To get to this point in my own life where I can sit at a desk, indoors, warmed by a wood stove, and enjoy all of you wonderful people online, let alone what brought the whole human race and world to this point really is interesting. We weren't alone though. There weren't always cars, roads, boats, or planes. These new mechanisms are time machines, and we are so wrapped up in modern habits it is hard to recognize sometimes. The domestication of plants and animals have followed us through these centuries. I was once offered an intern job with Ian Graham at Harvard, the archeologist who originally translated the Mayan hieroglyphs. I was just finishing high school, & couldn't recognize the opportunity for what it really was. I was stuck on the idea of studying living animals, rather than the past. In retrospect, who knows what would have happened if I stayed in Boston. Maybe I would have broken my neck on a cross country course like superman. We will never know the what ifs of the past, only the the what ifs of the present. Jump in with both feet forward or step carefully testing the waters with your toes swirling around those possibilities, but we'll never know unless we try. Do each of us have a hard set purpose? I don't know. Is our destiny already written, in our own hearts at least? What makes you feel alive? What can we learn from the past? There are probably a lot of mistakes that we can learn from history. If you have an idea, look to see if it has been done before, so you can save the time to improve onto it. I see this all the time with ambitious kids running head on into the restoration world, without reading the reports and projects of their elders. I have no understanding of politics and what makes that continue to go in a spiral. This is a video I made for my horse Gondola, who evolved into my current black horse Hatchy, who completely reminds me of my horse Magic who I had as a kid. Each horse continues to teach me so much, every time I ride. The idea that these horse breeds, characteristics, personalities, purposes have been passed down as long as we have written records, cave paintings. It's fascinating. Where to now?

(english translation in the video description on youtube) This was the closest I could come up with to encompass the feeling of living 'in the woods'. The heightened awareness of sound, sight, & movement, along with the feeling of absolute panic, anxiety, & helplessness, though pushing on for a purpose. Both song & series remind me of the Forest Defense in the Mattole. The freedom of running in the forest, while being hunted, with a goal to prevent corporate greed. Fear, anger, desperation, sorrow, and yes lots of running coupled with solitary silence, immobility, and the uncontrollable shakes. I guess the government has it figured out, clear-cut all of the forests, then the outlaws have absolutely no place to hide. (For details, read my book! Available here for patrons) lol

I used to do a LOT of collages. See http://heard-a-goat.deviantart.com/gallery/44614106/99-Collage-Book So when I discovered video editing, to me it was like being able to take thousands of images, shot by shot into a story. It can be just as deep and meaningful as an abstract collage but it is often more user friendly, which was the original idea of the collage books that I used to make. I figured they would be easier for people to take their own understanding of the images, compared to if I were to keep an emotional journal of my travels. It's much easier to write comprehensively from a distance than in the moment. Again Merlin. I really love the medieval time eras, & am a complete sufferer of Arthuritis. I have a full book case of Arthurian tales. My personal favorites by far are the Camulod Chronicles by: Jack Whyte. He begins the nine book series in the time of the Roman occupation of Britain, Arthur's great grandparents. He writes the series as historical novels, focusing on the ancient warfare tactics. My favorite book in the series is a stand alone novel called Uther, which takes place in the hills with the tribes, whose tactics are very different than the heavy cavalry. Haha, anyway, my happy place when I really feel that magical balance that I'm always chasing in life is riding & training high level Dressage horses, which the sport originated in that primitive discipline of mounted sword fighting.

(I'm also a major Placebo fan) I really love and appreciate people who work behind the scenes. They often don't get the recognition they deserve. The folks in the background can make or break a production or project. From stunt coordinators like Andreas, to the Design team of Twitch =) Those small details sure make a huge difference. This is a video I made to say my thanks.

The combination of BBC Merlin and the french musician Damien Saez has been a huge inspiration to me.

Even though I am quiet, I do enjoy having fun.