I just need to accept it
 I just need to accept it. That I am an unemployed and can live only for my mother's support. I'll have a short life and I'll not have a wife or children. If my mother dies - I die. When she'll pass - I'll die. But there is no point in thinking of that before it happens.
It doesn't matter if I have no job or if I'll spend all my life alone - I still can be happy. I just need to accept this, my destiny, my fate... and stop worry. I can do everything I want, I can watch and read whatever I want - it's good enough reason to be happy. I can create for myself, draw and write books, and it doesn't matter if nobody will ever see it. It makes me happy, it's all I need.
I'll just live, be a good man and please mom.