These are my Momentos, short personal diary entries I write daily – since 2013 – and publish twice a month. Patrons see the newest batch a few days before everyone else.
Today was Monday, but we made it our Sunday. Took the rental car up into the hills again, through the national park. Almost had the place to ourselves, except for the mosquitoes. Ended it with a sunset overlooking an old city on UNESCO's list.
Got pulled over. The cop's English is a million times better than my Georgian but I'm still struggling to understand the issue. He has me tail him back around the block and shows how I went straight when I should have turned right, then lets me off with a friendly warning.
Loved Blindboy's take on Black Lives Matter. People were asking for his thoughts on it, and he replied that his thoughts don't matter much, that we white people should be primarily listening to black people's thoughts on it and amplifying their voices.
Deep work this week trying to map out the different types of online businesses. There were 9 in my old framework, but I knew that was lacking. The new framework has 14 types. Needs much more testing and refinement before I push publish.
I was worried the pandemic might derail my business but so far it's continued to grow. Might feel some trickle-down effects later, but I'm cautiously optimistic that I've achieved escape velocity. There's a momentum to it now. I just need to keep shoveling coal on the fire.
"I don't know if this is the worst or best time to read it." That's what a friend wrote me a couple of weeks ago, when I told him I'd started into Nineteen Eighty-Four. Finished it last night. In hindsight, was it the worst or best time to read it? I doublethink both.
It's kind of like I'm running for mayor, trying to do it legit, but my main competitor is buying votes to pull ahead. I report him to the authorities, and that somehow means I'm out of line and asking for trouble. Apparently cheating is okay, but reporting it is not.
Gay Hendricks wrote about the Upper Limit Problem. That's when things are going so well that you subconsciously sabotage yourself and return to a lower level you feel more comfortable with, more deserving of. Caught myself at that this morning, before it was too late.
There's great value in knowing what state of mind you're in. A couple of times recently I recognized that I wasn't open to hearing or discussing a particular thing at a particular moment. I was able to communicate that clearly and we moved on, no drama.
Ray Dalio has me convinced that if you study enough history, everything that happens can be recognized as "another one of those." History has seen many pandemics, recessions, wars, empires come and go. Unfortunately, we're slow to learn the lessons they teach us.
I'm on track for my first ever month earning $10k. In one sense it's very fulfilling, seeing all the hard work paying off. In another sense, I feel like the same person I did a year ago when I was only earning $1k. And I still have the odd day like today where everything feels ugh.
A bit stuck with this framework now. Shared it with my private group, didn't get much feedback. That might mean it's not helpful, or it might mean it's the wrong format. A quick explainer video would probably be better than a 22-page Google Doc.
Sometimes I just need to sit down and write it all out, brainstorm a bit, think through the options. I think better when I write. Got a lot of clarity spending an hour at that today. Weird how we can be resistant to the things that help the most.
Turns out the new park nearby that we like so much was the site of a flash flood five years ago. Killed 23 people and a bunch of animals. There's photos of locals rounding up a hippo that escaped from the zoo. Makes a place more significant, knowing the history.
Signed up Kawehi's Patreon last night. Saw her live years ago in New Orleans, suddenly came back up on my YouTube feed. She's still doing her thing, making art her own way. Kept me in the moment checking her latest. For that, I'll happily buy her a big slice of pizza each month.