An update from MEM (& art in progress)
Cycling up the ‪#‎writing‬ urges again, because my clear periods have been *so* clear, at least until I descend back into a bacterial ‪#‎die‬-off fog. This shit is coming together in really amazing ways, in such a short amount of time. There are so many signs that we're on the right track. My body is responding and my ‪#‎energy‬ is increasing, my clarity and brain function is improving, and the effects of the healthy ‪#‎fats‬ and food supplements are... enormous. We don't have much more concrete information than we had a few days ago, but we have a lot of promising possibilities based on my symptom tracking. Hoo boy. The thing I need to remember is that I can express myself and *not* edit whenever I need to not edit. (That's the thing that still stops me the most often, in writing publicly.) I'm reminding myself of these things again, and I'm spending more time in my little soul-searching ‪#‎meditation‬ alcove in the bedroom, and I'm able to read more and more as the days pass because -- glory! -- my brain is here, and participating. Such a wonderful feeling, to have that connection, to be able to understand and communicate. I have made several partial inroads on ‪#‎art‬ projects, but most of them haven't gotten finished. In good time, I get it. The metacosm proceeds as it will. I am skinny and bony and you can almost see my insides, I'm that pasty and transparent. My hair is scraggly and wild. I wobble on my feet a bit, some times more than others. My house and my finances are glorious wrecks that illustrate the impact of ‪#‎chronicillness‬ on a two-person team. I am finally able to eat regularly and reliably, because people who love me have helped me find food my body won't reject -- and because Martin Whitmore has been spending most of the day making ‪#‎bonebroth‬, several times a week, and has run himself dry doing it. I am trying to nurture and support him at all possible moments. When I am better, some massive vacation and public aplomb and significant windfall for him must be orchestrated. I will be healthy again one day in the future, and I will be there for him, and I will be there for you guys, too. You have all been here for me. We are connected in a way that is profound for me. Whatever you contributed, whatever little bit or big bit you brought into this adventure, you are carrying me out of sickness and towards ‪#‎health‬ and ‪#‎resilience‬. This is an amazing, amazing thing. I don't know what else to say about it, it is so big for me, me and my boniness and my ‪#‎contemplation‬ of ‪#‎death‬ and ‪#‎time‬ and ‪#‎pain‬ and ‪#‎disease‬. And ‪#‎humanness‬. And ‪#‎connectedness‬. And ‪#‎love‬. Love and ‪#‎gratitude‬ for all of you, big. Big, big, big. PS. Okay. Partial / in-progress art. Why not? :}
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