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Live Through This: Carlton Davis
September 8, 2014 14:47:01
Carlton Davis
livethroughthis.org
http://livethroughthis.org/carlton-davis/
I can't quite believe I've lived this long, to be honest with you. I didn't think I was gonna make it past 30, or after that, maybe 40. It's a miracle that I'm still here. It really is.
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Live Through This: Carlton Davis

Carlton Davis is an artist and writer (formerly an architect) in Los Angeles, CA. He was 69 when I interviewed him on April 13, 2014, giving him the distinction of being the oldest participant in LTT to date. He is featured in Of Two Minds, a documentary by award-winning filmmakers Doug Blush and Lisa Klein (who are currently hard at work on The S Word, a documentary on suicide). Thanks go out to my wonderful friends Sarah Steck and Eric Monacelli for allowing me to use their home for interviews, and to Kiera and Josh of Jakfoto Films (http://jakfoto.com) for donating their time and resources to filming said interviews.

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September 8, 2014 14:47:01

Live Through This: Michael Alig
September 11, 2014 17:28:54
Michael Alig
livethroughthis.org
http://livethroughthis.org/michael-alig/
TRIGGER WARNING: Drug use, addiction, suicide attempts, discussion of methods My name is Michael Alig. I'm 48 and I don't really do anything right now. I used to do things. At one point, I helped s...
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Live Through This: Michael Alig

"My name is Michael Alig. I’m 48 and I don’t really do anything right now. I used to do things. At one point, I helped spearhead this youth movement called the Club Kids that gained notoriety in the 80’s and 90’s. Then I committed an awful crime and went to prison, and now I’m home. I’ve only been home for a week, so I don’t have a job yet..." Read more of Michael's story on the website.

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September 11, 2014 17:28:54

Live Through This: Zack Fraser
October 1, 2014 18:24:59
Zack Fraser
livethroughthis.org
http://livethroughthis.org/zack-fraser/
TRIGGER WARNING: childhood sexual abuse, self-injury, suicide attempt methods My mother died when I was very young, four-ish. A couple years thereafter, my male parental unit decided that I was goi...
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Live Through This: Zack Fraser

Zack Fraser is an epidemiologist and infectious disease researcher in Manchester, CT. He is a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and 40 years of self-injurious behavior. He was 55 when I interviewed him in Boston on April 5, 2014. His was one of the more difficult interviews I've done so far. Read his whole story on the LTT website.

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October 1, 2014 18:24:59

Live Through This: Lauren Kaminsky
October 31, 2014 19:04:39
Lauren Kaminsky
livethroughthis.org
http://livethroughthis.org/lauren-kaminsky/
TRIGGER WARNING: discussion of methods Through my teen years, I dealt with depression on and off. I didn't really recognize it as that, though-just a lot of mood swings and turbulence and supposedl...
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Live Through This: Lauren Kaminsky

Lauren Kaminsky is a behavioral therapist and teacher. She was 30 when I interviewed her in New York City on June 1, 2013. Read her story over on the LTT website.

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October 31, 2014 19:04:39

Live Through This: Anita Estrada
November 19, 2014 21:28:22
Anita Estrada
livethroughthis.org
http://livethroughthis.org/anita-estrada/
I really didn't realize it until recently, but I've kind of always been suicidal, even since I was a child. I never attempted suicide. I never planned anything, but I remember being like, 'Well, I ...
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Live Through This: Anita Estrada

Giving you guys a sneak peek on this one! Anita Estrada is a nursing assistant and student. She was 31 when I interviewed her in Washington, DC, on 6/23/13. Read more about her on the LTT website.

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November 19, 2014 21:28:22

Live Through This: Marie Lindsey
December 23, 2014 20:58:26
Marie Lindsey
livethroughthis.org
http://livethroughthis.org/marie-lindsey/
My story really started when I was a 12 year old and everything on my body was starting to develop. No one else was really developing, and it made me feel really uncomfortable 'cause now, all of a ...
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Live Through This: Marie Lindsey

Marie Lindsey is a teacher. She was 23 when I interviewed her in Takoma Park, MD, on 6/24/13. Read her story on the website at http://livethroughthis.org/marie-lindsey/

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December 23, 2014 20:58:26

Live Through This: Abel Ibarra
December 31, 2014 20:38:50
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Live Through This: Abel Ibarra

Abel Ibarra is a student at the University of Texas. I first met him on campus when I gave a keynote speech for their Suicide Prevention Week activities. He was 21 when I interviewed him in Austin, TX, on November 27, 2013. Read his story on the website at http://livethroughthis.org/abel-ibarra/

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December 31, 2014 20:38:50

Live Through This: Jennifer Haussler Garing
January 22, 2015 23:11:20
Jennifer Haussler Garing
livethroughthis.org
http://livethroughthis.org/jennifer-haussler-garing/
I tried to kill myself when I was 13 years old. I took some drugs and basically passed out. I woke up the next morning and no one had noticed. My parents didn't find out until I wrote the blog post...
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Live Through This: Jennifer Haussler Garing

Jennifer Haussler Garing is an epidemiologist in Austin, TX. She was 43 years old when I interviewed her on November 29, 2013. Read her story on the LTT website!

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January 22, 2015 23:11:20

Live Through This: Rene Severin
January 31, 2015 21:39:47
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Live Through This: Rene Severin

Rene Severin is welder, ironworker, and boilermaker in Brooklyn, NY. He was 21 when I interviewed him on November 2, 2014. Read more of his story on the LTT website at http://livethroughthis.org/rene-severin/

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January 31, 2015 21:39:47

Live Through This: Brenda Hughes
February 18, 2015 21:19:16
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Live Through This: Brenda Hughes

Brenda Hughes is a mom on a mission of love. She was 50 when I interviewed her in Austin, TX, on November 29, 2013. Read her story on the LTT website at http://livethroughthis.org/brenda-hughes/

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February 18, 2015 21:19:16

Live Through This: Jack Park
February 25, 2015 20:40:11
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Live Through This: Jack Park

Jack Park is a Korean international student at UPenn in Philadelphia, PA. He made waves last year when, after three of his fellow students died by suicide, he offered up his time (and his phone number) to anyone who needed to talk. He got calls from all around the country. He was 20 when I interviewed him in Brooklyn, NY, on March 29, 2014. Read his story on the website: http://livethroughthis.org/jack-park/

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February 25, 2015 20:40:11

Live Through This: Craig Miller
March 30, 2015 20:14:29
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Live Through This: Craig Miller

Craig Miller is an author, a suicide prevention advocate (we are regular co-conspirators), and a manager at an engineering company. You can purchase his memoir, This is How it Feels, via his website: http://thisishowitfeels.com. He was 38 when I interviewed him in Boston, MA, on April 6, 2014. Read his full story on the website:http://livethroughthis.org/craig-miller/

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March 30, 2015 20:14:29

Dustin Hill Thank you for sharing your story Craig. And thank you Des, for continuing to work on this project. <3

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Dese'Rae L. Stage <3<3<3

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Live Through This: Teresa Coy
March 31, 2015 18:46:20
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Live Through This: Teresa Coy

Teresa Coy is an administrator in Edgartown, MA. She was 51 when I interviewed her in Boston, MA, on November 16, 2013. Read her story on the website here: http://livethroughthis.org/teresa-coy/

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March 31, 2015 18:46:20

Live Through This: Samantha Nadler
April 28, 2015 20:55:50
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Live Through This: Samantha Nadler

I interviewed Samantha Nadler at the American Association of Suicidology's annual conference in Los Angeles on April 11, 2014. At the time, she was a MSSW student at the University of Tennessee, a supervisor at a crisis call center, and facilitator of a suicide loss survivor support group. She was 25. Read her story on the website at http://livethroughthis.org/samantha-nadler/.

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April 28, 2015 20:55:50

Dustin Hill Thank you to Samantha for sharing your story and lending your professional life to this cause. And thanks as always to Des for being amazing and keeping up with this project. <3

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Live Through This: Misha Kessler
April 30, 2015 18:50:01
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Live Through This: Misha Kessler

Misha Kessler is a young professional living in Washington, D.C. I photographed him at the American Association of Suicidology's (AAS) annual conference in Los Angeles on April 11, 2014 and interviewed him later via telephone. He was 23 years old at the time. Read his story on the LTT website at http://livethroughthis.org/misha-kessler/

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April 30, 2015 18:50:01

Live Through This: Kate Peoples
May 20, 2015 19:52:46
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Live Through This: Kate Peoples

Kate Peoples is a student and eating disorder awareness advocate in Austin, TX. She was 23 when I interviewed her on November 26, 2013. Read her story at http://livethroughthis.org/kate-peoples/

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May 20, 2015 19:52:46

Live Through This: Elvis Mella
May 30, 2015 06:12:52
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Live Through This: Elvis Mella

Elvis Mella is a systems engineer for an accounting firm in Miami, FL. We also went to high school together. He was 32 when I interviewed him on January 4, 2014.


Read his story at http://livethroughthis.org/elvis-mella/.

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May 30, 2015 06:12:52

Live Through This: Niomi Provins
June 3, 2015 03:58:33
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Live Through This: Niomi Provins

Niomi Provins is a student in Austin, TX. I photographed her on November 28, 2013 (Thanksgiving), and interviewed her later via telephone. She was 19 at the time.


Read Niomi's story on the website at http://livethroughthis.org/niomi-provins/

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June 3, 2015 03:58:33

Live Through This: Michael Skinner
June 9, 2015 19:02:53
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Live Through This: Michael Skinner

Michael Skinner is a musician and mental health advocate who lives in New Hampshire. He was 59 when I interviewed him in Boston on April 5, 2014.


Read his story here: http://livethroughthis.org/michael-skinner/

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June 9, 2015 19:02:53

Live Through This: David Pajo
August 19, 2015 20:24:27
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Live Through This: David Pajo

David Pajo is a New Jersey-based musician known for his work with bands like SlintYeah Yeah Yeahs, and Interpol. He was 46 when I interviewed him in New York City on March 11, 2015.


Read his story on the website at http://livethroughthis.org/david-pajo/

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August 19, 2015 20:24:27

Live Through This: Cecelia Markow
September 1, 2015 03:17:26
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Live Through This: Cecelia Markow

Cecilia Markow is a 19 year old musician and student from Austin, TX. I interviewed her in November 2013.


Once my internet connection gets fixed, her story will live at http://livethroughthis.org/cecelia-markow


In the meantime, you can see some of it on film (courtesy of the Mental Health Channel) here: http://mentalhealthchannel.tv/episode/live-through-this



If you’re feeling suicidal, please talk to somebody. You can reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. 


Thanks again to Whitney Rakich for transcribing Cissy's interview.

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September 1, 2015 03:17:26

Live Through This: Lyndee McKinley
September 29, 2015 18:15:47
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Live Through This: Lyndee McKinley

Lyndee McKinley is a foster parent and owner of a catering company. She was 23 when I interviewed her in Austin, TX, on November 26, 2013.


You can read her story on the website here.

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September 29, 2015 18:15:47

Live Through This: Alissa Orber
September 30, 2015 21:54:29
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Live Through This: Alissa Orber

Alissa Orber is a comedian in Los Angeles. She was 28 when I interviewed her in Brooklyn, NY, on March 10, 2014.


Here's a snippet from her interview:


Des: Do you address this kind of subject matter in your comedy?


Alissa: I don't, really. The thing is, sometimes it depends on the crowd. A lot of people get super uncomfortable when you talk about it... I feel like this is something that we have to deal with, [but] people don't really react favorably to it, so I don't address it that much. I do address my feelings of inadequacy in comedy. Basically, my comedy is me getting up there and talking about how awful I am, and hoping that people laugh at it, and it seems to have been going over pretty well so far.


Des: Does it make you feel better?


Alissa: Yeah!


Des: Tell me more about comedians and depression, or alcoholism, or suicide.


Alissa: Well, comedy... A sense of humor, in itself, is a defense mechanism. My defense mechanism is just more palatable than [some] other people's. It's something you can make money off of, honestly. I think, with a defense mechanism like that, I got it from feeling neglected as a child, being bullied. It's a defense mechanism that people who've not had it so well usually develop, and therefore they're already prone to depression. I think that's really a big part of it.


Also, I think you have to be smart to be funny, and people who are smart are usually miserable. I just read somewhere that people with higher IQs are generally pretty miserable. I get it. When you know what's going on, it's kind of depressing.


Luckily, I never developed any real addictions to anything, but that is common in comedy, as well—alcoholism, drug use. There's just that need to disconnect from how depressed you are.



You can read the rest of her story over on the website.

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September 30, 2015 21:54:29

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