I can't sing.
Every early attempt to learn an instrument was met with frustration.
I became interested in making music when i first got in contact with the demoscene. I quickly realized it was an integral part of the demo making process and i struggled to find musicians that would do the kind of vibes i wanted to express.
So i started messing around with tracker software. First with Scream Tracker 3 and then later Impulse Tracker 2. By some weird reason Fast Tracker 2 was harder to load up, so i stuck with Impulse Tracker through the MS-DOS days.
Later i found Jeskola Buzz and the world of VSTs, i tried modplug tracker, renoise, plogue bidule, fruity loops, reason, etc. But i always ended up going back to Jeskola Buzz, coupled with different Native Instruments VSTs (Absynth, Reaktor, FM8).
I released my first EPs in 1998 / 1999, i didn't know what style they fell into (years later i would learn they should be coined illbient or psychedelic ambient). I played my tracks to a few local friends and family members, and every single one of them asked me why i didn't make actual music instead.
For me, making music was largely a catharsis for my depression and self-introspection. I didn't realize this at the time.
Using soulseek and napster i spent a large amount of time discovering new music, mostly different types of electronic and all sorts of experimental niche genres.
Through this journey i discovered some genres that were closer to what i wanted to express. Eventually i renounced to any sort of drums or leading melodies in my tracks. My sounds became more about weaving textures and building tension.
You can find my discography on discogs, most of my releases are online free for download.
In 2000 we had a pirate web radio broadcasting 24/7 where we played random stuff and invited people in to DJ and play live sets. It was called Enough Radio.
In 2001 Enough Radio died, we now had Enough Records in it's place, a netlabel where we released tracks free for download. Some of the other founders went innactive, i was left kept managing the label.
I developed my own style abusing certain glitches of specific buzz machines. When i got bored from that, i tried to pair it with different styles, sampling movies or documentaries and sometimes do remix collaborations with other artists. Through the years my sounds have been labelled as ambient, dark ambient, drone, noise, glitch, industrial, psychedelic, idm, experimental, field recordings, acousmatic.
Here are a few links to some of my favorite landmark releases:
I also played live concerts in multiple places across Portugal, Finland and even at a noise festival in Latvia. Eventually my trusty macbookpro broke down and i stopped doing live gigs.
Lately i been gathering new material for some new albums again and also rebuilding a live set, with new technology to allow for more audience interactivity.
On the past 6 months i did a few short performances using this new technology, i call it Assisted Performer. Here is a video of the version presented at the Demobit demoparty in Slovakia:
So now i'm trying to make new sounds, atleast 1 new track a week, and to finish preparing a more robust and portable liveset that will allow me to present my music at random festivals and events again.