Everything I've ever done, I could have done better. It's a thought that drives me insane.
I NEED to get better.
Still thinking if there's any way I could bring Chaos Grimm back for new strips. I Kinda' miss the insanity. I loved most of what I was doing with the strip. There are just tweaks I'd like to make before trying anything new. Such as; sizing, colors and storytelling/scripting. I have to be careful not to throw out what worked along side what didn't because a lot of what I was doing worked although my recent musings might make you think otherwise. I did love creating Chaos and could have gone on doing it for the foreseeable future I just felt that as time went on my focus felt as if it was slipping further and further away instead of becoming more solidified as it should.
Structure and visuals. This could be awesome if I can just get it figured out.
Have you ever looked back over a lifetimes worth of worked and everything you looked at you realized that you could have done it better? It drives me insane wondering "what if?"
One thing I now for sure; I can't go back and re-do everything no more than I can go back and re-live my life. Still, it's an uneasy feeling thinking that throughout your entire life you got it 50% right and 50% wrong.
At least, when all is said and done, I can say I tried, right? I gave it my best. My best at the time anyway.
Or is that just a cop-out?
Looking back over old strips I'm realizing that I need not throw out the dishes with the dish water. Chaos doesn't need a re-do or a complete overhaul; I just need to concentrate on the tone and keeping the strip more focused going forward. I have to resist the urge to re-do things I've already done, thinking different is better. I do that. I do that a lot. It's a terrible waste of time and energy and I need to stop. I'm driving myself crazy.
I really am my own worst enemy. Seriously. Anyone have a Valium? Maybe a candy bar? I'm out of coffee. Does it show?