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The truth is i am in a bit of a dire situation monetarily, it's always been like this unfortunately, but it's becoming a bit more severe lately because my lack of psychiatric treatment and shortage of funds to be able to afford the paxil and xanax that i was prescribed for my anxiety, depression & agoraphobia monthly is affecting me in more direct ways as of late (I'm not sure whether it's because of withdrawal caused by not being to take the "Paxil" periodically and instead being forced to take it back on and off dictated by whether or not there's enough money that month to be able to afford a 30 pill prescription, and that's not taking into account my dosage of xanax, which i'm doing my best to skip to save up on money to afford the Paxil, which has a more significant effect on my condition, although ideally, i should be taking both according to my psychiatrist, that's easier said than done sadly so i can't meet that requirement from him most of the time...hell, right now, i'm going on with either one and last month it showed, which was quickly evident to me that it took a toll on my daily life.)
A recent event in particular gave me an idea, and although it's a bit embarassing to propose this because i'd have rather not have to resort to pestering my watchers, it's important to me as it's a personal health problem.
See, a monthly dose would roughly run me $100, give or take, which account for a month's worth of treatment,  (the Paxil and Xanax were being donated by my mom in the hopes that it would improve my mental health situation and over the years it'd be manageable enough to be able to go out there and maybe get at least a low-end job, possibly school janitor...but nowadays, she is in debt and it hurts me personally that, i cannot take care of my own self even after all these years...i feel a lot of pent up frustration honestly..)

I've been chasing that goal since 2011...things never worked out, i ran out of funds to continue treatment a little over a year after, and now am not even able to account for the cost of the medication which kept me relatively at bay psychologically and emotionally.

Well, just recently i was given a generous $30 commission deal, a far cry from the daily $1 to 3 i generally do, and it dawned on me, that if i could work hard enough, it would no longer be $30 a month and i would be able to continue the treatment (even though i would not have enough for the medication, so i have to decide which would be more beneficial to my health.)

Ideally, i'd need to make $100 a month just for medication sessions alone, any more than that and it could go into funding the cost of therapy which my doctor may be offering to me generously until i can afford it (Paxil's the priority, although ideally, i was adviced to take Xanax aswell.)

Right now, i've $42 from several commissions in the past week, but $30 of that were a stroke of luck (a generous offer by Archer011 )and generally, it is $1 to $3 a day, so it might not be a good reflection of what i can manage to earn weekly.
I was wondering if we could work out something between us all so that i could get back to being provided mental health therapy?

I just want to be my old self again..or at least not reach rock bottom anymore...because it's getting harder to resist as it wears me out over the years...

It's a bit of a desperate measure, but what's been happening last month is starting to scare me enough that i realized it was either mustering up the courage to come out and say this, or risk have the situation worsen to the point where my life and subsistance will be in real danger...it's frightening and is not letting me think straight anymore.
I'm sorry to do this...it's a bit shameful because i wanted to be able to make it on my own without bugging other people, but it's become too dire to ignore...
Thank you kindly in advance.
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Pledge $1 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
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I'll draw a new digital sketch and post it to pantreon for every pledge, no matter the amount!
Pledge $5 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
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I will provide a black and white character sketch of the character of your choice!Keep in mind that this is an item that is digitally drawn and delivered.
Pledge $10 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
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I will provide a black and white clean lineart of of a character of your choice!Keep in mind that this is an item that is digitally drawn and delivered.
Pledge $100 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
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Traditionally drawn work (Physical Item)
I'll ship out a traditional black and white artwork to the Backer if the goal for the monthly medication prescriptions are met!
Pledge $200 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
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Figurine (Physical Item)
My ceiling is in need of repairing, particularly in times of heavy rain where it leaks right over my TV and i have to cover it...i don't have the means to do so and am afraid it may cause a short circuit if it happens while i am asleep, so if it can be fixed, i'd be very grateful.
I will ship out a custom figurine fully painted and made of a sturdy material to a Backer if met.
Pledge $300 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
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Fanart ArtBook (Physical Item)
My walls are practically crumbling...because, my room is quite ghetto overall (i inherited it from my grandparents, so you can imagine it is nearly a century old, if not more)

Only repairs to the floor could be afforded, and the dust and crumble is very problematic on a day to day basis.
I will offer a 1 of a kind (single edition, hand painted, not printed) fan book if the goal is met
Pledge $399.95 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
0 of 1 patrons
Cover the additional $400 that my doctor would charge me for a full month of theraphy sessions...if met, i can mail out a traditional work in full color down to you (physical copy)!
Pledge $400 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
0 of 1 patrons
Figurine & 10-piece A4 original artwork collection reward (physical item)
Unfortunately i've been having dental problems throughout my childhood, and although treated, it was to no avail, and they ended up weakening to the point where they are almost completely deteriorated...it's now difficult to eat harder foods and it causes incredible pain if i am to bite the wrong way.

A denture is incredibly costly and so i've been having to go on with it for most of my teens and into early adulthood, but it is becoming nearly impossible to ignore now...next to my mental health worries, this is by far that which is affecting me the most on a personal level...
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$0 of $100 per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
Reach enough funds to obtain a monthly prescription of argentina's brand of xanax and paxil...if met, i can mail out a traditional artwork (physical copy) of your choice down to you!
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The truth is i am in a bit of a dire situation monetarily, it's always been like this unfortunately, but it's becoming a bit more severe lately because my lack of psychiatric treatment and shortage of funds to be able to afford the paxil and xanax that i was prescribed for my anxiety, depression & agoraphobia monthly is affecting me in more direct ways as of late (I'm not sure whether it's because of withdrawal caused by not being to take the "Paxil" periodically and instead being forced to take it back on and off dictated by whether or not there's enough money that month to be able to afford a 30 pill prescription, and that's not taking into account my dosage of xanax, which i'm doing my best to skip to save up on money to afford the Paxil, which has a more significant effect on my condition, although ideally, i should be taking both according to my psychiatrist, that's easier said than done sadly so i can't meet that requirement from him most of the time...hell, right now, i'm going on with either one and last month it showed, which was quickly evident to me that it took a toll on my daily life.)
A recent event in particular gave me an idea, and although it's a bit embarassing to propose this because i'd have rather not have to resort to pestering my watchers, it's important to me as it's a personal health problem.
See, a monthly dose would roughly run me $100, give or take, which account for a month's worth of treatment,  (the Paxil and Xanax were being donated by my mom in the hopes that it would improve my mental health situation and over the years it'd be manageable enough to be able to go out there and maybe get at least a low-end job, possibly school janitor...but nowadays, she is in debt and it hurts me personally that, i cannot take care of my own self even after all these years...i feel a lot of pent up frustration honestly..)

I've been chasing that goal since 2011...things never worked out, i ran out of funds to continue treatment a little over a year after, and now am not even able to account for the cost of the medication which kept me relatively at bay psychologically and emotionally.

Well, just recently i was given a generous $30 commission deal, a far cry from the daily $1 to 3 i generally do, and it dawned on me, that if i could work hard enough, it would no longer be $30 a month and i would be able to continue the treatment (even though i would not have enough for the medication, so i have to decide which would be more beneficial to my health.)

Ideally, i'd need to make $100 a month just for medication sessions alone, any more than that and it could go into funding the cost of therapy which my doctor may be offering to me generously until i can afford it (Paxil's the priority, although ideally, i was adviced to take Xanax aswell.)

Right now, i've $42 from several commissions in the past week, but $30 of that were a stroke of luck (a generous offer by Archer011 )and generally, it is $1 to $3 a day, so it might not be a good reflection of what i can manage to earn weekly.
I was wondering if we could work out something between us all so that i could get back to being provided mental health therapy?

I just want to be my old self again..or at least not reach rock bottom anymore...because it's getting harder to resist as it wears me out over the years...

It's a bit of a desperate measure, but what's been happening last month is starting to scare me enough that i realized it was either mustering up the courage to come out and say this, or risk have the situation worsen to the point where my life and subsistance will be in real danger...it's frightening and is not letting me think straight anymore.
I'm sorry to do this...it's a bit shameful because i wanted to be able to make it on my own without bugging other people, but it's become too dire to ignore...
Thank you kindly in advance.

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Tiers
Pledge $1 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
0 patrons
I'll draw a new digital sketch and post it to pantreon for every pledge, no matter the amount!
Pledge $5 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
0 patrons
I will provide a black and white character sketch of the character of your choice!Keep in mind that this is an item that is digitally drawn and delivered.
Pledge $10 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
0 patrons
I will provide a black and white clean lineart of of a character of your choice!Keep in mind that this is an item that is digitally drawn and delivered.
Pledge $100 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
0 of 1 patrons
Traditionally drawn work (Physical Item)
I'll ship out a traditional black and white artwork to the Backer if the goal for the monthly medication prescriptions are met!
Pledge $200 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
0 of 1 patrons

Figurine (Physical Item)
My ceiling is in need of repairing, particularly in times of heavy rain where it leaks right over my TV and i have to cover it...i don't have the means to do so and am afraid it may cause a short circuit if it happens while i am asleep, so if it can be fixed, i'd be very grateful.
I will ship out a custom figurine fully painted and made of a sturdy material to a Backer if met.
Pledge $300 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
0 of 1 patrons
Fanart ArtBook (Physical Item)
My walls are practically crumbling...because, my room is quite ghetto overall (i inherited it from my grandparents, so you can imagine it is nearly a century old, if not more)

Only repairs to the floor could be afforded, and the dust and crumble is very problematic on a day to day basis.
I will offer a 1 of a kind (single edition, hand painted, not printed) fan book if the goal is met
Pledge $399.95 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
0 of 1 patrons
Cover the additional $400 that my doctor would charge me for a full month of theraphy sessions...if met, i can mail out a traditional work in full color down to you (physical copy)!
Pledge $400 or more per Drawing, Painting & Sculpt Works to help pay Medical costs.
0 of 1 patrons
Figurine & 10-piece A4 original artwork collection reward (physical item)
Unfortunately i've been having dental problems throughout my childhood, and although treated, it was to no avail, and they ended up weakening to the point where they are almost completely deteriorated...it's now difficult to eat harder foods and it causes incredible pain if i am to bite the wrong way.

A denture is incredibly costly and so i've been having to go on with it for most of my teens and into early adulthood, but it is becoming nearly impossible to ignore now...next to my mental health worries, this is by far that which is affecting me the most on a personal level...