hi! i'm sui (pronounced sway, spelled lowercase always, pronouns: they/them/theirs).

i'm a disabled nonbinary queer diasporic shanghainese chinese antiheroine. (that's a lot of adjectives, i know.)

trigger warning: suicide | abuse | rape
(these three trigger warnings apply to a lot of my work, fyi)

i'm a survivor of severe abuse & rape by multiple abusers. i suffer from severe complex PTSD, a combination of ailments that bleed into a lot of other illnesses that together make staying and being alive really difficult for me. i've spent years bedridden because of my PTSD. yep. i've spent years experiencing daily suicidality, even while in treatment (therapy and medication).

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currently, i sometimes make stuff when i have the capacity, but i do not believe that my output (or lack thereof) within an inherently unjust system should determine whether i deserve food and shelter, and for my emotional, physical, and mental needs to be met. most of the projects i've made (writing, bots, games, &c.) are free and accessible to everyone, regardless of race, creed, class, &c.

ableist anti-LGBTQIAP2S+ capitalist imperialist white supremacist cisheteropatriarchy, abuse and rape culture, along with my complex PTSD + chronic illnesses + disabilities, fucks me over every day. please pledge to support me so i can survive (and, hopefully, one day thrive) as a marginalised disabled qtpoc under capitalism!✨

i'm so grateful for your support! 💙

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if you're curious what i'm up to when i have the capacity to work on stuff...

follow me on twitter @knife_emoji_irl! 🌊
i make twitter bots! 👾, often centered around self-care, mental health, emoji, feminism, and leftism!

i manage, edit, and write articles for ANTIHEROINE.co 📰, a magazine created to destroy ableist white supremacist cisheteropatriarchy✨
🔪 support us here! 🔪

i speak things. and scream. i wouldn't call it slam or spoken word, but i do perform. my artist name for my vocal work/band is WHITE/MALE. lol.

i share photography & art here.

i have a fb page.

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"Your work is very human. And by that I mean it is honest and humble. It grabs me."
— Kelsey Bulkin, singer/songwriter of MADE IN HEIGHTS

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if you'd like to help out extra: make one-shot donations here✨
(outside of the U.S.? donate here)✨