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I have just not felt inspired to write a post this week. Lots of things are going on, of course. I've filled, planned, and launched the mentorship program I talked about last week (which is a HUGE step in my company, towards having a sustainable advanced training that creates its own value). I'm working out the last details for announcing the Austin Circling Course beginning this June. Our next Authentic Leadership and Facilitation Training is at the end of January; I'm in San Francisco currently acting as course supervisor and source team lead for the Art of Circling; I'm about to start Circling Europe's SAS training in New York in a couple weeks. Life's as it always is, in my world. Full to the brim. On a learning edge. My questions this month have been, "How do I create an evolutionary, self-managing, self-empowering organization?" and, "How do I be a girlfriend?" Most of all, I've been recognizing a deep well of emotion around A) The amount of travel I'm beginning with this trip (for the next 7 months, I'll be gone from Austin at least half of almost every month), and B) The person I am, as distinct from who I am expected (or expect myself) to be. A) I'm scared to enter into this much travel. The questions that come up are, "Will I be able to maintain any balance - around self-care, working out, friendships, free time?" and "What will this do to my relationship and my friendships?" B) The more true I am to who I am, the more intensity I seem to be able to balance. All counted, I am in communication with hundreds of people right now, on tens of projects. I feel competent (enough) in all of those interactions. A year ago, I was being trained in circling; now, I can walk into a circling course and give accurate feedback on how the course could be re-formulated for greater affect. The rate of growth that I'm experiencing is dizzying...and, I don't quite know how to show up around other people with it. Here, in San Francisco, people I've never met know my name and what I do. I fear to tell people my age because I don't want to see the look on their face - the moment of shock, the feeling of "What kind of being am I, and why is it different?" The more true I am to who I am, the more different I seem to become than others, and the more alone I feel. It's scary giving feedback to people twice my age, with ten times the experience. It's confusing trying to explain the network of things I do. And I'm always questioning - "Am I really different, or do I just pretend to be?" Am I really more productive and perceptive, or do I just make more noise about the things I do? I want to explain this all without sounding like a victim or a narcissist. But, I suppose I can't have control over what you think of me! I just want you to know me. Anyways. No upcoming project details this week, so I'm attaching an as-yet-unreleased re-designed Games Manual, courtesy of the absolutely fantastic Scott Gregory. Enjoy! Love, Sara
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