After playing The Beginner's Guide, I once again, just like so many times in the past, ask myself - why do I create?

And as usual, there's no answer. I create for attention, sure. But I have attention, I have people around me, I have people who care about me. Why do I continue? Is there something specific I want to say, but can't, despite continuing to try?

Since I can't really find an answer, probably not in this lifetime, I'll just show you a bunch of screenshots of my first few steps in making Half-Life maps.