You Gotta Start Somewhere
 
I am new to this and am still trying to decide on a format, so bear with me. Let me start by telling a little about myself. You may be asking yourself, "Who is this woman? Why do I care what she has to say?"  The answer is simple. I am a mom. I feel like I have something to say, and no one ever wants to listen and no one really understands. I feel lonely alot, even though I have a house full of loud, silly kids. It can be overwhelming at times.  Some of my posts may not make any sense. They may rant about things, you may see posts where I am really happy, but you will also see when I am depressed.  A little background on me..

As a child, I was in and out of mental health facilities. Bipolar wasn't really diagnosed back then. I had days that I was severely depressed and couldn't do anything but sit in my room and cry, and other days that I had all the energy and could conquer the world. I was angry a lot and didn't understand it. As I got older, I began to write. I wrote a lot of poetry. I even had a few of them published. It was my release. I could say anything and be anyone through my writing. Unfortunately, my parents and school teachers and counselors  saw my writing as a cry for help. Maybe it was. Whatever it was, it made me feel better.  They tried medicating me, for many years, it was medicine after medicine..... None of them really helping at all. Anyway, I guess that is enough for tonight, I have to tend to all the kids and get them into bed. I will be back tomorrow to start this crazy journey. Thanks for listening!