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About Simona Rich

My name is Simona Rich and I was born in Vilnius, the capital of Lithuania. When I finished school, I got a scholarship to study tourism in the UK. There I started a very ‘normal’ life.

I was in a relationship, living with my partner in his apartment, watching TV and having an okay-paying job. But although I was living the life that’s supposed to be normal by today’s standards, I always felt that there’s something wrong with this kind of lifestyle.

I knew it always, that feeling was always in the background, but I couldn’t really define it. I just knew that I was searching for something, and I thought that I would never find it – I assumed that there’s no answer to that unspoken question.

So I continued my average existence, though always aware of the fact that something was wrong with this kind of living; that some major part of life was missing, or that something was hidden from me. Therefore, I'd been a truth seeker since the very beginning, but it took me some time to understand that it's the truth that I was searching for.

What really triggered me to rethink my life was the question that reached me out of nowhere, when, one afternoon, I was walking to the bookshop after finishing my call-center shift. The question that I heard in my head was this:
Is this all life can offer me?
I never had this sort of question popping in my head before, so it felt like it didn’t originate from me. It took me out of balance, and although I was pondering on it, I couldn’t really answer it.

I entered the bookshop and started browsing; I would go to that bookshop often those days, but I would never buy anything – I just loved browsing through all sorts of books. But that time a particular book caught my attention, and I knew that I had to get it.

The book was Rich Dad, Poor Dad by Robert Kiyosaki, and it was the book that totally changed my understanding of how to handle finances, and it was the book that started my journey towards financial independence.

This book led me to many other wealth books, and the more of them I read and applied in my life, the more in control of my finances I got. Reading such books eventually led me to a similar category of self-help books to do with personal development.

So this got me hooked into the new-age spirituality, though I was ignorant of this label at that time. I ended up reading hundreds of new-age books, and due to this I totally changed my life, became emotionally and financially independent, started my own blog, and, when the blog generated enough income, I finally was able to decide where I really wanted to live.

(in Kerala, South India)

Since at that time I was thoroughly into new-age, I asked, according to the new-age teachings, the "Universe" where I should live; Then all sorts of messages started reaching me about India. So I took it as a sign that it was the place where I should go. And the day I landed there that place felt like home.

The start of spiritual practices

Though meditation wasn’t new to me – I meditated on and off since the age of sixteen – it was in India that I started to seriously practice it.

Yet even whilst meditating at that young age, I already developed some yogic powers, such as being able to generate heat when meditating in cold environments. This is surely going to be ascribed by many to a previous life as a yogi, maybe somewhere in Himalayas.

In India I discovered yoga, and all sorts of other eastern traditions got my attention such as palmistry and astrology. Yoga and meditation, however, remained my major pursuits throughout my years there. Since I fully followed the doctrines of yoga and meditation, together with strict celibacy, almost no engagement with the outside world and regular reading of Indian spiritual texts, my progress was fast.

Soon I could get into very deep meditation states, my third eye chakra got activated enabling me to see visions and colors; I quite mastered yoga and I was encouraged by some of my readers and those who knew me personally to become a yoga teacher. That, however, never felt right for me. 

(Me in traditional South Indian clothes)

Despite of my refusal to become a yoga teacher, I would personally spend sometimes several hours a day practicing yoga. Due to my studies of Indian spiritual books, meditation and the yogic practice, I was becoming increasingly detached.

Though I was never a person that could be called "attached", the detachment was definitely increasing. I could stay alone, without speaking, for days, and there was never any desire to break such silence.

When I would meet someone and would form a relationship, when the time would arrive to part our ways, I never missed a new acquaintance; as soon as he or she was out of sight, they were out of my mind too. Some people saw this as coldness, but I saw this as a sign of spiritual progress.

Meeting Indian gurus further convinced me that my spiritual progress was fast; at the very last stages of awakening I would get people approaching me to acknowledge my spiritual presence - it happened so often that I could not dismiss it as a mere coincidence. Some people would hold hands in a "namaste" position without even knowing me; some would approach me to express their amazement at the kind of aura/energy that I had.

By this time I had a thriving self-improvement and spirituality blog. I was getting around six thousand daily readers, and I had around 45,000 social network followers and newsletter subscribers. I thought that my new-age articles greatly helped people to find God, and the feedback that I got from my readers further convinced me of this.

But then an unexpected turn happened in my life. Just before my thirtieth birthday, I left India, as I was getting too attached to my beloved country. After all, I had been living there for years, and I started feeling that the country itself became like a spiritual crutch for me. In order to test my independence from India, I decided to leave. So I booked a flight ticket to Philippines.

(A picture taken right before the second (spiritual) birth. The old is self is dead, it's possible to see that in the eyes.)

Upon staying in the new country for around two months, I continued experiencing all kinds of spiritual phenomena as a result of my yoga and meditation practices. Finally, one day, whilst I was having tea in a restaurant in Boracay (it's an island in Philippines), I experienced the most extraordinary thing.

The place of the scull called "anterior fontanelle" got saturated with something that felt like a cool liquid or energy, and that energy then travelled through the brain pathways to embrace the whole brain.

Although at that time I didn’t know what had happened, soon I realized that this was the opening my crown chakra, the kundalini being freed to merge with the Infinite.

After this event I no longer felt the same way; I felt that a channel of some sort was opened in my head. I felt that there’s a definite energy pathway that got opened.

Since I was very familiar with Indian spiritual texts, I knew that this opening was supposed to connect me with God – that the Shakti in me was supposed to travel to her Shiva. After two months of this opening, I started worrying, because I noticed that this opening didn’t empower me in any way, but actually made me much more vulnerable.

Before the opening I was fine with feeling energies or getting visions. But now those energies and visions started frightening me, because I understood that the spiritual realm was very, very real, and that it’s not what people think it to be.

The event that really convinced me that I was messing with the energies whose nature I wasn’t told about by the Indian spiritual texts was when I was in Malaysia, sitting in a Buddhist temple - around two months after the crown-chakra opening.

I bent down to search for something in my bag, and a monk passed by very close to my crown chakra. As soon as he passed by, I felt a sudden forceful invasion of a really low-vibration energy into my body through the crown chakra. Not that I'm against Buddhist monks, but people could be either good or evil no matter to what religion they belong.

It was so unexpected and the energy was so strong, that it totally took me out of balance, and I needed to really hold myself and breathe slowly to recover. That was the first time I felt spiritually violated, though I felt this way several times before, though in a much milder degree, after the opening of the crown chakra.

So when I was thinking about my state, I became increasingly more worried. I felt not myself anymore. I felt like I lost a personal component of my life, which, as I was taught by the Hindu spiritual doctrine, was a very good thing.

But in Hinduism there’s a promise that when this happens, you get a divine life in return. This didn’t happen. [Update: it did happen later, please read till the end.]

The crown-chakra opening made me open to the almost tangible reality of the spiritual world, and it was so overwhelming and confusing, that one day I almost broke down. I fell on my knees and started praying for God to show me the truth, no matter what the cost, because I didn’t want to live in such a state of not knowing what’s happening to me.

And God heard my genuine prayers, and He showed me the truth. What it became clear to me through this revelation is that I broke many of God's laws, and that they are the universal laws that are found in Christian commandments as well as in other spiritual teachings.

At that moment I still thought God to be external, but as my spiritual birth developed, I realized that what happened was the connection with the Higher brain/Higher Self, so well shown in this famous painting:
(Here we see that Adam is reaching out to the "Father in Heaven", when that Father is nothing more than his Higher Self/Higher brain, shown in a cloud-outline which is actually the brain of Adam and not an external cloud in the sky.)

I was so frightened by this experience that I thought that I was fooled by the yogic spiritual teachings. It took me a year to really understand what happened by thinking about this experience almost every day.

What I realized was that I got exactly what I was searching for all my life - the truth; but it wasn't what I expected it to be! Even after researching kundalini awakening accounts, I came to the conclusion that coming in touch with/being assaulted by demonic entities is natural when you're waking up.

That's because you're becoming a bright being, and those dark entities are surprised by seeing such a thing in this dark world, and they feel threatened by such a light. Thus, they come to destroy and attack, in order to extinguish the light that's getting brighter.

For more than a year I intensely studied the Bible and extra-biblical material. I had spiritual experiences and even saw the trinity in a dream. However, after this intense study I came to the conclusion that the prayers of Christians are actually channeled to the Egyptian trinity due to the way that the Catholic Church has altered the original faith.

I've realized that the Bible has many masonic symbols, coded messages and stories taken from ancient pagan faiths. I still believe that Yeshua's teachings were right and should be followed by the humanity, but now I also know almost beyond doubt that he was one of the initiates, or - magicians.

I ran to Jesus as a result of the scary awakening as I was taken out of balance; but the realization that the "Father in Heaven" was nothing more than the Higher Self, and Jesus - the Christ which is love/enlightenment, I could not help but distance myself from the orthodox Christianity that takes everything literally and anthropomorphizes the forces of nature.

These discoveries empowered and freed me, but at the same time many of my readers were disappointed by me distancing myself from Christianity. Some even accused me of being a false teacher because of this change, and some attacked me with hurtful accusations.

After more than a year of the third-eye chakra opening I began really understanding what took place that day. I got anointed. The meaning of the word "Christ" is the "anointed one". "Messiah" means the same thing.

Everyone of us should experience that anointing because that's a true born-again experience - internal salvation. This teaching of how to be born-again is found in the inner teachings of different religions, but it's suppressed and therefore people need to go beyond the surface of mainstream religions to find it.

This is the most important thing that could happen in your life because it's the true mental and physical transformation. Because these inner teachings are only partially available (forces of darkness always attempted to destroy it), we don't have the full information of how to go through this process safely, so things go wrong. If you don't purify and prepare yourself, things can go really bad.

Through the grace of God I was able to go through it, but the experience was frightening. During that experience you suddenly find the veil totally lifting up and you see the spirit realm. For those who never experienced it, or experienced it only a little, this can be traumatic. And if you don't understand the process, it can completely frighten you.

You will experience intense purification and it might seem that all your energy is being removed through the crown chakra. Demons will attack you as now you are a bright being, and sometimes they may even try to possess you so that they frighten you and you stop the awakening. Your old personality dies and it will feel like you are extinguishing your very self.

These experiences might be truly disturbing, and that's what New Age fails to address, painting everything in bright colors. I did more reading about these experiences, and I realize now that all the stages that happened to me are listed in the spiritual books in esoteric Hinduism. At first it's frightening, especially if one is not ready.

But later the experience normalizes and then the benefits are felt. I'm at the stage where I feel the benefits of this experience. My mood is uplifted almost always, I am not shaken by things that most people are shaken by. Since the personal energy after the transformation vibrates at a much higher level, I tend to stay alone as there's really nothing in common between me and most people.

In Buddhism this stage is called "a change in lineage", because after your second birth (not a Christian term, by the way) you really become more than a human. I'm not telling this arrogantly, I'm just explaining what to expect as this will happen to all who go through this experience.

There is definitely the connection with the Divine. I can learn new things very quickly and there's plenty of energy. What I experienced is called "enlightenment" in Hinduism. But new-age got it all wrong. It's not that you become god and know everything when this happens to you. But it's the process when you are born of spirit, and a great transformation follows this experience.

I'm still in the process of learning about this experience and feeling its benefits. After it there's a lot of work to do; one needs to totally unify oneself - merge the conscious with the subconscious mind, to become a whole human being. This is just one of the many things to do.

Life in Lithuania

(A picture from my garden in Lithuania)

After living many years in India, I finally felt the urge to return to my home country. I returned here recently (in June of 2018) and purchased a plot of land in a village, with a wooden hut. I hope to make this place a perfect meditation spot and live a natural, self-sustaining life.

In the future, if everything goes well, I hope to invite my readers to meditate here with me. But first, some more spiritual heights must be achieved, so that I establish myself and mature in those states. I know that I will feel when it's the right time to gather a community of meditators around me, and I hope to achieve it in this lifetime.

My story doesn't end here. It's an ever-going process. Every day I'm learning something new and my understanding of this reality is expanding, whilst old beliefs are breaking down. This is again one of the things that happens after the awakening - the destruction of all false concepts and beliefs.

I hope that you will learn from my journey and benefit from my attained knowledge; I hope that the information on this blog will help you to avoid the mistakes that I made in my spiritual path, so that your progress is faster and smoother.

Thank you for reading this far; if you wish to keep in touch with me, you may choose to subscribe to my newsletter found close to the top of the right sidebar, so that you are updated when I post a new article. You may also choose to donate or support me here on Patreon, for which I would be very grateful.

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