Secondhand Stigma.
 
 

Black blood courses like a current, searching each mean for an end,
Digging up every pathogen, and leaving me to face my old demons,
My crippled mind has been infected; It has left my brain to slowly rot,
These brittle bones are burdened by the weight of my own thoughts.
My lungs are filled with fatigue, and I’m sinking to the bottom of the sea,
Without you near me, I have learned that it has become harder to breathe.

I must have lost my past self such a long, long time ago,
Left alone in a box that time buried beneath the crossroads,
This young and malicious man, he and I, we share the same face,
I would recognize him anywhere, but I wish that he had never stayed.
My empty silhouette has become nothing more than a stranger to me.
He is who I had once been, and he is who I find myself pretending to be.

When I was young; these decaying lungs were encased in innocence,
And now I can’t seem to help but choke upon the growing pestilence,
Black blood intoxicates my veins, another sinner born from the saint.
I was born complete, but I’ve lost the majority of myself along the way,
Severed mind; a splintered life, are only a few words that describe me.

The water had never cleansed me or alleviated my venomous mind,
I will have to bleed this pesticide out, until these narrow veins run dry,
I will salt these burning wounds, to preserve what is left of yours truly,
Let the vultures scavenge my body, but promise to leave my heart be,
For the ghost of my youth’s purity haunt these gray, timeworn arteries.

From pain to purpose; the shame colors my face a different shade,
Secondhand stigma; I have set fire to every bridge I built in your name.
I must have lost my past self such a long, long time ago,
Left in a box that time had buried beneath the crossroads,
This young and malicious man, he and I, we share the same face,
I would recognize him anywhere, but I wish that he had never stayed.
From pain to purpose; the shame colors my face a different shade,
Secondhand stigma; I have set fire to every bridge I built in your name.