海水仙✨hai shui-xian (fka sui sea) is creating ✨ neurochemicals ✨ activism ✨ art ✨ writing ✨ a better world ✨
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hi! i'm 海水仙✨hai shui-xian, and my pronouns are they/them/theirs.

i'm a disabled nonbinary queer diasporic shanghainese chinese antiheroine. (that's a lot of adjectives, i know.)

trigger warning: suicide | abuse | rape
(these three trigger warnings apply to a lot of my work, fyi)

i'm a survivor of severe abuse & rape by multiple abusers. i suffer from severe complex PTSD, a combination of ailments that bleed into a lot of other illnesses that together make staying and being alive really difficult for me. i've spent years bedridden because of my PTSD. yep. i've spent years experiencing daily suicidality, even while in treatment (therapy and medication).

/ / /

currently, i sometimes make stuff when i have the capacity, but i do not believe that my output (or lack thereof) within an inherently unjust system should determine whether i deserve food and shelter, and for my emotional, physical, and mental needs to be met. most of the projects i've made (writing, bots, games, &c.) are free and accessible to everyone, regardless of race, creed, class, &c.

ableist anti-LGBTQIAP2S+ capitalist imperialist white supremacist cisheteropatriarchy, abuse and rape culture, along with my complex PTSD/chronic illnesses/disabilities, fuck me over every day. please pledge to support me so i can survive (and, hopefully, one day thrive) as a marginalised disabled qtpoc under capitalism!✨

by pledging to me, you are supporting a disabled queer & trans creator of colour who is doing their best to make the world a better place!✨💙

i'm so grateful for your support! 💙

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if you're curious what i'm up to when i have the capacity to work on stuff...

i manage, edit, and write articles for ANTIHEROINE.co 📰, a magazine created to destroy ableist white supremacist cisheteropatriarchy✨
🔪 support us here! 🔪

i speak things. and scream. i wouldn't call it slam or spoken word, but i do perform.
my artist name for my vocal work/band is WHITE/MALE. lol.

i share photography & art here.

i have a fb page.


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"Your work is very human. And by that I mean it is honest and humble. It grabs me."
— Kelsey Bulkin, singer/songwriter of MADE IN HEIGHTS

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if you'd like to help out extra: make one-shot donations here
(outside of the U.S.? donate here)
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food is important! with this tier, you're making sure i can buy some groceries, less patreon fees!
✨good luck✨
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you get good vibes from the universe for pledging this much<3
✨keep me alive for one month✨
$3,500 or more per month
wow!!!!!! thank you so much!!!!! i will use excess income to help support other QTPOC!!!
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what it says on the can. no rewards.
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what it says on the can. no rewards.
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cis | het | white | male guilt
$10,000 or more per month
any of the above adjectives. what it says on the can. no rewards.
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you get DOUBLE the good vibes from the universe for pledging this much<3
✨✨✨help me support other QTPOC!!!✨✨✨
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at this level, i'll be able to cover my own living expenses and also give back to the community!!! i will use excess income to help support other QTPOC!!!
keep me alive for one year
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9% complete
basic cost of living! rent + food + mental healthcare + physical healthcare + bills + self-care + safety + transportation. i'll be able to live comfortably and i will be so grateful to all of you!!!
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hi! i'm 海水仙✨hai shui-xian, and my pronouns are they/them/theirs.

i'm a disabled nonbinary queer diasporic shanghainese chinese antiheroine. (that's a lot of adjectives, i know.)

trigger warning: suicide | abuse | rape
(these three trigger warnings apply to a lot of my work, fyi)

i'm a survivor of severe abuse & rape by multiple abusers. i suffer from severe complex PTSD, a combination of ailments that bleed into a lot of other illnesses that together make staying and being alive really difficult for me. i've spent years bedridden because of my PTSD. yep. i've spent years experiencing daily suicidality, even while in treatment (therapy and medication).

/ / /

currently, i sometimes make stuff when i have the capacity, but i do not believe that my output (or lack thereof) within an inherently unjust system should determine whether i deserve food and shelter, and for my emotional, physical, and mental needs to be met. most of the projects i've made (writing, bots, games, &c.) are free and accessible to everyone, regardless of race, creed, class, &c.

ableist anti-LGBTQIAP2S+ capitalist imperialist white supremacist cisheteropatriarchy, abuse and rape culture, along with my complex PTSD/chronic illnesses/disabilities, fuck me over every day. please pledge to support me so i can survive (and, hopefully, one day thrive) as a marginalised disabled qtpoc under capitalism!✨

by pledging to me, you are supporting a disabled queer & trans creator of colour who is doing their best to make the world a better place!✨💙

i'm so grateful for your support! 💙

☆ ☆ ☆

if you're curious what i'm up to when i have the capacity to work on stuff...

i manage, edit, and write articles for ANTIHEROINE.co 📰, a magazine created to destroy ableist white supremacist cisheteropatriarchy✨
🔪 support us here! 🔪

i speak things. and scream. i wouldn't call it slam or spoken word, but i do perform.
my artist name for my vocal work/band is WHITE/MALE. lol.

i share photography & art here.

i have a fb page.


☆ ☆ ☆

"Your work is very human. And by that I mean it is honest and humble. It grabs me."
— Kelsey Bulkin, singer/songwriter of MADE IN HEIGHTS

☆ ☆ ☆

if you'd like to help out extra: make one-shot donations here
(outside of the U.S.? donate here)

Recent posts by 海水仙✨hai shui-xian (fka sui sea)

Rewards
🌊keep me alive for one second🌊
$1 or more per month
wow, you're ambitious! with this tier you get the warm and fuzzy knowledge that you have kept me alive for one second. you go, friend!
🍞🥑buy me $44 worth of groceries🥑🍞
$50 or more per month
food is important! with this tier, you're making sure i can buy some groceries, less patreon fees!
✨good luck✨
$1,111 or more per month
you get good vibes from the universe for pledging this much<3
✨keep me alive for one month✨
$3,500 or more per month
wow!!!!!! thank you so much!!!!! i will use excess income to help support other QTPOC!!!
white guilt
$5,000 or more per month
what it says on the can. no rewards.
cis guilt
$5,000 or more per month
what it says on the can. no rewards.
male guilt
$5,000 or more per month
what it says on the can. no rewards.
het guilt
$5,000 or more per month
what it says on the can. no rewards.
cis | het | white | male guilt
$10,000 or more per month
any of the above adjectives. what it says on the can. no rewards.
✨✨double good luck✨✨
$11,111 or more per month
you get DOUBLE the good vibes from the universe for pledging this much<3
✨✨✨help me support other QTPOC!!!✨✨✨
$15,000 or more per month
at this level, i'll be able to cover my own living expenses and also give back to the community!!! i will use excess income to help support other QTPOC!!!
keep me alive for one year
$111,111 or more per month