, 2021
106. Masc, Trans + big FEELINGS w/ Anonymous, April 20, 2021
107. BIG feelings + the CYCLE of TRAUMA w/ Shayne Dyment, May 14, 2021
108. Feeling Triggered + Having Fun! w/ Ruth/Haha, May 31, 2021
109. Unlocking Your MEAT Prison? w/ Christina Jumper, June 14, 2021
110. Health Obsession & Depression! w/ Alex Benbow-Carter, June 29, 2021
111. Making Meaningful Conflict w/ Tuna Melt (my partner), July 7, 2021
112. Psychedelics & Emotions w/ James W. Jesso, July 17, 2021
113. Gaslighting & Cyberbullying w/ Anonymous, Aug 6, 2021
114. PTSD & War w/ Greg Washington, Aug 31, 2021
115. Empathy, Jealousy & Believing in Self w/ Non Wels, 9 Oct 2021
116. Autism + Neurodiversity w/ Anonymous, 20 Oct 2021
117. Compassion, Love + TRUE Support w/ Amber Nicole (episode 71, my guru), 10 Nov 2021
118. Relapse into Self Harm w/ John Penman (episode 76), 2 Dec 2021
119. BPD & CPTSD w/ Dresden von Saturnalia, 31, Dec 2021
120. Making Peace with Death + Fabry Disease w/ Dayle Hendrix, 21 Jan 2022
120.1 Do you need SUPPORT? I can HOLD SPACE (follow up) (solo), 29 Jan 2022
121. Psychedelics, Spirituality + Taking in Love w/ Natalia, 1 March 2022
122. Creating More Connected Community w/ Dr. Robyn Henderson-Espinoza, 6 April 2022
123. Grief is Collective w/ Kitty Sipple, 6 May 2022
124. Endometriosis & Autism w/ Karrigan, 25 July 2022
125. Vaginismus & Healing PTSD w/ Maja, 30 July 2022
126. Being with the Pain & Joy of Life w/ Sone, 26 Aug 2022
127. Inner Peace & Learning the Hard Way w/ Shayne Dyment, 30 Sept 2022
128. The Self is a Community w/ Hillary L. McBride PhD, 22 Oct 2022
129. Get me a Bigger Shell, I'm GROWING! w/ Dayle Hendrix, 6 Dec 2022
130. Death, Grief & Learning SELF-LOVE w/ Sara, 13 April 2023
131. Life-Changing Support Groups w/ The Spirit Fingers Collective, 13 June 2023
132. The FUNERAL of Feelin Weird! June 15, 2023