Dear friends As you know I broke my hand recently (good news it's healing well and I should be playing again in a few months), so it's kinda hard for me to write any new music at the moment! I decided on this video as this month's creation as it is one of the most special moments I've experienced in my musical life. Just before I broke my hand I began singing with my new friend Yana and a lovely person recorded us singing at this show. When we sing together it feels like puzzle pieces falling into place, like the calm after the storm, like waking up on my birthday morning, like cuddling in front of a fire when the rain is pounding the roof. Haha, ok, enough rambling, but she's a great friend and I'm honoured to sing with her is what I'm trying to say. Hope it's ok that I share this as this month's creation, and knowing you all as I do I'm sure you're gonna love it :) Big big biiiiiiiig hugs to all of you beautiful people. Love Nate PS: Please share this with all your friends on twitter, facebook, etc by clicking the share buttons :).

Dear nateives I didn't know this song was going to come out of me. I sat in my room and began playing and suddenly I was singing about a woman I met in 2011 in South Africa. She was a big part of my life journey, helping me to heal some of my personal traumas, but I lacked compassion in the way I interacted with her and it ended really badly. I messed up and kept trying to fix it, but it was already too late. It finally ended when I went to a party I knew she was going to be at and when I saw how upset she was that I was there, I tried to be the 'nice guy'. I walked up and said I'd leave if it was causing problems. She punched me in the face and left. It took me a really long time to realise that I was the one in the wrong. I had pushed her so far past her boundaries that she reacted with violence to defend herself. So, by me playing the 'nice guy' I was really being shitty. It was a big lesson to learn. Sometimes I've got to accept the things I cannot change. Anyway, I think of her often and how sad I am that in my own attempts to work this life out I've hurt other people along the way. This song is for her but it's also for anyone who has been hurt, or who has caused hurt. Forgiveness is the most precious gift we can give ourselves and others. Thank you for the incredible feedback I've already received from many of you, I so so so appreciate it! Settled on the name "Kept It Hid", I feel it holds many of the things this song means to me. I will say that I am incredibly proud of this recording, it carries so much passion and warmth. I've never managed to capture sound this good by myself before, so YAY! I thank you all for inspiring me to dive ever deeper into myself and my art. Big gratitude! Much love to you all, thank you for being incredible! Hugs Nate PS: as this is an official, 'Creation', anyone who has not set their monthly 'cap' yet will be charged twice this month. If this happens, and you are not ok with it, please let me know and I'll refund you or make sure you don't get charged in the first place! FINALLY, for those who love lyrics, here they are: I knew you would be there In my pride I didn't care Thought with a smile I would make it right My busted lip is a testament to that night You defended yourself wisely From all the pride that lived in me And all I wish for lady Is to say that I'm sorry I'm sorry for the pain I caused you Sorry for the harm I did In my own own hurt I hurt everyone Yes I was hurting too though I kept it hid I was hurting too though I kept it hid Do not hide yourself again Just 'cos I made those mistakes You taught me how to play again Finding solace in the love that we made I'm sorry for the pain I caused you Sorry for the harm I did In my own own hurt I hurt everyone Yes I was hurting too though I kept it hid I was hurting too though I kept it hid PPS: all Fresh Green Nateives ($5) and up will be getting a download of this too in another post, so watch out for that one :D PPPS: Ok, this is getting ridiculous, haha: but, the video is currently 'unlisted', which means only people with a link can see it. Feel free to share it to your heart's content, you have the POWER! I'll only be making it publicly available in a few days, so you all have a chance to enjoy it first...Cos you are AWESOME :D :P