It's the fact that my life, and my art is being controlled by the thought of "why would anyone want to hear what I say?"
I have come to believe in myself that my words, my thoughts, and my art are unnecessary, unwanted, resented. And the truth of those thoughts is this: My words are necessary. My thoughts are wanted. My Art is Welcome.
I so often fall into self-sabotage and procrastination because "if I try and fail, what's the point?"
But To Fail is To Learn.
To try and fail is to learn and grow.
If I never try, I will never gain, I will never speak, I will never bloom.
I want to gain. I want to grow. I want to bloom.
I will speak. People will listen. People want to listen. And those who don't want to listen will leave, and that is okay.
I won't be alone.