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Live Through This: Marie Lindsey
December 23, 2014 20:58:26
Marie Lindsey
livethroughthis.org
http://livethroughthis.org/marie-lindsey/
My story really started when I was a 12 year old and everything on my body was starting to develop. No one else was really developing, and it made me feel really uncomfortable 'cause now, all of a ...
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Live Through This: Marie Lindsey

Marie Lindsey is a teacher. She was 23 when I interviewed her in Takoma Park, MD, on 6/24/13. Read her story on the website at http://livethroughthis.org/marie-lindsey/

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December 23, 2014 20:58:26

Live Through This: Abel Ibarra
December 31, 2014 20:38:50
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Live Through This: Abel Ibarra

Abel Ibarra is a student at the University of Texas. I first met him on campus when I gave a keynote speech for their Suicide Prevention Week activities. He was 21 when I interviewed him in Austin, TX, on November 27, 2013. Read his story on the website at http://livethroughthis.org/abel-ibarra/

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December 31, 2014 20:38:50

Live Through This: Jennifer Haussler Garing
January 22, 2015 23:11:20
Jennifer Haussler Garing
livethroughthis.org
http://livethroughthis.org/jennifer-haussler-garing/
I tried to kill myself when I was 13 years old. I took some drugs and basically passed out. I woke up the next morning and no one had noticed. My parents didn't find out until I wrote the blog post...
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Live Through This: Jennifer Haussler Garing

Jennifer Haussler Garing is an epidemiologist in Austin, TX. She was 43 years old when I interviewed her on November 29, 2013. Read her story on the LTT website!

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January 22, 2015 23:11:20

Live Through This: Rene Severin
January 31, 2015 21:39:47
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Live Through This: Rene Severin

Rene Severin is welder, ironworker, and boilermaker in Brooklyn, NY. He was 21 when I interviewed him on November 2, 2014. Read more of his story on the LTT website at http://livethroughthis.org/rene-severin/

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January 31, 2015 21:39:47

Live Through This: Brenda Hughes
February 18, 2015 21:19:16
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Live Through This: Brenda Hughes

Brenda Hughes is a mom on a mission of love. She was 50 when I interviewed her in Austin, TX, on November 29, 2013. Read her story on the LTT website at http://livethroughthis.org/brenda-hughes/

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February 18, 2015 21:19:16

Live Through This: Jack Park
February 25, 2015 20:40:11
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Live Through This: Jack Park

Jack Park is a Korean international student at UPenn in Philadelphia, PA. He made waves last year when, after three of his fellow students died by suicide, he offered up his time (and his phone number) to anyone who needed to talk. He got calls from all around the country. He was 20 when I interviewed him in Brooklyn, NY, on March 29, 2014. Read his story on the website: http://livethroughthis.org/jack-park/

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February 25, 2015 20:40:11

Live Through This: Craig Miller
March 30, 2015 20:14:29
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Live Through This: Craig Miller

Craig Miller is an author, a suicide prevention advocate (we are regular co-conspirators), and a manager at an engineering company. You can purchase his memoir, This is How it Feels, via his website: http://thisishowitfeels.com. He was 38 when I interviewed him in Boston, MA, on April 6, 2014. Read his full story on the website:http://livethroughthis.org/craig-miller/

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March 30, 2015 20:14:29

Dustin Hill Thank you for sharing your story Craig. And thank you Des, for continuing to work on this project. <3

March 30, 2015 20:44:52 · Reply

Dese'Rae L. Stage <3<3<3

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Live Through This: Teresa Coy
March 31, 2015 18:46:20
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Live Through This: Teresa Coy

Teresa Coy is an administrator in Edgartown, MA. She was 51 when I interviewed her in Boston, MA, on November 16, 2013. Read her story on the website here: http://livethroughthis.org/teresa-coy/

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March 31, 2015 18:46:20

Live Through This: Samantha Nadler
April 28, 2015 20:55:50
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Live Through This: Samantha Nadler

I interviewed Samantha Nadler at the American Association of Suicidology's annual conference in Los Angeles on April 11, 2014. At the time, she was a MSSW student at the University of Tennessee, a supervisor at a crisis call center, and facilitator of a suicide loss survivor support group. She was 25. Read her story on the website at http://livethroughthis.org/samantha-nadler/.

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April 28, 2015 20:55:50

Dustin Hill Thank you to Samantha for sharing your story and lending your professional life to this cause. And thanks as always to Des for being amazing and keeping up with this project. <3

April 28, 2015 22:08:36 · Reply

Live Through This: Misha Kessler
April 30, 2015 18:50:01
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Live Through This: Misha Kessler

Misha Kessler is a young professional living in Washington, D.C. I photographed him at the American Association of Suicidology's (AAS) annual conference in Los Angeles on April 11, 2014 and interviewed him later via telephone. He was 23 years old at the time. Read his story on the LTT website at http://livethroughthis.org/misha-kessler/

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April 30, 2015 18:50:01

Live Through This: Kate Peoples
May 20, 2015 19:52:46
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Live Through This: Kate Peoples

Kate Peoples is a student and eating disorder awareness advocate in Austin, TX. She was 23 when I interviewed her on November 26, 2013. Read her story at http://livethroughthis.org/kate-peoples/

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May 20, 2015 19:52:46

The Thing About Things
May 26, 2015 16:03:22
The Thing About Things, by Amanda Palmer
bandcamp.com
https://amandapalmer.bandcamp.com/track/the-thing-about-things
The Thing About Things by Amanda Palmer, released 26 May 2015
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The Thing About Things

HERE IT IS, THING NUMBER THREE. Patreon folks, you've been emailed the track. anybody else reading this, all info about where to get the track is below. here's the story. i wrote this song in August 2012, in the crack between the Kickstarter happening and Theatre Is Evil getting officially released into the world (that September). i was in upstate New York staying in a strange house near Bard College, shooting the video for "the bed song", and getting ready to go on tour. I don't remember why exactly I had the day off in the strange house, but I did, and this song popped into my head. I wrote it on paper and into my phone and then asked the guys at bard if I could borrow a room with a. piano when I got to work that day, and I found the chords. I had a show with neil a few days later, and I played it for the crowd on piano, and a few days (weeks?) later I was at some gig or party or another and really wanted to share it, but I was, for some reason, pianoless. so, more or less, on the spot, I found the chords on the ukulele (it put the song into a new key) and played a stripped down ukulele version. and i'll be damned if the ukulele version wasn't better. that was a first - basically the polar opposite of my experience of writing "the killing type", which was plucked out on ukulele in a hotel before I could finally manifest in onto piano, where it sounded, well, real. but something about this song just sounded better stripped down and strummed as a opposed to arpeggiated on a fancy piano, and that was that. this song is a true story. the bar - upstairs on the square - unfortunately closed about a year ago. and I never got to tell the bartender that he'd made his way into verse three. In a roundabout way, this song also really inspired the Patreon. when I played the early rough version of the song on piano at that gig at bard, somebody got a bootleg phone recording and sent it to me. I decided...what the fuck, I'll just throw it up on bandcamp. but with no magic infrastructure, it was hard to point to it, even as a special, random, weird thing. I found myself wishing I had a more "real" portal for releasing one-off Things when i had them. the thing about songs is that the artist or the machine can (attempt to) dictate their importance, their relevance. we've been doing it for years by the way we release shit, hide shit, order shit, bury shit, re-package and remix shit, and even the way we title shit. I think I'm kind of done trying to do that - at least for a while. so...just pretend *drum roll* *viral marketing campaign* *iphone commercial backdrop soundtrack* *massive radioplay* ....introducing amanda palmer's absolutely non-hit single THE THING ABOUT THINGS. if you love the song, share it with someone. that's the nicest thing you can do, ever. and if you want to become a patron and get these pieces of content emailed to you for as little as $1, please join us. it's fun here. and if you're a patron, thank you for making me possible. music & lyrics written by Amanda Palmer ukulele & vocals - Amanda Palmer recorded at Q Division in Somerville, Ma mixed at Mad Oak Studios in Allston, Ma engineered & mixed by Benny Grotto artwork by Famehouse produced by Amanda Palmer & Benny Grotto Available for free/paid download at Amandapalmer.net: http://shop.amandapalmer.net/collections/digital Bandcamp: https://amandapalmer.bandcamp.com/track/the-thing-about-things And available for purchase shortly on iTunes and all major digital distributors. LYRICS: THE THING ABOUT THINGS i’ve loaned a lot of things to a lot of friends like dresses and records and books and some of the time i never see them again and in a weird way i think that it works because the thing about things is they start turning evil when you start to forget what they’re for and so if you’re not sure what you did with my sweater i’ll just have to love you a little bit more i had a ring it belonged to my grandfather he was a mason and gay and he was distant and bitter for all of my childhood we never had much to say he wasn’t the type to give tokens of affection and so i stole ring when he died and twenty years on when i lost it at a bar i thought that’s fine I DON’T WANT HIM IN MY LIFE because the thing about things is that they can start meaning things nobody actually said and if he couldn’t make something mean something for me i had to make up what it meant i can carry everything i need in one collapsing suitcase i can carry everyone i love in one phone application built to maximize the facetime with the friends i’m bent on making actually i want to be alone to mourn the loss of what this cost i think it’s a poem and i think it keeps going i’ve borrowed and lost lots of things and three nights ago in the bar where i lost it the bartender gave me the ring and i lie in bed with my phone in my hand thinking what can i fix with which app and i call my grandfather and he doesn’t answer and i have to make peace with that fact because the thing about things is that they can start meaning things nobody actually said and if you’re not allowed to love people alive then you learn how to love people dead the thing about things is that they can start meaning things nobody actually said and if you’re not allowed to love people alive then you learn how to love people dead

Amanda Palmer

May 26, 2015 16:03:22

Ronita Dragomir This song...<3

June 5, 2015 23:23:02 · Reply

Zuzana Procházková Hi, Amanda, I love you but I have to stop my paroning for now. I hope that few month I supported help you a little. Now is time to save money for my dream - I want to go to Peru visit clinic for addicted people for at least month, it's important experience for my (not only) career. I will always love you and your music :) Zuzana from Czech Republic

June 7, 2015 22:26:30 · Reply

Ara Kropp Thank you for this!! <3

July 14, 2015 08:55:38 · Reply

Live Through This: Elvis Mella
May 30, 2015 06:12:52
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Live Through This: Elvis Mella

Elvis Mella is a systems engineer for an accounting firm in Miami, FL. We also went to high school together. He was 32 when I interviewed him on January 4, 2014.


Read his story at http://livethroughthis.org/elvis-mella/.

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May 30, 2015 06:12:52

Live Through This: Niomi Provins
June 3, 2015 03:58:33
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Live Through This: Niomi Provins

Niomi Provins is a student in Austin, TX. I photographed her on November 28, 2013 (Thanksgiving), and interviewed her later via telephone. She was 19 at the time.


Read Niomi's story on the website at http://livethroughthis.org/niomi-provins/

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June 3, 2015 03:58:33

Live Through This: Michael Skinner
June 9, 2015 19:02:53
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Live Through This: Michael Skinner

Michael Skinner is a musician and mental health advocate who lives in New Hampshire. He was 59 when I interviewed him in Boston on April 5, 2014.


Read his story here: http://livethroughthis.org/michael-skinner/

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June 9, 2015 19:02:53

LONDON WEBCAST now free to the public
July 1, 2015 01:28:13
AMANDA PALMER COMPLETE SHOW @ UNION CHAPEL
YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WH3_KDmd4YE&feature=youtu.be
the ENTIRE london union chapel webcast...care of the PATRONS...it looks and sounds just beautiful. now EVERYBODY can enjoy it - so spread the link!
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July 1, 2015 01:28:13

BEHIND THE TREES - my first animated Thing !!!
July 30, 2015 17:34:10
"Behind the Trees" (a found voice memo animation)
YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9QlDX8mPAcc&feature=youtu.be
animation by: Avi Ofer http://www.aviofer.com/ assistant animators: Santi Amézqueta Porteros & Héctor Zafra Matos music written & recorded by Amanda Palmer this work was made possible by the amazin...
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BEHIND THE TREES - my first animated Thing !!!


HOLA COMRADES....


(this is a free public post. $3+ patrons will be getting a separate post with their download code for the video: watch for it!)


Oi! okay, i'm back in action….more or less. still a little under the weather, on antibiotics and probiotics and all the biotics but feeling way better. 


thank you all for so much care and kindness and lymey-spiney advice over the past few weeks. i feel really loved. lyme disease is clearly a nasty nasty thing.


so many people with undetected chronic lyme have contacted me, offering to share their wisdom. i’ve been calling it the “silent rock star killer”. i knew about kathleen hanna,


and avril lavigne, but there are OTHERS. i want to start a super-group with all them called SubLyme. our hit will be “what i got”. ask me no further questions about this….


and now we can get back to business 

presenting .....*drum roll*.......


my first ANIMATED THING!!


it's a *weird* one. 

but I'm really really proud of it, and i’ve been working on it in secret for months.


the story goes like this. 


i tend to use the voice memo function of my iphone for all sorts of things - but mostly song ideas that i almost never come back to. i sing melodies or to chatter a lyric to myself, or to dictate a thread of an idea for a talk if i'm driving and can’t jot shit down. and mostly i never go back and listen to any of this shit. mostly it just stayed like so much urban-myth undigested bubble gum in the pit of some digital art-stomach for years and years. 


this is not a habit i picked up once i had a smart phone. i used to just carry on these terrible habits with recording cassette walkmen, then for a terrible span of lost time in the late 1990s and early 2000s with minidisc, DAT, microcassette, and some weird nameless handheld digital voice recorder (I never really did figure out how to use any of them. I always missed my Walkman). the funny thing is, I have all my recorded Walkman tapes really organized. everything after about 1998 is a lost and disorganized mess. there's no central filing system. there's no single hard-drive. there's just shit everywhere - old phones that died or were lost with recordings on them, song ideas I emailed to myself but never really put anywhere, leaving scores of ideas to be post to various laptops and abandoned email systems. it's kind of a tragedy. but like my lost wedding dress and wedding vows (I know, I'm fucking terrible) I figure the passage of time flattens everything out. and maybe all those  songs were no good anyway. we will never know. 


in desperate times back in the late 1990s, if I was somewhere and without a recording device, I discovered the handy-dandy trick of caking my own voicemail and leaving myself song ideas. those were all certainly lost to time, but I was actually more disciplined about retrieving them, because I knew they had a short life. 


but all along I was, unwittingly, exercising whatever odd head-muscle must learn to *not* to feel foolish whilst humming nonsense words and half-baked rhymes in off-key whispers into phones at the the bottom of coat closets at friends parties. 


and nowadays I just use my iphone. 


now….fact: neil gaiman is a total weirdo when he's half asleep. in a GOOD way, usually. you know all that cray shit he's been writing for the past 30 years? it has to come from *somewhere*. the guy is a fleshy repository of surreal strangeness, and he's at his best when he's in the twilight zone of half-wakefulness. he's the strangest sleeper I've ever slept with (let's not get into who I've slept with...different animation) not just because of the bizarro things that come out of his mouth when he's in the gray area, but because he actually seems to take on a totally different persona when he's asleep. and when that dude shows up, the waking neil gaiman is impossible to get back, unless you really shout him awake. jekyll and hyde shit. if i ever get around to it, i want to write a neil gaiman instruction manual for whatever wife comes after me in case I die or we get divorced or whatever. i feel like it would make a good read in general. 


to be fair, and in his defense: neil has pointed out that i sometimes talk in my sleep and i say some pretty insane stuff. but I'm never around to hear it, so, you know, i just have to take his word for it. 


(i just texted and asked him to remind me of an example…he wrote back that i said “i want to go dancing and i don’t want them to take the sheep, don’t let them take the sheep”)


anyway, most of the time when he spouts some really surreal gems i just enjoy the carnival sideshow of Sleeping Neil and go off to sleep myself. but sometimes the shit is so good i write it down, mostly so i can tell him about it in the morning. 


when I found this voice memo, I couldn't even remember where we were when I recorded it...in a hotel somewhere, i think, and I am pretty sure i recorded it in the bathroom so i wouldn't bug neil. maybe i recorded it the following morning. i don't remember. 


all I know is that I was looking for some other recording ages later and I saw this untitled snippet and played it back and thought it was hilarious. 


and then I played it for neil and HE thought it was hilarious. 


i'd been recently watching the "blank on blank” animations (if you don’t know them…they’re amazing. here’s one of my favorites, a janis joplin interview https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VdF4b1_LQnQ) and was really inspired by what these surreal animators were doing with found sound recordings and interviews that were never intended to be animated, and i thought...this would such make a perfect animation.


i was at TED at the time I uncovered it - march of this last spring - and neil and i happened to be having dinner with maria popova (http://www.brainpickings.org/) and a random friend of hers. neil was so chuffed with the recording I'd found on my phone that he pulled out a set of headphones at the restaurant and said "play them the thing! play them the thing!"...and so i did, and i watched maria getting that delighted-yet-profound bulgarian look on her face. i mentioned it would make an amazing animation and it turns out that maria's random friend was logan smalley, who runs TED Ed (http://ed.ted.com/), which is basically an amazing little factory of awesome educational animated clips. he said he'd help me find an animator...and along with fishing around and asking on social media, i landed avi ofer (this was the clip of avi's  that really sold me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZQTQSbjecLg. you can see all his work here: http://www.aviofer.com/).


(a note here: i made pals with a handful of great animators who we didn’t wind up using…but many of them are excited to do stuff in the future. sooooo…i’m just saying. we could do more animated Things and i’d be happy as a clambake, and we’d get to give work to some super-talented artists).


so there we were. i hired avi, i dumped my basic ideas and vibe out in an email, sent him a bunch of reference clips and animations i liked, and we talked ideas and concepts on the phone and over email for a month or two. then he and his team got to work. they sent along their progress and every clip was like getting a little christmas present in my email, watching it take shape and grow….


I love what we ended up with. I hope you love it too. 


in closing, this is the thing i actually love most about this story:


unlike the songs I've released here so far: this project wouldn't have HAPPENED without the patreon. 


animating is time-consuming, and the artists need to get paid to slave over their hot animating stoves. 


and i know you guys love me and everything, but I also know what the market will bear as far as weird thing-content like this goes: if I simply fronted the money for this and then put it on YouTube with a nice little tip bucket at the bottom, it'd probably never recuperate a tenth of what it cost to make. likewise, if i fronted the money and then put it onsale, as a paywalled film on iTunes or whatever, it would be appreciated by a few hardcore folks….but locked and out of circulation. it couldn't go onto love a happy healthy youtube and vimeo life, where animations belong so that they can be shared. 


i know I'm also taking a risk, doing this one. there may well be people supporting the patreon here who are like THIS IS NOT THE THINGS I WANTED. if that's you, i encourage you to speak up. i am listening. this whole patreon Thing-thing is, as I made clear at the outset, an experiment. 


and for a moment, all you fine Patreon people, give yourselves a pat on the back. your support means that something now exists that never ever would have existed. 


in a way, that's priceless. 


i love you guys. 



xxxx


afp 


p.s. if you're reading this and you're not a patron, I enthusiastically encourage you to join, especially if you’ve managed to read this far in the blog. when you join, these blogs and content will be emailed straight to your inbox, you can join the comments, and you'll be joining a fantastic & supportive community of weirdos. and I'll love you forever for helping me to Make the Things. patreon 


p.p.s. you $3+ folks have a download link coming in a separate blog/email. watch for it. you $10+ patrons have a long overdue webcast coming your way. watch for that, too. patreon 4eva. 


p.p.p.s. i just showed this clip to whitney’s roommate alexei and he alerted me to http://sleeptalkinman.blogspot.com/. oh my god. it’s an epidemic of mild-mannered british men who say weird shit in their sleep! 


ALSO: all the links:







YOUTUBE

http://youtu.be/9QlDX8mPAcc


VIMEO

https://vimeo.com/134945314








Amanda Palmer

July 30, 2015 17:34:10

Eli Yess! What a treat! I would definitely support more things like this one. Love love LOVE the eyes in the drawer ^_^

August 1, 2015 15:11:04 · Reply

Fran Love it! That is such a lovely story :-) I am happy to have supported this THING! Unfortunately the German GEMA insitution for rights on arts' stuff doesn't allow to watch the video via patreon :-/ But thank god for vimeo :-) And thank you, Amanda, for keeping on going xxx

August 4, 2015 09:23:41 · Reply

Roberta Rae McMorran This is just beautiful! I'm honoured that I have the opportunity to help contribute to the production of more of this kind of THING :) more animations please!!

August 22, 2015 03:24:18 · Reply

July 2015 Patreon supported
August 1, 2015 06:59:00
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August 1, 2015 06:59:00

Live Through This: David Pajo
August 19, 2015 20:24:27
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Live Through This: David Pajo

David Pajo is a New Jersey-based musician known for his work with bands like SlintYeah Yeah Yeahs, and Interpol. He was 46 when I interviewed him in New York City on March 11, 2015.


Read his story on the website at http://livethroughthis.org/david-pajo/

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August 19, 2015 20:24:27

TRUTH & CONSEQUENCES - a patron-backed performance art book-drive
September 1, 2015 02:44:31
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September 1, 2015 02:44:31

Live Through This: Cecelia Markow
September 1, 2015 03:17:26
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Live Through This: Cecelia Markow

Cecilia Markow is a 19 year old musician and student from Austin, TX. I interviewed her in November 2013.


Once my internet connection gets fixed, her story will live at http://livethroughthis.org/cecelia-markow


In the meantime, you can see some of it on film (courtesy of the Mental Health Channel) here: http://mentalhealthchannel.tv/episode/live-through-this



If you’re feeling suicidal, please talk to somebody. You can reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. 


Thanks again to Whitney Rakich for transcribing Cissy's interview.

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September 1, 2015 03:17:26

August 2015 Patreon supported
September 1, 2015 06:59:00
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Live Through This: Lyndee McKinley
September 29, 2015 18:15:47
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Live Through This: Lyndee McKinley

Lyndee McKinley is a foster parent and owner of a catering company. She was 23 when I interviewed her in Austin, TX, on November 26, 2013.


You can read her story on the website here.

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September 29, 2015 18:15:47

Live Through This: Alissa Orber
September 30, 2015 21:54:29
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Live Through This: Alissa Orber

Alissa Orber is a comedian in Los Angeles. She was 28 when I interviewed her in Brooklyn, NY, on March 10, 2014.


Here's a snippet from her interview:


Des: Do you address this kind of subject matter in your comedy?


Alissa: I don't, really. The thing is, sometimes it depends on the crowd. A lot of people get super uncomfortable when you talk about it... I feel like this is something that we have to deal with, [but] people don't really react favorably to it, so I don't address it that much. I do address my feelings of inadequacy in comedy. Basically, my comedy is me getting up there and talking about how awful I am, and hoping that people laugh at it, and it seems to have been going over pretty well so far.


Des: Does it make you feel better?


Alissa: Yeah!


Des: Tell me more about comedians and depression, or alcoholism, or suicide.


Alissa: Well, comedy... A sense of humor, in itself, is a defense mechanism. My defense mechanism is just more palatable than [some] other people's. It's something you can make money off of, honestly. I think, with a defense mechanism like that, I got it from feeling neglected as a child, being bullied. It's a defense mechanism that people who've not had it so well usually develop, and therefore they're already prone to depression. I think that's really a big part of it.


Also, I think you have to be smart to be funny, and people who are smart are usually miserable. I just read somewhere that people with higher IQs are generally pretty miserable. I get it. When you know what's going on, it's kind of depressing.


Luckily, I never developed any real addictions to anything, but that is common in comedy, as well—alcoholism, drug use. There's just that need to disconnect from how depressed you are.



You can read the rest of her story over on the website.

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September 30, 2015 21:54:29

September 2015 Patreon supported
October 1, 2015 06:59:00
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October 1, 2015 06:59:00

SpaceVR No problem. We love SPAAAAACE! Hopefully we can support you at the $50 level next month. DFTBA

October 1, 2015 17:20:45 · Reply

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