Making small entries helped me feel better about being sick. Knowing that I was still making art every day, even if it was only something small, made me feel hopeful that even though my health wasn’t the best, I could still do something.
Even though some individual entries aren’t what I want them to be, I think this project as a whole is still strong and easily one of the best things I’ve made in my life. It shows a complex picture of my life, frequently focusing on things like illness and work, but still managing not to reduce my life to those things.
My life isn’t the most interesting. I don’t travel or go on adventures. I mostly stay in my apartment and do my job. But there’s a lot of happiness that can be found in a simple ordinary life. This month, I’ve had many moments of hope and happiness such as having a day that was better than the previous one, watching a TV show I enjoyed, drinking coffee, remembering some of my favorite moments, working on my art, and seeing my financial situation slowly improve. Individually, those moments may seem small, but they add up to form a lot of happiness.
Ideally, next month I want my health to be good enough that I can go back to drawing more complex entries. I want to mention small jokes that my friends said. I want to share cool things I saw or read. I want to experiment with colors and drawing techniques. But realistically, I’ll do the best I can do depending on what my health allows. No matter what, I promise I’ll always do my best.