What is Patreon? Patreon is a way for you to "name your price" on a monthly subscription. It can be canceled at any time. I recommend you read the FAQ page if you are unfamiliar with this website. This is a method for people wanting to support the stream monthly with more than a Twitch subscription.
Changes made in June 2017:
June 2017 was my last month doing monthly cosplays for Patreon (and in general). Here is an exert from the blog post I wrote explaining why I made this decision.
You would think that I would’ve learned by now the dangers of turning something you love in to an additional avenue for income… it slowly becomes… something you no longer love. Maybe not the case for everyone, but definitely the case for me. You know this. I know this. Assigning a number to my self worth and confidence as a broadcaster and cosplayer has been incredibly detrimental to my psyche. If the total for my Patreon raised, I felt on top of the world. If the total for my Patreon pledges dropped, I felt lower than low. Suddenly I was questioning ridiculous things like…
“Am I pretty enough to be doing this?”
“Maybe if I lost more weight more people would pledge.”
“Did I not spend enough on the custom outfit?”
“Was my quality not good enough?”
Those are things I don’t like to question. I don’t like to question myself in general and insecure is really not a good color on me. I’m a perfectionist when I set my mind to something and I wanted to provide the best quality images, the highest quality prints and largest size of prints that made the Patreon worth it for you AND I. As the months passed my insecurities grew into an ugly beast constantly looming over my head to the point where I was checking my Patreon page several times a day to see if anyone pledged or removed their pledge. The dark entity consumed my thoughts and changed how I felt about myself inside and out.
Patreon “cosplaying” is the wild, wild west of income. The more popular it becomes, the lower the prices people are asking for prints and the more clothes are coming off to build appeal. That’s just not me. I’m not going to provide you with a picture I took with my iPhone 7 Plus, charge you ten dollars for it, and go get it printed out at Walgreens. I’m not going to strip down to my bra, panties, or just go full nude for your money. It’s. Just. Not. Me. I, in no way, have anything against females who do that (make your money, girls!). It’s just not something I’m comfortable with and I always knew my Patreon would never go there. In my mind if I was willing to strip down in front of a camera for money, I would’ve gone in to the cam girl business and be making a whole hell of a lot more money than I am now on Twitch. Obviously that’s a huge leap from still photos to live cam, but that was always my philosophy in terms of if I were to do that myself.
Lastly, and most importantly, my Patreon is not something I want looming over my career in any industry. This is also a reason I never went full lewd for photoshoots. Years ago I told everyone that Twitch wasn’t the last stop for my career. To be really blunt, it shouldn’t be ANYONE’S last stop (seriously, Twitch won’t be forever, so don’t be naive… plan ahead, broadcasters). The older I get and the more I plan for my future, the more careful I become with what I set out as my public image. Cosplaying is not a bad thing, cosplaying is beautiful and should be rejoiced and appreciated. Cosplaying, to me, is a form of art… a skill that is crafted and honed and constantly being tinkered with and worked on. The closer I get to edging myself into a full blown career, the further I want to distance myself from anything that could be considered a point of contention in the hiring process. I already have to battle with the username “Unholytemptress” on a frequent basis, constantly defending the actions of a 13-year-old me with her first XBOX Live account. I don’t like things looming over me or hindering me in any way and when I start to feel like they’re getting in the way, that’s when I have to make the choice of, “is this worth it?” or not. Do we live in a world where you looking “too sexy” in a picture can stop you from having a job? Yes. If you answered anything but yes, you’re lying to yourself or naive about how the professional world works.
While society has come leaps and bounds about women in the working class, your public image, no matter your gender, still has a great impact on what doors will open for you. This is me simply planning ahead, always looking forward, and trying to lay the foundation for a beautiful career in my future. I greatly appreciate everyone who enjoyed and supported me through the Patreon by pledging for digital and physical prints. I had such a blast becoming some of my all time favorite video game and cartoon characters and I hope that you had a blast seeing me go through the process or even enjoying the final products.