Somewhere I think after the middle of February? I have memory problems with keeping time but I'd say sometime around that, I had a heavy falling out. I have the usual mental illnesses problems but for a long time straight I remember contemplating suicide very vividly, getting tools to hurt myself, I could barely crawl out of bed and etc, and I was near finals in public college so I was getting overloaded with assignments and was having difficulty finishing them which was stressing me out even more.
I went on break after the end of February, but since that and for the whole duration of March, I'm stuck in a place that's even worse for my mental health and it's led to me basically I'd say acting like I don't exist or am really alive, so that being around my abusers and being mistreated doesn't hurt as much as it would. I've been trying to draw but it's really hard to get motivated to do what I have to do, specially because I want to get into the loop of posting regularly on both patreon, tumblr, twitter, deviantart and I need to officially open commissions. On top of that, since I'm not at my place I'm stuck with with a shitty laptop so I don't have most of the software I'd wanna use.
Basically my holidays are being wasted suffering and I'm being forced to stay because of money, and it's affecting this patreon. I thought I should warn this situation will basically either stay the same or get worse as March goes by. My classes return around the end of this month and hopefully when it comes to that my routine will be readjusted, I'll be looking for a lawyer to begin the court process for changing my name legally as well as being able to get transition via the public system if possible, and hopefully I'll be able to draw full force almost because my classes will be still in the beggining and I won't be overloaded with stuff.
I'll try to leave more notes to myself so I produce something of worth, but thank you for patience and bearing with my slow bad pace. I know how important money is and I wanna make your support worth it.